Everything I Couldn't Say!

This third big change is killing me. I just want you back. Last night was so good having you around, but then I realise I don’t know when I’ll see you again and all I want to do is cry.

goodbyes will never not suck! I’m so thankful to you. Once I recover, I won’t stop pushing myself. I want to be seen. I deserve to be seen and I want to be known. Time to stop overthinking and just be

the sadness I feel the more I say goodbye to relationships I value so much. No matter how much I say you’re stuck with me regardless of where you go, I’m so scared this is goodbye and I’m not ready. I don’t think I ever will be

I feel like I could disappear and no one would notice

I feel like I’m nothing to people unless I’m achieving something

I really miss you. I care a lot more than I will ever tell you

I really used to love being alone. The more healing I do, the more I just want to be around safe people who I can have fun with

Find people who notice when things are different and want to be there to support. Regardless of how hard I find it to accept, I’m so grateful to you ❤️

Even when the brain wants to forget. The body remembers. Nothing like feeling my tolerance lessen and I realise once again, you can’t distract your way through anniversaries. All I want to do is cry. why do some things hit so much harder than others

I may or may not think about you a lot. Some part of me wants to know more, but the other part of me wants to pull away

Sometimes I wish I could talk to someone about anything and everything

It’s crazy how much faith you have in me. Sometimes I just wish you would want to spend the time with me

One of the hardest things is knowing I’ve come so far, but I still struggle to see myself the same way others do.