best boy

Hey! Sorry for the delay in responding to this ask, but I really wanted to make a more involved post than just answering your questions. I figured the best way to show you would be to take some pictures of it during a change, so you can really see how they work! (Also cause I was reasonably sure my bladder would be empty so I could be un-diapered long enough to take some pics without sprinkling all over the place, hehe).

Jackson sat on the couch totally engrossed in his current Minecraft creation. We’d done our usual Saturday morning routine of pancakes and meeting up with friends at the playground so when we got home and he asked to play some Minecraft I allowed it. He’s a pretty active kid, so I don’t mind an afternoon of video games but for the last hour and a half he’d been glued to that spot, barely even shifting on the couch. I walked in front of him to grab something off the coffee table when I noticed his diaper bulge looked suspiciously big…

“Hey kiddo”, I said looking down at him, “how’s your game going?”

“It’s great daddy!!” He chirped, barely looking at me “look what I’m making!! It’s an extension onto my treehouse base! It’s gonna be so awesome when I’m done!”

I glanced at the TV at what he was working on, and had to admit it looked pretty cool. “That’s great champ! I think someone’s in need of a diaper change though…”

His brow furrowed in concern “um… no I don’t think so daddy…” Continuing his creation he reached a hand down to touch his diaper through his shorts. “I don’t even feel wet!”

The fact he couldn’t even take his hand off the controller didn’t convince me he was actually aware of the state of his pampers. “Well I believe you, but daddy wants to check just to make sure. Can you pause your game and pull down your pants please?”

“But daddy I’m almost done! Can’t it wait ten more minutes?” He pleaded.

“Jackson”, I said more sternly than before “pause your game and show me your diaper please. Your game will still be there in a few minutes.”

Looking guiltily up at me he mumbled “yes, daddy” before pausing his game, setting the controller aside, and undoing his pants. Gently chewing his lip, he slowly pulled them down and his diaper started to peek out.

"Thank you , buddy. Keep pulling them down so daddy can see."

Looking down and away, he kept pulling his shorts down. When I saw the state of his diaper my suspicions had been confirmed...

With his yellow wetness indicator long gone, that little blue stripe along with the swollen padding clearly showed he'd wet his diaper.

"Oh yeah champ", I said playfully, giving his diaper a gentle squeeze for good measure. "The diaper doesn't lie, and it's telling daddy that somebody's got a soggy pampers".

"Really?", he squeaked, crunching forward to examine his diaper until he saw the unmistakable blue line. He blushed and said bashfully "I'm sorry for being fussy about a check, daddy... I really thought I was still dry..."

"It's okay, little man", I soothed before plopping a kiss on his forehead "just means the master architect needs a fresh diaper before he continues his masterpiece. Lay down for me please, daddy will grab a diaper and change you here."

He laid down on the couch as I walked into his room. Opening his diaper drawer I heard him call out from the living room "daddy? What's a artitecht?". I chuckled, grabbing the diaper and wipes and called back, "an architect is someone who designs and builds buildings".

I heard him say "oh" as I walked back into the living room. Coming around the corner I saw him laid out for a change, and that he'd gone back to his game without a care about his wet pampers on full display.

I set his fresh diaper down and he asked me "daddy, does that mean ima artitecht then cause I built lots of stuff in Minecraft". Un-taping his diaper and wiping him down I replied "I think it does, buddy!". He smiled a bit at that, but then shivered and squirmed as I passed the wipe over his peepee.

"Daddy it's cold!", he protested.

"I know it, kiddo. Daddy's almost done, lift please." Not taking his eyes off the game, he lifted his hips and I slid the clean diaper underneath him. As I pulled the tapes securely around his waist I said "there we go big guy! All clean!".

He sat up and threw his arms around me "all clean!" he parroted before saying "thank you, daddy".

"You're most welcome buddy. Why don't we ditch the shorts, that way daddy can see more easily when you need a change next".

He replied "Okay daddy!" before kicking off his shorts onto the ground and settling back into his spot.

"Do you wanna play with me, daddy? We could do two players and you can build your own part of the base!"

"I would love to buddy. Why don't you grab the extra controller while daddy goes potty?"

I was inspired by this post to actually try out being consistently diapered. Not having someone to help keep me diapered has always led to sporadic use for me. I've been reading lately that consistency goes a long day in helping to reduce feelings of shame/anxiety and normalize diaper use/wear.

Obviously the best consistency would be 24/7 but that's a commitment I'm just not able to make at this time (and am not even sure I want it, to be totally honest). So starting today I'm trying out 50:50 Diaper Dependence (I thought about waiting until next month, but then thought, "there's no time like the present!").

I need to be diapered for at least 50% of the month. Each day I wear earns me a day off, which I can use whenever I want (up to 50% of the days of the month, obviously).

I'm hoping that having the safety of the days off will also make this feel more manageable for me. This is something I've been curious about for a long time, so I hope it sticks. I'm also going to be tracking my mood, because I'm interested to see if there's a correlation between my mood and being diapered or not.

I'll probably make a post at the end of the month giving an update on how it went as an accountability measure (no promises though, I might change my mind, idk). Here goes nothing... wish me luck!

Here's a transcript of my log!

Boys must be in diapers 50% of the month.

Boys can earn one day off for every day in diapers.

Boys can use their off days in 1/2 day increments whenever they want up to 50% of the days of the month.

While in diapers, boys must wet them when they feel the urge, including in public. NO EXCEPTIONS.

While in diapers, boys are not permitted to reach into their diapers to touch their privates. They are, however, encouraged to make stickies in their diapers when they are pokey.

(All characters are 18+!!)

“Oh my gosh is that what I think it is..?” Morgan asked, squinting slightly at Jackson’s waistband.

In that moment, Jacky reached forward to grab a pop and hotdog being handed to him. Unbeknownst to him though, his t-shirt rose up a little higher, and previously what was just poking out of his jeans, was now pretty obviously visible. Too wrapped up in enjoying his hotdog, he didn't notice, and didn't bother to pull his shirt back down.

Poor little guy didn't even know his pampers was showing...

Now that there was no denying it, I didn't see any point in trying to hide the truth. It's not like Jackson cared about his diapers, and Morgan just seemed genuinely curious. Their kiddo Avery had been in Jacky's class last year too, and the two of them were attached at the hip at this BBQ. If the kids became closer friends, Morgan would find out about Jacky's situation anyway...

"Oh, yeah", I said casually "Jackson's still in diapers"

"Really?", they replied not unkindly, just seeming a little surprised, which I couldn't exactly blame them for. "But he's so big! Didn't he just turn 7 at his party last week?"

"Yeah, he's 7 now. But he still really doesn't have a grasp on how to control his bladder. When we did potty training when he was younger he managed to get control of his messes, but he almost never made it to the potty to pee."

"Wow, that's interesting", they remarked, "did you take him to the doctor's?"

"I did, yeah. They ran a few tests and there's nothing "wrong" with him, they just said that his body wasn't ready for it. They were the ones who suggested I just keep him in diapers, actually. He can make it to the potty and push his diaper down for #2s every time. But he just goes pee in his diaper."

Morgan nodded, seeming to consider what I'd just said and I continued, "before I took him to the doctor I tried all the other potty training steps. I even got him in big boy undies, cause I'd read that if he had accidents in his undies it might help him understand better when he needed to go. Nothing worked though, he would always just wet his pants, poor kid. Even when we were outside camping, or hiking in the woods, it wouldn't even occur to him to just pull it out and go on the ground like other boys his age were doing."

"And he doesn't mind still being in diapers?", Morgan asked.

"Not one bit", I answered. "I think it's just so normal to him, y'know? He's never really been out of diapers, so he doesn't know any different. After the doctor suggested diapers, and seeing how much his accidents upset him, I knew that this is what would be best for him. He's just so much happier this way."

"What does he do at school when he needs a change? Does he change his own diapers?"

"No, he doesn't. He doesn't even know when he needs a change most of the time. The classroom assistants check him at school, then take him to the nurses office when he's due for a change".

"Interesting!", they said again seeming to consider everything I'd just said. Looking over at Avery playing tag with some other kids from their class they said "thanks for answering all my questions there. I was just curious about your experience, 'cause Avery has started to have some -uh... challenges too and I'm a bit at my wits end about it".

"Oh?", I replied.

"Yeah. They've been having a really hard time making it to the potty after school, especially in the evening. They've always needed some nighttime protection, but lately it's been more than that. We've looked everywhere online and can't find anything helpful, and their doctor said to just stay the course in big kid undies during the day and deal with the accidents..."

They sighed and continued "We just don't know what to do anymore... We've resulted to making them sit on their old training potty when they watch cartoons in the evening, but they just seem really uncomfortable and unhappy."

"Well, if you'd like my opinion..." I looked over at Morgan nodding "I don't regret keeping Jackson in diapers. He doesn't mind it, it keeps his pants dry, he's happy. It's way easier to bring some spare diapers and wipes than it is to bring spare pants for him... It just works for us. Our doctor actually mentioned that what Jacky and Avery are going through is way more common than people know."

"I really appreciate that", they said "I think I'll bring up putting them back in diapers after school with my husband. Maybe it's what's best for Avery right now."

"I hope it goes well! Please let me know if you need any advice at all, I'm happy to help." I looked over at my kiddo, who had finished eating his hotdog and flew off the deck to join Avery and their game of tag. The barely noticeable sag of his jeans told me he'd need a change soon, but he was clearly unbothered as he ran and played with the other kids. "I just wish more people knew what I've learned raising Jacky"

"What's that?" said Morgan.