Elizabeth

Got off of the phone a few hours ago and I feel a lot of regret. I have invested so much time and emotion into this and now it's all a waste. Its all gone. I've never felt so much regret. I have never felt so much fucking regret. And hen I feel bad for feeling regret because I Listen to Stand By Me by Ben E. King and I remember old times when I felt so much love when """""""""""""""""""" And then I think about how we talked today and it makes me wish none of that had ever happened and all of this is so frustrating and I just want to drink myself to death. Not even because of her, or her, but just because feeling all of this is annoying and a lot. It's just dense and annoying. I am only ever annoyed