My thoughts and feelings

Okay so this may be a long ass post, depending on how much I can bear to write.

Hearing about the tragic event that happened to her Friday night/Saturday morning broke my heart. Her death affected me like if she was my best friend or family member. 

I started watching her videos in 2008 and the first video I came across was her Paramore medley. She was one of the first youtubers I had ever watched and immediately she inspired me to do music. She taught me it’s okay to be yourself. I looked up to her. I watched her grow up, from The Voice, to being signed, to touring with Before You Exit…to that horrid night. 

The pain piles on in Civil War, sadly.

- unknown (via quotelounge)

if you have a suspicion, even a tiny suspicion that you will be triggered by the finale. DO. NOT. WATCH. IT. LIVE.

holy fUck, i can’t stress this enough. if you’re like “ehh i might be able to handle it”, DO. NOT. WATCH. IT. LIVE.

you guys, 307 we were completely blindsided. that wasn’t our fault. a lot of us spiraled and having to see our bb dying on screen was the absolute fucking worst. i know it’s tempting to watch her one last time, and you can! after someone else watches it live, deems what scenes are safe, and gives you trigger warnings.

you have to take responsibility for yourself and your mental health this time. don’t lie to yourself. lexa is going to die again. “but adc is going to the brazil con-” NO. she isn’t coming back to the flopdred. she isn’t. i know it, you know it deep down, and it’s probably for the better anyways. this show clearly does not care about hurting us. the finale made one of the actors physically sick. 

no matter what you do, don’t give them ratings, if you do watch it live, watch it on a livestream. but i’m going to say this again. if you were triggered by 307 or any episodes at all this season, do not watch it live. if you struggle with self harm, intense anxiety and/or depression, or suicidal thoughts, DO. NOT. WATCH. IT. LIVE.

this is all i can do to help you and warn you. you have to take responsibility for yourself to not watch it if you think you might not be able to handle it. i care about all of you so much, i can’t lose any more of you due to something that we all know is coming, something that can be avoided.