*accidentally spent all my life making sure everyone around me feels comfortable, only to realize I never felt comfortable the whole time*

i desperately need to just sit by the water

My problem is that I like collecting things and putting them on a little shelf

tumblr isn’t a social media site, it’s just my room

You are not what happened to you. You didn't deserve to go through all that. You deserved to be loved, to feel safe, to be safe. You deserved kindness. Patience. You deserved better.

i want to learn ceramics, to play the electric guitar, bass, painting, i want to go camping, get into film photography, learn about tea, coffee and wine, all trees and flowers from my country, try out all fruits ever, know how to cook heavenly, have a cosy house and invite people i love and have a wall they can decorate and a handmade outfit from scratch that i’ll keep forever, have a communitary vegetable garden, own a bookshop that’s also a flowershop that’s also a café

You are going to laugh until your stomach hurts again. You're going to be in awe of a sunset. Watch your favorite show while you eat your favorite food. Find money on the street. Discover a great band you haven't heard of before. You will find your way back.

i cant find it but u know that tweet that’s like stop playing it cool just be passionate and intense and insane and whoever it is that sticks around is meant for you. that is literally everything. that is it

you are not unloveable you are just sad and a little bit angry. let’s go have some soup

also i wonder what it’s like to not be afraid that you annoy every single person you ever interact with