I hate being afraid of people I love

I hate analysing every thought so much I don’t trust my emotions 

I hate feeling like I’m always lying

I hate crying so much

I hate obsessing over ‘what if’s

I hate panic attacks

I hate feeling guilty for everything I do

I hate  feeling guilty for everything I don’t do

I hate  feeling guilty for everything I think

I hate burying my head in the sand and never facing issues

I hate stuttering

I hate judging my mood by how tempted I am to run in front of a car

I hate making my friends worry

I hate the effect I have on my parents

I hate having no motivation

I hate feeling like I can’t breathe

I hate missing lessons to see a counselor

I hate missing school because I make myself physically ill

I hate getting nosebleeds from stress

I hate how much I lie

I hate the constant flashbacks to every time I was afraid or embarassed

I hate that I self harmed

I hate that I still want to

I hate that I feel like I need to

I hate how I suddenly break off communication

I hate how I assume everything I say will drive people closer to suicide

I hate that that fear is well grounded

I hate doubting everything

I hate thinking I should throw up after every meal

I hate going to bed so late because I’m scared of tomorrow

I hate always having suicide and death on my mind

I hate constantly checking behind me

I hate assuming the worst

I hate how I can’t follow my own advice

I hate people not understanding

I hate people understanding because that means they’ve felt like this

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