HERMSAUR RAWR!

The deeper I get into school and it being my last semester, the harder it’s getting to balancing my YouTube and Twitch with it. I’ll be honest, I put YouTube and Twitch before school because that was my original agreement with myself. But I do want to graduate as well. This shit is stressful as fudge.

Idk if it’s because people lowkey hate me or something but idk lol. It gets lonelier and lonelier. But I just honestly brush it off. No time for being caught up in my feelings.

My life in a nutshell. Why I’m so busy lol.

Internship/Day Job > School > Record / Edit > Gym > Stream (rinse and repeat)

I’ve been super busy with school, internship, and that heavy grind on YouTube and Twitch that I haven’t had the chance to really post on here. The grind online has been super real though. The growth is super fast lately and for the most part all very organic. On top of that been super happy with what I’ve been uploading! After 10k was hit, we’ve been on this uphill run to the top! It’s still a long way up, but I know I can do it!

A lot of weird shit happened during my internship. But it’s almost over. I have about 2 weeks left. But I did learn a lot from it, and I’ll take what I learned and put it into some good use! During the moments of my boss being away on his marriage and honeymoon though, I feel like, even though I tried my best to work at an even pace, I didn’t accomplish enough because I was burnt out after the whole scam situation which I’ll probably talk about here in a later post once I’m officially off.

In a sense, I’m still feeling like I haven’t resolved my problems. I was hoping by the time life settles down, I’ll be able to brush past all the feelings I held onto, but it’s still there like it never left. Nothing was resolved, but I will say I’m able to stomach and fight my way through the emotions and the tears. All that is on my mind is succeeding. And my efforts are slowly starting to show more vividly.

One of my heroes, Casey Neistat. His videos always made me feel like I can accomplish anything with patience, determination, and hard work. I just hope with my efforts I’ll get to be where I want to be!

And idk if you’ve been seeing how much I’ve been working and accomplishing. But I do hope you’re proud of me. Thank you for motivating me, and being what drove me to prove myself. Not only to you, but to me. Even if atm it feels like I’m now at it alone.