our best moment is yet to come

today is one of those i want to kms days...

through the last 4 years i lost everyone i cared about bc i neglected them...I neglected them bc i was ashamed of myself. i neglected them bc i felt like a failure...now i'm all alone...

feeling more and more like losing myself...i just don't feel like myself at all lately and it scares me...i'm scared of what will happen when i completely lose myself...just wish someone would care...just someone i could open up too...

it's one of those days again when I just want to disappear from this world

wish someone would reach out to me and ask me if I'm okay...I just need someone to talk to...but then again it was me who cut everyone close to me out of my life...don't deserve people caring for me...

With every single day it becomes harder to live...living isn't something I enjoy anymore...it's more like surviving day by day...and there is no one I can talk to because I pushed everyone, who meant something to me, away...now they all hate me...I hate myself too...