BABY

Please.. Come thru

“sa isang puting papel, isang maliit na tuldok ang mapapansin.”

September 7, 2017 one of the most unforgettable day of my life and one of the happiest.. blessed and fulfillment.. :D My day goes like this.. natulog pala yung mahal ko sa bahay namin nung september 6, 2017 pero syempre magkahiwalay kami ng kwarto... nagbreakfast muna kami sa bahay and umalis kami ng nagkakatampuhan.. tapos umalis kami ng bahay 5am dahil nga mag chuchurch kami ng 5:45am. And sakto we made it before time :) After church... naglakad na kami pabalik.. pero teka wait hahaha knikilig akoooo... kase this day is the first day ng doktrina ko =) and its around 7am in the morning at yung time ng doktrina ko ay 9am pa so sabi namin kakaen muna kami.. and binibiro ko syaaa sabi ko ... "tara idlip muna tayo sa bahay nyo.." t"tara dun tayo kain sa inyo" ganens ganens tapos hanggang sa kakabiro ko sa kanya dinadala na kami ng mga paa namin sa isang street na kakaiba na hindi naman namin madalas daanan pauwi.. and then gwaaaaaaaaa I found myself standing in front of my baby's house. And yes !!!! It is the first time na nakapasok ako sa loob ng bahay ng mahal ko =) everything fee Lt so awesome, magical and feels like im home yubg para bang antagal ko ng nakatura dun tapos sobrang comportable ko.. dati binibiro biro ko lang sya pumunta kami sa bahay nila and now... im so gonna cryyyyy huhu tapps ayoooon I feel so happy and complete and safe. Ayooown medyo kulitan with his family then kumain kami pancit canton tapos tinimplahan ako ng mama nya ng energen choco :) then nagnap na kami sa room nila pero di kami tabi aah. Tapos nagising kami ng 9:30 at nagtext na pala yung manggagawa na magdodoktrina sa akin. So went to church. Sobrang iba yubg feeling pag legal ka ng iglesia , yung dati sasamba ako dun tapos feeling ko lahat sila nakatingin sakin, pero iba ngayon mas ramdam ang pagpapala at pagiging ganap na INC. Truelly blessed. =)

I dont trust those words "Wala lang yun" Why is it hard for you to share it? Doesnt matter.

I know .. its my fault. My bad. I know how it feels now. I know.. I know sorry wont fix anything. I know.. I know.. im telling you this for so many times. Now.. believe me. Trust me. I dont know how to show it.. I just hope you could notice it.. Even by little by little.

 To be honest.. I dont have the courage to tell you how much i love you, how much i admire you, how much you mean to me. I really want to hug you tight.. though i got a really hard time to talk to you heart to heart or open up to you how i felt, how’s my day.. but you know what Papa, I always look at you as the King of my life! A great Papa who raised us up! i love you so much!

Expectation is like looking for a perfect part of it. And .. Baby I’m terrified.

The first time i saw this.. there were no thoughts.. i just want to have something like a stock room for my thoughts,, wherein i don't need to make every words beautiful. just wanna leave it as simple as it is.