her haunted heart

When she got the news that Evan would be unable to attend the concert she felt the sadness in her heart more than she expected to.  Rationally she knew that there was a small fraction she wouldn’t make it, she took a little bit of happiness just in knowing that the older woman was still coming home but her heart was still heavy going into this final concert. The fitted black tux she’d picked for that evening hugged her figure like a glove and despite the low v of the jacket still concealed everything that needed to be hidden while conducting. Her make up was done and her hair was swept up into a tight bun so it wouldn’t get in her face. The heels she wore simply accentuated the rest of her ensemble. She stood up on her podium in the school concert hall that was filled with people and began their winter show, mostly comprised of holiday music.   When she took that first breath in and raised her hands a silence fell over the crowd and with a flick of those delicate wrists the music began. She wouldn’t let personal feelings cloud her mind during a concert, she never hand and never would.

Part of Evan felt bad about hiding the truth from Meredith about the fact that she would make it to the concert, but a larger part of her was extremely excited to get to surprise her. Her first flight really had been delayed, but not enough to make it that she wouldn’t be able to attend the concert. And she was so ready to see Meredith’s face when she arrived there. Having a bit of time before she needed to get to the concert, she had gone to pick up a rental car and then drove home. She put all of her things away and gave Harold some attention before she changed into the black dress pants and white button-up that she had chosen for the night. She then drove to the store to pick up some flowers before making it to the concert with just a few moments before it was to start. She sat near the back to avoid the possibility of Meredith seeing her, a bright smile forming on her lips; she was so excited to get to see the blonde do her thing.

As much as she got on their case about sucking on a daily basis the orchestra was definitely one of the best on the east coast and many of these students would go on to play in professional groups later in life.  The room came alive with all the different pieces they played.  The blonde was laser focused and damn good at her job, they players watched her like a hawk and took her every direction.  It was astounding that someone so submissive in life could completely dominate an entire room just from her mere presence.  The concert was about an hour and a half with no intermission.  When the final number came to a resounding end her stoic face cracked and a proud smile played on her features.  She gave a nod to her students and had them stand to get their recognition.  Then she turned and took a small bow before gesturing to the players for one more final round of applause.  They left the stage and she went to touch up her make up.  There was a reception she was dreading attending… one she was considering sneaking out of early to go home and snuggle Harold.

Evan stood up without a second thought to applaud the students as well as Meredith. The proud smile on Meredith’s face caused Evan’s heart to stutter and a smile formed on her features. She was so glad that she had been able to be there to witness the concert. Meredith and the students had been brilliant and she was certain that everyone had enjoyed their time there. Easing herself through the crowd of people and asking for directions to where she could find Meredith, thanking the person that showed her the way, she reached the door and let out a soft breath. She knocked on the door and then opened it up, taking a step in and grinning as she saw Meredith in person, finally. She had missed being in her presence so much and it was so nice to be there with her. “I have a bouquet of flowers here for one um...Meredith Hughes.” Evan spoke up, her head tilting to the side.

She was about ready to swipe her coat and bag and make a run for it but there was a knock on the dressing room door.  When she heard it open she was about to protest but then she heard that voice and she looked up and there was Evan.  Evan with flowers looking beautiful.  A grin tugged at her lips and her features brightened, “... you came.”  Her voice betrayed just how much that actually meant to her.  Her heart felt like it was in her throat from the raw emotion.  She had to remind herself that she was in heels and running even that short distance wasn’t a smart idea so instead she walked over and threw her arms around the older woman, holding on tight.

Her arms wound around Meredith’s waist and she held her close and tight, nuzzling against her neck. “I told you I would do everything I could to make it, gorgeous.” Evan murmured against her skin, breathing in the now familiar scent of the blonde that just helped to soothe her. She still had a hold on the flowers, but really they meant nothing in comparison to holding Meredith close. Things between them had escalated over the weeks that Evan had been back in Chicago and it was just so nice to be able to have her so close. “You were amazing up there, Mere. I’m so proud of you.”

Her cheeks flushed that soft shade of pink at the murmured words.  Feeling Evan so close for the first time in nearly a month had her heart racing, her body melted into Evan’s hold and she found she couldn’t stop smiling.  When they finally parted she accepted the flowers and smirked a little.  “And I didn’t kill any students.  Major accomplishment.”  A playful blue gaze caught on that beautiful stare and she bit gently into her lower lip, glancing down at the flowers then back up.  “These are beautiful… Thank you.”

“Exactly. Look at you doing amazing things and following the rules.” She teased gently with a wink, before nodding her head in a bashful way. “I’m glad you liked them. You deserved to have a little something for your accomplishment of finishing all of your concerts.” Evan replied with a brief shrug. She paused for a moment and then leaned in to press a soft kiss to Meredith’s cheek. “I’ve missed you. It feels really good to be here with you right now.” The brunette admitted before pulling back. “So what’s the plan now?”

At the teasing tone her cheeks darkened some and she gave a little huff.  She was quick to smile once more and brought the bouquet up to her nose to smell them.  “They’re perfect.  I can’t wait to put them in water.”  The blonde would put them into a vase in the music room by the baby grand piano that she’d been playing daily since Evan left.  The kiss to her cheek had her aching for more.  “I’ve missed you… so much.”  Taking Evan’s hand into her own, she laced their fingers.  “I was going to escape and go home and snuggle Harold but technically there’s a reception I’m supposed to attend.”

“They definitely need the water, that’s for sure.” Evan agreed, biting down on her bottom lip. She hummed thoughtfully when Meredith said that there was a reception that she was supposed to attend and she squeezed her hand gently. She definitely didn’t want to go to the reception and she could tell Meredith didn’t really want to either, but she was sure that it would be better all around if Meredith did go. “Well, let’s go to the reception. We stay for a little while just so everyone can congratulate you and see that you’ve appeared...then we go home and snuggle with Harold. Okay?” Evan used the hand she was holding to draw her closer, her thumb trailing over the blonde’s knuckles. “I mean...as long as it’s okay if I attend too. I can always just head back home.” She offered, not sure what Meredith would want.

Meredith gave a little pout and resisted the urge to stomp her foot.  She really just wanted to leave.  She didn’t want to see her colleagues or the parents of her students… and even being around her students didn’t seem all that desirable right now.  The blonde tightened her grip on Evan’s hand and shook her head.  “Absolutely not.  I’m not suffering through this alone.  If I have to go to this reception then you’re definitely coming with me.”  She smiled a little as another thought hit her.  “Plus… it would be nice to show people like Nick that I’m spoken for… wouldn’t it?”

Evan bit down on her bottom lip and nodded her head. It would definitely be nice if Nick would take a hint finally. “I just wasn’t sure…” She cut herself off and then offered her a smile. “Come on then, let’s go get it over with.” She mused, beginning to head out of the room. The sooner they got to the reception, the sooner they would be able to head out; something that Evan was certainly looking forward to. The one issue with surprising Meredith at the concert was that she couldn’t just be alone with her...and Harold...so she was excited for when they could just curl up together.

Finding a smile was easier than she thought it would be and this time it wasn’t fake. With the flowers in one hand and Evan’s hand still laced with the other she found herself not dreading this experience quite as much.  There were plenty of eyes on her and on Evan as they walked through the gathering.  Many of her colleagues knew exactly who Evan was because they’d known Henri for far longer than they’d known Meredith.  The blonde introduced Evan to a handful of people, she declined alcohol when offered, and made small talk easily… it was a learned skill that had been perfected over time especially since she was more of an introvert.  Nick was definitely there and in seeing Evan he hung back.

Evan nodded her head politely at people that she kind of knew that had offered her polite smiles of their own, simply following Meredith wherever she would lead. She would speak kindly to the people that she was introduced to, but was happy to move on to the next person whenever Meredith chose to do so. She noticed Nick around the room, but was pleased that he never seemed to come toward them at all. She really did not want to have to deal with him. The evening was going pretty smoothly and for that, Evan was grateful.

Meredith was obviously very well liked at this place.  Everyone seemed to know her and those who didn’t know Evan personally recognized her right away as being related to the late Henri Hughes.  The blonde was proud of herself but even more proud to be on Evan’s arm that evening.  Once the initial greetings were out of the way she tugged the brunette into a dimmed corner, kissed her cheek and looked up pleadingly.  “Please, take me home?”

Hearing the blonde’s words, she nodded her head and returned with a kiss to her forehead. “Okay, gorgeous. I have a rental car here so either you can come with me and we can come pick your car up tomorrow...or we can both drive our own cars home so we don’t have to leave the house tomorrow...other than to walk Harold. What do you think?” Evan questioned, lifting one of her hands to drag her fingers gently across Meredith’s cheek.

The younger woman leaned into her touch. She had to really think about those two options.  Eventually, she deflated a little, “As much as I don’t wanna let go of your hand right now, not having to leave the house at all tomorrow sounds amazing.”  It was true.  That was ultimately why she made the decision for them to take separate cars.

She smiled softly and nodded her head in agreement. “I think you made a good choice. Come on, let’s go, gorgeous.” She grabbed her hand once more and then led her out towards the parking lot. When they had to go in different directions, she kissed her cheek. “I’ll see you back at the house. Drive safe, okay?” She waited for acknowledgement before she rushed to her own vehicle to drive back to the house.

“I will.  See you there.”  She smiled at the kiss to her cheek and was quick to get in her car and follow Evan home. All she really wanted to do was kiss her, that’s all she’d wanted to do since the moment she saw her in the dressing room.  When she got home the first order of business was putting the flowers in water and placing them in the music room. Second order of business was kicking off her heels and saying hi to Harold. Then she went to find Evan.

Reaching the house before Meredith, Evan had moved inside and taken off her jacket and shoes. She’d then headed up to the bedroom to start unpacking the things that she had, making sure to give Harold some pets before she had climbed the stairs. Hearing feet coming up the stairs a few moments later, she set aside the suitcase with the few clothes she had left in it and turned to wait for Meredith to walk in.

The blonde had let her hair down out of the tight bun and ran fingers through the soft strands to fall into loose big soft curls made by the previous hairstyle.  She swept it over one shoulder as she walked into the room and found the brunette waiting for her.  Those brilliant blues found that stunning stare and a slow smile pulled at her lips.  “Hi..”. She said, just a few steps away.

Evan breathed out slowly as Meredith walked into the room, looking even more gorgeous than she had when Evan had left her a few moments before. She chewed on her bottom lip and she smiled in response to the other woman’s smile, letting out a slow breath. “Hi, yourself.” She murmured, feeling the weight of the moment. It was the first time that they were truly alone, together, since things had furthered between them….and it was a lot. “Come here.”

Her heart skipped a beat at the sound of those words.  That’s all she needed to hear for bare feet to make their way across hardwood.  Stepping into her space she closed the distance between them until they were a breath away. She bit gently into her lower lip for a moment searching Evan’s eyes. After a quiet moment she pushed up on her toes slightly and let her lips find the other woman’s. The kiss was gentle and tentative and was over far too soon.

She let her hands find Meredith’s hips as she stepped up to her, her eyes meeting the blonde’s attempting to let her know that she was okay with whatever it was that Meredith was going to do. As lips pressed against her own, she moved her hands to rest on the younger woman’s lower back and she let out a soft groan as Meredith pulled away. The kiss had been short and sweet, and certainly not enough, but it was a pretty good start in Evan’s opinion. She rested her forehead against Meredith’s and smiled.

As those hands found her hips she suddenly felt more secure.  The groan had her feeling all sorts of things and in that moment she knew she needed more. After a moment of their foreheads resting together she leaned up again and kissed her again, this time a bit deeper.  She wasn’t usually the one to initiate things like this but she knew that in this case she needed to. Her arms slipped about Evan’s neck and she let herself melt into the touch.

As lips found hers once again, her eyes fell shut and she tightened her arms around the blonde. The fire that had been burning within her for weeks now came to the surface once again and she pressed into the kiss more firmly. She wanted this so badly and the fact that they were here, now, and it was a possibility was almost overwhelming. She pulled away from the kiss and let her lips trail along her jaw and down her neck before carefully pulling away. She walked to the door and let it closed, wanting to ensure that Harold couldn’t interrupt if he somehow made his way up the stairs.

The blonde whimpered as the woman pulled away, not ready for their kiss to break just yet.  Sucking in a sharp breath as those lips traveled along her skin she tilted her head to give the brunette better access.  As Evan stepped away to close the door her breath hitched.  Her tux felt incredibly confining in that moment and she wished that Evan would just take it off. They were finally crossing some invisible boundaries that should never have been set in the first place.

Turning back around, all Evan wanted to do was take Meredith to bed. The urge to kiss her and touch her and hear those sounds that she had just been imagining through certain parts of their conversations over the past week...and long before that as well. But she knew that she couldn’t. Rules were in place and when they were broken, punishments were necessary. And it had had to wait until Evan was with Meredith to come to fruition, but it shouldn’t wait any longer. She moved to take a seat on the bed, biting down on her bottom lip. “We have some things we need to deal with, Meredith.”

Evan had that look that Henri usually got before she was about to get a spanking.  When the woman spoke up Meredith knew exactly what she was referring to.  She gave a small nod.  “I know.”  She bit into her lower lip and let fingertips pluck the buttons of her jacket open.  Meredith knew the rules and she knew that she had to be naked for the punishment. Her cheeks flushed a deep shade of pink as she draped the jacket over a chair. Undoing her pants they dropped to the floor and her thumbs hooked into black lace panties to pull them down and off her body draping the rest of her clothing over that same chair.  Her skin was clean shaven, smooth and freckled. Coming over to the bed she stopped in front and of Evan.

Meredith was gorgeous, Evan knew that, but she was still taken back by just how beautiful she truly was. She was absolutely stunning and Evan was certainly going to have fun showing her just how beautiful she thought that she was once they got to that point. She sat back a bit more and her eyes glanced up at Meredith’s face. “Good.” She was glad that Meredith had remembered the discussion that they had had about how Evan wanted her for punishments. “Tell me, what is it that you’re being punished for tonight?” Of course Evan knew, but it was important to her that the reasoning behind the punishments wasn’t forgotten in the time between it happening and the punishment being executed.

She could feel those eyes on her body and that feeling alone had tingles dancing along her spine.  “....For not calling you that one night… and for missing two meals this week during tech.”  She really had just forgotten those meals.  That week was always so intense and she often lost herself in it.  She swallowed hard, the anticipation killing her.  It was now that Evan would prove that she had it in her to follow through with punishment.  She felt so exposed with the older woman still being fully dressed but it wasn’t a feeling she disliked.

Evan nodded her head in approval when Meredith expressed the reason behind her punishment, unbuttoning the button on the sleeves of her shirt before rolling them up to give her some better movement. “Here’s how this is going to work...when I tell you to, you are going to come and lay across my lap. And then your punishment will begin. You will be receiving thirty spanks, ten for each rule broken. I want you to count out each of the spanks that you receive. If you miss one, an additional spank will be added.” She paused for a moment to allow the words to sink in. “Understood?”

Meredith took the moment given to let it all sink in and gave a slow nod.  “Yes, Miss.” That was the first time she’d said the title out loud and it felt right rolling off her lips.  As much as she wanted to be a brat and argue and try to bargain this was their first time going through this process and she wasn’t in any position to start anything unnecessary… she was naked in front of Evan for the first time, she would be good and take her punishment.

She offered a small smile, pleased with how Meredith was taking this and then light pat her lap. “Okay, come here then.” She waited for Meredith to settle over her lap, resting her one hand on the bed beside Meredith and the other resting on her lower back for the time being. “Okay, Meredith. Thirty spanks starting now.” Evan let out a slow breath, easing herself into the mode that she needed to be in before bringing her hand down across the blonde’s ass for the first time.

The blonde made her way across Evan’s lap, the familiarity of the position almost a comfort in a way.  When that hand came down against the bare skin of her ass she yelped. “One.”  The stinging sensation was a reminder of wrong deeds but in a way it told her she truly was home.  “Two.”  With each and every spank she’d yelp or whimper or squeak and then count as she’d been told to do. “...-ten.”

The sounds coming from Meredith, in a sense, told Evan that she was doing this right. If there was no reaction, then Evan wasn’t sure that she would feel as though what she was doing was making a difference in any way. When they reached the tenth spank, Evan took a moment to give Meredith a breather, and letting her know that she was doing well before she brought her hand back down and fell into the second set of spanks.

The breather was needed. It was overwhelming to get a spanking after not having one for so long. She used to at least get them once or twice a month depending on how much of a brat she’d been in Henri’s eyes.  When the spanks started back up Evan would get the same reaction out of her, a little noise of some sort followed by the appropriate number.  By the time they reached twenty her voice was a little shaky but she managed to get them number out. Her ass was burning and looked to be a pretty shade of pink.

She took another break when they reached twenty, rubbing her hand over the slightly reddened skin and letting out a hum. “Ten more to go.” She murmured, allowing the number to hopefully feel a little more tangible to the blonde. She was over halfway through the punishment and she was doing really well. She just had to keep going for a few more and it would be over. Once she felt as though there had been a long enough break, she began to bring her hand down again, for the final ten.

Meredith’s face was as flushed as her behind and her breathing was a little shaky. As the final ten began she counted, her voice cracked a bit and her yelps were almost cries. She managed to get through the pain, it still felt familiar and necessary. After the 28th spank she gave a little cry and whimper.  “T-twenty nine…” It took her a longer moment after the last one to finally speak up but she did.  “Th-thirt-ty.”  She’d had way more in one sitting, one time her ass was so raw she winced for over a week every time she sat down.  This was just hard because it had been so long.

As soon as Meredith had counted to thirty, she moved her hand to rub her back in an attempt to soothe her. “You did so well, Meredith. I’m so proud of you.” She rubbed her back slowly and gently, wanting to calm her as much as she could. After a few moments, she hummed softly. “You’re alright. Everything’s okay.” She said softly, leaving it up to Meredith for when she wanted to move. Her ass was red and she would definitely be putting some cream on it to help soothe the skin, but she was going to take her cues from the blonde for now.

The soothing touch and soft words were very helpful in bringing her down from the intensity of the spanking. She sniffled a little and eventually, once the stinging subsided some, she pulled up in Evan’s lap, curling in against her.  She’d needed that. “Thank you.”  She murmured softly, into the nape of the older woman’s neck. Meredith still felt safe and taken care of, she still felt things she didn’t think she’d feel again.  She never wanted to let Evan go again.

“You’re welcome, Mere. You did so well.” She mused softly, rocking gently and pressing a soft kiss to her head as she held her close. She definitely didn’t plan on letting the blonde go for any longer than was absolutely necessary that night. Meredith had already been mentioning that she had missed being close to Evan, and now with her having just been punished, she really wasn’t going to move too far from her. She lifted one of her hands and brushed away the few tears that had slipped down her cheeks.

The best thing about being punished was getting the love and care that came after the punishment.  Her body was humming and her mind was a little foggy so just allowed herself to melt into those strong arms.  She felt so much better now that she’d done her penance for breaking the rules, as if a weight had been lifted off her shoulders. Now they could just relax.  Tomorrow was Christmas Eve. They could stay home all day and Meredith was so grateful for that.

She kissed her head and continued to rock her gently for a little while. Eventually though, she pulled away just a bit. “Let’s go get ready for bed okay?” She gently brushed her nose against Meredith’s before she set her onto the bed. She grabbed one of her shirts and handed it to Meredith with a wink before grabbing herself a shirt and a pair of comfy shorts. She turned toward Meredith as she began to strip, wanting to bare herself in a similar way to the manner in which the blonde had had to earlier.

The blonde gave a nod and smiled some as that nose brushed against her own.  When the shirt was handed over that smile only grew.  She brought it up to her face to feel how soft it was before pulling it over her head to tent over that slender frame.  Blue eyes found Evan as she stripped and she bit down hard into her lower lip.  Evan was just as gorgeous as she’d imagined-more so and she couldn’t help but watch her. Cheeks flushed some as she realized she was staring but she wasn’t about to stop either.

She smirked softly at the flush that found its way onto Meredith’s cheeks before she finished undressing, tossing the clothes into the laundry hamper and then easing into the shorts and shirt. She knew that she was attractive and it was definitely nice to get the reaction from the other woman. She then reached out to grab the blonde’s hand and led her to the bathroom so they could finish getting ready for bed. Letting go of Meredith’s hand when they reached the bathroom, she washed her face and then brushed her teeth before brushing through her dark locks. Once she was ready, she stepped behind Meredith and pressed a kiss to her shoulder. “I’m going to go grab Harold. I’ll meet you back in the bedroom.”

She was easily led to the bathroom where she washed her face and brushed her teeth and hair.  It was all incredibly domestic.  They’d done this the complete opposite of most couples… Live together and behave as a married couple usually didn’t enter the relationship until after sex.  It worked for them and she wasn’t complaining.  She was still brushing her hair as that kiss was placed on her shoulder.  “He’s gonna hold a grudge cause you locked him out.”  She smirked.  Sure enough Harold was sitting right outside the bedroom door looking grumpy as hell but Henri was sitting there petting him.  “I’m impressed.”  She remarked with a small smile.

“Mm, I know. I’ll have some sucking up to do.” She agreed, winking at the blonde before she stepped out of the bathroom. “I know you’re angry at me buddy, but we’ve gotta get you outside before you can come in.” She gently lifted him into her arms and rubbed her hand along his body in an attempt to get back into his good graces, even if she was sure it would take a little while. She gestured with her head for Henri to follow them and then walked down stairs to let the dog out into the backyard, her arms over her chest. “So what impressed you so much?” She questioned once she knew that Meredith wouldn’t hear her speaking out loud.

The dog huffed and snarfed and was definitely holding a grudge because he’d never been locked out of the bedroom before. Henri got up and followed her younger sister downstairs.  She leaned in the doorway watching her.  “Following through with your punishment when all you really wanted to do was take her to bed.”  It amused her to no end that her sister was so clearly falling for the blonde.  If only she were alive and they could learn how to share.

She rubbed at her forehead and nodded her head a couple of times. “Having to wait between punishments just wasn’t going to work if I didn’t actually do what I said I was going to do the moment I had the opportunity.” Evan replied, leaning against the doorframe. “It would have been really easy just to fall into bed, but it wouldn’t have been right, and it would have just led to problems down the line.” Evan mused before glancing back at her sister thoughtfully. “You’re...still okay with this right?”

There was a proud smile on her face.  “You certainly retained everything I taught you.  That’s how I practiced punishments whether it was with you as a kid or you as my partner, even with Mere that’s how it was… you’re establishing normalcy and keeping true to your word and I know the familiarity of what you just put her through means more than you probably know.”  She could only offer a small smile as their eyes met.  “More than okay with it.  The two people I love most are finding happiness. That’s all I could hope for.”

Henri’s words both soothed her and caused a spark of worry to well within her. She was glad that what she had done had been good and helpful for the blonde, but she also worried that maybe she was too similar. That maybe she was safe because she reminded Meredith of Henri. It was something that she thought about every once in a while, but she was trying to tame the thought each time it arose. With Henri saying that she was good with what was going on between Evan and Meredith, she let out a relieved breath and nodded. She still wished that she could bring Henri back for Meredith, even if it meant that she still had to be out of the picture; but she also knew there was no possible way for that to happen. “Okay...good.”

“It amuses me honestly… that you and I seem to have the same taste in women.”  She smirked.  Harold waddled past them and made his best attempt to waddle upstairs, not wanting to get left out again.  “He’s gonna steal your spot if you don’t hurry.” She gave a nod into the house and the second her sister’s eyes left her, her image flickered away.

She hummed thoughtfully and then nodded her head. It was pretty intriguing that they had the same taste in women, considering they had once wanted no one but the other. She chuckled at Henri’s words and followed the line of sight to Harold climbing up the stairs. She shut the door and locked it, noting that Henri had disappeared. “Night, Hen.” She murmured, glancing around for a moment before letting soft words fall from her lips. “I love you.” She rolled her shoulders and then walked towards the stairs, lifting Harold into her arms and then carrying him into the bedroom, kicking the door closed behind her before she placed him on the ground.

Henri smiled and though Evan couldn’t see or hear her she spoke softly into the darkness, “I love you too.”  When the brunette and pooch made their way back into the room the blonde smiled.  No makeup, all freckles.  Harold attempted to make it to the bed before Evan, clearly wanting his spot.  Meredith giggled.  She couldn’t wait to have Evan back in bed with her.  “ He forgive you yet?”

She shook her head slightly at Meredith’s question, turning off the light and then carefully making her way toward the bed. She settled into her spot but then gave in and pulled Harold onto the bed, dropping him at the foot. Having Evan back was a change, so she wouldn’t kick him out completely. At least...not yet. “He has not forgiven me yet. I am fairly sure I have a lot of work to do on that front.”

Meredith smiled and leaned down to give him a good pet.  He snarfed a little but seemed to relax.  “He’ll get over it… eventually.”  Settling back into the pillows, she cuddled in close to Evan and placed a kiss along her jaw.  It was so nice to feel that body pressed against her own. She was a little aware of the fact that there was nothing on beneath her shirt but she didn’t much care, it was more comfortable this way.

“Well, luckily I have a little while to get back on his good side.” Evan said with a soft laugh and a nod, chewing on her bottom lip. She hummed at the kiss to her jaw and then brushed her fingers through blonde locks. “How are you feeling?” She questioned, allowing the words to settle between them. It was especially important for her to know after the punishment. Her eyes scanned over Meredith’s face in the dark.

Meredith leaned into the touch with a hum.  “Good.  Relieved.  It still burns a little but I put a cream on it that’s helping with that.  Mostly just happy that you’re here with me and not on some screen.”  She nuzzled into her.  “... What about you?”  She needed to make sure Evan was alright with what they’d just done.  It had been a lot to take in.

She rested her chin atop the blonde's head as she nuzzled into her, letting her hand move down to rub her back gently. “As long as you're okay, I'm okay, Mere. Promise.” She had only ever been on the other side of a punishment before this and so she was grateful that enough knowledge had transferred over through her experiences.

“Now that that’s over we can have a nice time tomorrow and for the holiday.  I’m happy we got it out of the way.”  She wrapped her arm around Evan’s middle.  “Though I was really hoping for more kisses.”  The blonde had wanted her clothes to come off but for completely different reasons.  She’d known the punishment had to be coming but she wasn’t sure when.

Evan nodded, smiling as an arm wound around her waist. “I'm glad we got it over with too. Didn't want it to be something that was hanging over our heads for too long.” She chuckled softly at her next words and gently scratched her back through the fabric of the shirt. “You can have all of the kisses that you want now, gorgeous.”

The blonde grinned and pressed her body a little more fully against Evan’s. “Oh, really?”  She placed a kiss on her neck, her jaw, her cheek.  “All the kisses?” She let her lips find the corner of the older woman’s mouth teasingly.  Meredith couldn’t help her behavior, she felt as if she’d been wanting Evan for ages.

Evan shook her head in amusement but let out a soft sigh of pleasure as kisses were pressed against her skin. “I'm not going to complain about kisses. Though we aren't going to get further than that with a snoring dog on the end of the bed. Sorry about your luck.”

Meredith laughed softly because she knew Evan was right. Leaning in a little closer she stole a kiss from her lips. “I’m happy just to get kisses.”  She murmured against her lips nipping the woman’s lower lip gently before kissing her again.

She hummed as lips pressed to her own, unable to hold back the smile from forming. She groaned at the nip to her lip and then gripped pulled her closer as they kissed again. “I am a fan of your lips.” Evan murmured, dragging her hand up to tangle in the blonde's hair.

Meredith moaned softly as Evan pulled her in closer.  “Good cause I’m a fan of yours.”  She let her lips find the older woman’s once more and whimpered against them as those fingers threaded through her hair.  She was very tempted to just straddle her but then they’d be sliding along thin ice.

She allowed herself to slip into the kiss for a few moments before slowly pulling back. “We should get some sleep, Mere. And I'll enjoy your lips more tomorrow.” Evan mused, nudging her nose gently against Meredith's.

The blonde gave a little pout at that statement but then defiantly stole one more kiss before settling against her and cuddling in close.  “Fine…”  She gave a playful huff but then relaxed against the brunette letting herself enjoy the solid warmth that the body beside her provided.

Meredith: [Harold notices the voice and face on the screen and moves to head butt it] Heyyy Harold nooo… [She laughs pulling the phone out of dog butting range] Clearly he misses you too and also thinks a week is too long.

Evan: [She laughs at the dog's hello, shaking her head in amusement.] Hey, buddy. I miss you too. But I'll be there for pets and snuggles soon. Promise.

Meredith: [With a huff and a snarf he goes and makes himself comfortable on Evan’s pillow. Mere makes a face.] I will wash that before you get home.

Evan: [She smirks softly, feeling some sort of something at the sight of Meredith on her phone screen.] I appreciate that a lot, cutie.

Meredith: [Her cheeks flush again. Between that smirk and being called cutie her cheeks are flushed enough to be noticed.] By the way none of your clothing is safe.  [She pans down to show the big T-shirt and bare thighs peeking out from under it.]

Evan: You know...you're going to owe me a whole new closet full of clothes. [She teases, head tilted.] Especially if you're going to steal my favorites like this one. [She pans down as well, showing off the outfit or lack thereof.]

Meredith: Nuuu I share. When I steal I just borrow cause I’m nice like that.  [the blonde bites her lower lip at the sight.] Are you trying to get me worked up again? [She raises a brow] I mean… two can play at that game.. I have nothing on beneath this shirt of yours.

Evan: No, no. I don't need any more help getting worked up. [She shakes her head and pans back up to her face before laying down on the bed.] Nothing on huh? That's pretty damn hot.

Meredith: Does that mean you already are?  [a smile tugs dangerously at her lips.] I prefer to sleep in nothing more than a T-shirt most nights.

Evan: That is definitely what that means. [She lets out a chuckle and rubs at her forehead.] Mm, you like showing off those legs huh?

Meredith: I wish I could help with that.  [she can’t stop staring at the older woman on her screen.] I like feeling free in bed. Pants and underwear are so… restrictive.  

Evan: Mm, it would certainly be nice if you could. That's a fair point. They are pretty restrictive. And you wouldn't want to be restricted.

Meredith: Not by pants. [she clears her throat a little, running slender digits through her hair.]

Evan: [She flushes at those words and bites down on her bottom lip.] Is being tied up something you enjoy?

Meredith: Sometimes… [she murmurs, cheeks darkening in shade.]  I like lots of things though… experimentation is fun.

Evan: You're right. Experimentation is very fun. Especially with someone you trust.

Meredith: I trust you.

Evan: I trust you too.

Meredith: [a smile plays at pink lips.] This week is going to be pure torture.

Evan: Absolute torture. But that's alright. It'll just make seeing you so much better.

Meredith: [she pouts a little]. I want you in bed with me right now.

Evan: I'm sorry I can't be. Soon. And then you're stuck with me for a couple of weeks.

Meredith: Mm hmm. I might just need to kidnap you while you’re home.

Evan: And how are you going to manage that?

Meredith: I’ll think of something.

Evan: I have to head back to work at some point, gorgeous.

Meredith: I’ll find you work here.

Evan: Is that so?

Meredith: Mm hmm. I’m kinda connected here. People like me. I bet I’d get you a job in the first month.

Evan: Some people like you too much.

Evan: Tell ya this...you find me a job that I’ll actually enjoy and we’ll talk.

Meredith: Oh really? [a grin shine bright through the phone.] That’s easy. At least for me it will be.

Evan: Hmm, we’ll see about that.

Meredith:Mm hmm.  We will. What do I get if I win?

Evan: You get me living at home.

Meredith: I’ll start looking tomorrow. I hope you know how serious I am.

Evan: You certainly seem to be serious about it, sweetheart.

Meredith: Super serious. I don’t like this whole missing you nonsense. You being here makes perfect sense.

Evan: Missing you certainly is a shame. Send me information of places you find and I will definitely take a look. Okay?

Meredith: Deal.

Evan: Deal. [She smiled and yawns.] Harold out?

Meredith: [pans to the dog who is snoring] Completely.

Evan: Oh wow. Look at all the dog drool on my pillow. Amazing. [She says softly, shaking her head.]

Meredith: [gives a little laugh] a pillow I’m gonna wash.

Evan: I know. I know. I’m just going to grumble about it for the next week. But it’s okay because Harold is going to grumble about not getting to sleep on that pillow once I’m there.

Meredith: You’re gonna have to fight him and deal with the pouting.

Evan: So much pouting. What if I just join in on the pouting?

Meredith: And what will that accomplish?

Evan: I will not be the only one not pouting.

Meredith: Not true.  Once you’re here in bed with me I won’t be pouting anymore. Just Harold.

Evan: Hmm, fair enough. I think I’ll be too happy to be pouting anyway.

Meredith: Good. ….. You’re gonna make me go to bed soon, aren’t you?

Evan: I am going to make the both of us go to bed soon, yep. But we can stay on facetime, if you want. If that’s something you need tonight.

Meredith: [she gives a small nod and for a moment almost looks as if she might cry]

Evan: [Her eyebrows furrow.] Hey, what’s up, Mere? Talk to me.

Meredith: I just … miss you really hard right now… and I don’t wanna be alone.

Evan: I know it’s not the same, but I’m here, okay? And I’ll be here on the phone with you all night. And Harold is there for snuggles. And you are not alone. [Her eyes scan over the other’s features through the phone.] I’m sorry if we went to far with me not there to hold you after.

Meredith: [she gives another small nod.] … Okay.  [biting hard into her lower lip she shakes her head right as Evan starts to apologize.] You literally have no idea how much I needed that tonight, Ev.  [She lets out a shaky breath] Henri was… punishing me because I came without permission.  I wasn’t allowed to touch myself. And even when we did things together I still wasn’t allowed to cum… I've always been sexually charged and that was torture...so… tonight was needed.  [it all tumbled out of her] And then we had that night, you and I, and since then I’ve just gotten increasingly sexually frustrated…

Evan: [She smiles softly and lets out a slow breath.] You were such a good girl for me tonight and I am so proud of you. And I am going to hold you for so long when I’m back with you next week. I promise. And also I should apologize for how sexually frustrated I’ve helped you become...but I’m really not all that apologetic about it. [She teases with a grin.]

Meredith: [she feels her cheeks heat up again]  I like being a good girl for you. [that smile tugs at pink lips once more.] I like the sound of that…. [she gives a small laugh and playful roll of her eyes.] Apparently I’ve been just as cruel.

Evan: I like having you be good for me. So this is working out nicely. You certainly have been. Starting with that outfit when we went dancing. Like...damn. You looked so good.

Meredith: That it is. [Laying down, she brings the phone with her and smirks a little but it fades into a smile.] I like to look good when I go out… But feeling your eyes on me before we left had tingles running through my body.

Evan: Hmm, trying to show off for the people of the bar?

Meredith: Nope.  I knew I was yours that night.

Evan: Good. We certainly showed everyone that you were mine.

Meredith: We did.  And it felt good. I’m glad you like the outfit though… I’ll have to dress up for you more often.

Evan: I would like that very much.

Meredith: I can take you dancing at my favorite club next time?

Evan: I like that idea.

Meredith: I have other outfits for those occasions…

Evan: Like? What sorts of outfits?

Meredith: Dresses. Skirts.more outfits that look painted on my body.

Evan: I look forward to getting to see them.

Meredith: I think you’ll love them.

Evan: I'm sure I will. You look great in anything.

Meredith: I look better in nothing. [she gives an innocent smile.]

Evan: [She groans softly, brushing her fingers through her hair.] I have no doubt about that, Mere.

Meredith: [she bites her lower lip at the sound of that groan and cuddles into the pillow a bit more.]  You’ll have to see for yourself.

Evan: Mhm, I suppose that I will. [She winks playfully and then pulls the blankets over her shoulders.]

Meredith: [the blonde mirrors the brunette, pulling up the blanket.] It’s supposed to snow tomorrow.

Evan: Turning into a winter wonderland. Keep warm, gorgeous.

Meredith: I will.  It would be way easier with extra body heat.

Evan: In a week you will have extra body heat.

Meredith: [she gives a little pout] That’s forever away.

Evan: You're going to be so busy you won't even have time to miss me.

Meredith: I’ll always have time to miss you.

Evan: After weeks of spending everyday together you'll get sick of me. [She teases with a smile.]

Meredith: We just spent weeks together and clearly I’m not sick of you.

Evan: Mm, but this time you won’t have to work or anything.

Meredith: More time for me to find you the perfect job. [she grins]

Evan: [She laughs softly and nods.] I guess so. For now though, I think it's time to sleep.

Meredith: [giving a little pout she pulls Evan’s pillow closer to snuggle with Harold and sets the phone down beside him, still angled so they can see one another.] I don’t like this whole bedtime thing.

Evan: No, but it's definitely important. You need your rest, sweetheart.

Meredith: Yeah,yeah.. I know.  [She closes her eyes and Harold snorts a little in his sleep.]. Goodnight, Ev.

Evan: You still followed the rule. Count it as a win, gorgeous. My day was filled with a lot of paperwork. It’s amazing what builds up when you leave for ages.

Evan: I miss you both too. So much.

Meredith: Mm hmm. I had my share of things to grade today.  Totally feel your pain.

Unsent: Then come home.

Meredith: I finished decorating the tree.

Evan: It's just the worst. And my place just feels empty so that's not fun

Evan: Do I get to see it?

Meredith: This place feels too big without you in it. Clearly I’m not completely alone but still…

Meredith: Mayyyybe.

Evan: I'll be back with you as soon as I can.

Evan: Just maybe?

Meredith: Good.

Meredith: Mm hmm.

Evan: For now, Harold will just have to give really good cuddles.

Evan: How do I turn that into a yes?

Meredith: He does. He is trying to steal your job.

Meredith: I dunno… I send you photos on the daily. Maybe I wanna see you for a change.

Evan: Hmph. I don't know how I like that.

Evan: Perhaps you should ask nicely if that's what you want.

Meredith: I mean he is extra cute and his cuddle game is 10/10.

[huffs at her phone]

Meredith: :|

Meredith: May I please see your pretty face which you’ve been depriving me of?

Evan: I'm also super cute and my cuddles are more than 10/10. So.

Evan: Good girl.

Evan: Happy, gorgeous?

Meredith: I mean, all I’m saying is you have some competition.

Unsent: That shouldn’t be allowed.

Meredith: Very. :)

Evan: I’m glad I could make you happy.

Evan: It looks good! Great work, Mere.

Meredith: You seem to do that easily.

Meredith: Thank you :) I had to replace the ornaments on the bottom with plastic ones cause Harold is fascinated by the tree.

Evan: Do I? That’s good to hear. You make me happy too.

Evan: What a silly pup.

Meredith: You do.  I’m glad. :)

Meredith: he could see his reflection in one of the bigger balls and started barking at it.

Evan: <3

Evan: What a dope. I appreciate that about him though.

Evan: What are you up to right now?

Meredith: … relaxing.  You?

Evan: What are the dots for?

Evan: I’m in bed. Just hanging out.

[Breathes out shakily and groans.]

Evan: That definitely looks relaxing.

Meredith: It is.  Lavender vanilla bubbles and all.

Evan: Mmm, that’s a good scent.

Evan: I’m pretty relaxed too though.

[ Nearly dies at the sight ]

Meredith: You look it. Flannel is my favorite.  I may need to steal that when you come home.

Evan: It’s nice to...unwind after a long day.

Evan: You just going to go through my entire wardrobe and take everything you like?

Meredith: Exactly…

Meredith: I think that sounds like an amazing plan.

Evan: Hmm...you know what I think sounds like an amazing plan?

Meredith: I have a feeling I’m gonna regret asking- what?

Evan: There’s a little bit of a rule that I made for you...that honesty one right?

[Smirks at her phone.]

Evan: How are you feeling this evening?  

[ gawks at her phone and flushes a deep shade of red. ]

Meredith: I don’t think you actually want to know.  I think you just wanted to get me to blush.

Evan: Getting you to blush is pretty wonderful, that’s true.

Evan: But I wouldn’t ask if I didn’t want to know.

Meredith: Your evil Hughes side is showing.

Meredith: Relaxed…

Meredith: Tired….

Meredith: A little lonely…

Meredith: Happy to talk to you…

Meredith: Sexually frustrated.

Evan: You happy to like the different sides of Hughes women though, so I don’t think you’re really complaining.

Evan: Being relaxed is good, you deserve it.

Evan: Hopefully we can ensure you get some sleep tonight.

Evan: I’m sorry I’m not there with you, but I’m happy to talk to you too.

[Pauses at the last one and bites down on her bottom lip.]

Evan: Maybe you should do something about that then.

[Freezes after she’s sent it and rubs her forehead]

Meredith: It’s unfair that you know me this well after one month.

Meredith:  I do enjoy relaxing. Hopefully. Talking to you always helps.

[the blonde blushes more and bites her lower lip.]

Meredith: Hmm… you want me to touch myself, Ev?

Evan: It’s truly a gift.

Evan: Talking to you helps me relax too. It’s been the best part of my day the past month.

[She drops back against the bed and swallows harshly]

Evan: I’m just saying that it couldn’t hurt.

Meredith: Mine too.

[she lets her free hand slip beneath the water’s surface to trace fingertips teasingly along her thigh.]

Meredith: And what if... I want you to tell me to do it?

Evan: Guess it’s a good thing we’ll keep it up.

[She pauses, letting that message sit for a few moments as she thinks it through]

Evan: Alright. Be a good girl and touch yourself.

[she holds her breath waiting on that reply and at the order her hand goes between her legs]

Meredith: I’ll be good for you.

[She bites down on her bottom lip harshly and groans, ‘what the hell am I doing?’]

Evan: Of course you will. You’re so good, Mere.

[She hasn’t done this in at least five months. Her hand works at her clit a moan slipping past her lips as she reads that response.  She can’t help but look at that photo as a finger pushes into her tight sex.]

Meredith: How is it that you know exactly what to say?

Evan: I just want to be what you need in a lot of situations so I just...think about what I can do for you and roll with it. I'm glad I'm doing it right.

Evan: Does it feel good?

Meredith: You do a lot of things right.

[She’s lucky she’s good at multi tasking.]

Meredith: Very.  I’m already close.

Evan: I try my best for you.

Evan: Wow...how long have you needed this, Mere?

Meredith: Uhm… an embarrassing amount of time.

Meredith: Clearly I haven’t been with anyone in four months but I also wasn’t allowed to touch myself for a full two months before that. So… six months?

Evan: Hmm, no wonder you're so close already.

Evan: Is that why you wanted me to tell you to touch yourself? Since you weren't allowed?

Meredith: Not entirely.

Meredith: I like when you tell me to do things.

Evan: Oh? Does it make you feel...good when I tell you to do things?

[The blonde’s cheeks flush again and she releases a shaky breath keeping herself on edge.]

Meredith: … More than you know.

[She groans at that knowledge and rolls onto her side.]

Evan: Well that makes me feel...good.

Unsent: How are you touching y--

Evan: I bet you want permission to cum huh?

[She bites so hard into her lower lip that she nearly draws blood.]

Meredith: Good.  We should both feel good.

[She mentally kicks herself for the wording of that last text.]

Meredith: Please?

Evan: I agree.

Evan: Not just yet. Keep being good for me.

Evan: I have a time in mind. If you make it to that point without asking I will let you cum.

Meredith: I’ll be good for you.

[The whole situation was intense.  Her fingers continue to tease and pleasure.]

Meredith: Promise.

Evan: I know you will.

Evan: Tell me what you're up to tomorrow.

Meredith: Class. Giving a test because I’m so nice.  Rehearsal for the winter concert. We go into tech week soon.  Uhm walking Harold and doing the things on my list. Probably thinking about you way too much.

Evan: I'm sure your students will love that.

Evan: When is the concert again?

Evan: I'm glad following your rules in planned ;)

Evan: Thinking of me how?

Meredith: They will be thrilled.

Meredith: December 21-23. We have three shows right before break.

Meredith: :P

Meredith: I won’t know til I think it.

Evan: I will try to make it to a show.

Evan: Are you really being a smartass when I haven't yet given you permission to cum? Interesting.

Evan: How have you thought about me?

Meredith: I would really love that.

Meredith: Just being honest!

Meredith: I’m not sure you’re ready for that full answer but…

Meredith: I’ve thought about you being here with me and how much I wish you were still here. I think about cooking together and how it’s not as fun without you. I think about you every night because clearly I talk to you but it’s more than that, I sleep better with you here. Don’t tell Harold but your snuggles are far superior. I think about a lot of normal things because you helped me create a new normal but then…. I also think about you telling me what to do. I think about you giving me rules and I think about the one time you already had to punish me and what that means when you come back.  I think about the night we went dancing and how much I enjoyed being so close to you. And right now I’m thinking about you being here while I touch myself. Thinking about you replacing my hand with your own.

Evan: I'll do my best to get there.

Evan: Cheeky.

Evan: Well I'm happy that they seem to be good thoughts. And in the realm of being honest...I think about that night too. And right now...I do wish I was there.

Meredith: Always good thoughts.  Some more scandalous than others. You do?  

Meredith: What would you do if you were here?

Evan: The scandalous ones are fun huh?

Evan: Mm, see that's such a tricky question. Part of me thinks that my hand between your legs would be hard and fast and unforgiving. But most of me thinks that toying with you for hours could be just...delicious.

Meredith: Very.

Meredith: Why not both? :)

Evan: You make a very good point. Are you still teasing yourself?

Meredith: You never told me to stop.

Evan: Such a good girl.

Evan: Are you fucking yourself or just teasing your clit?

Meredith: For you.

Meredith: Both.. one finger.

Evan: That's right. For me.

Evan: Mm, make that two.

Meredith: Yes, Miss.

[Takes in a sharp breath at those words and groans softly.]

Evan: You've been teasing yourself for a while..so I want you to get a bit rougher with yourself for me.

Meredith: How much rougher?

Evan: I want you to be rough enough that you can be the burn in your wrist. I want you to ache in the best way.

Meredith: Yes, Miss… this is so hard.  I’m very tight… feels so good.

[She slams her hand harder. The fit of those two fingers stretches her perfectly.]

Evan: Such a good girl for me.  You're doing so well. Keep it up.

Meredith: For you.  All for you.

[Her hand keeps that rough and fast pace. Her wrist starts to burn and her clit throbs.]

Evan: That's right.

Evan: Hey, Mere?

Meredith: Yes?

Evan: Be a good girl and cum for me.

[Those words are all it takes to have her crying out]

Meredith: Yes, Miss.

Meredith: I’m not sure my legs work….

Evan: Must have been a good one, gorgeous.

Evan: How do you feel now?

Meredith: After no orgasms for six months? It was explosive.

Meredith: Good. Better. I really needed that.  Thank you.

Meredith: Only thing that could have made that better would be having you here.

Evan: Mm, I bet.

Evan: You're welcome, Mere.

Evan: The distance truly is a shame.

Meredith: When do I get to see you?

Evan: In person?

Meredith: Mm hmm.

Evan: Right now I'm scheduled to fly out on the 22nd because of a meeting I need to go to that day. So probably after the concert you're doing the 22nd is when you'll see me.

Meredith: That’s so long.

[With the water only luke warm she finally unplugs the tub and manages to get out on shaky legs.  Wrapping hers of in a towel she heads into Evan’s room]

Evan: You've lasted this long, Mere. I believe that you can hold out for one more week.

Evan: Would it help if we facetimed every night this week instead of just a regular call?

Meredith: Pouting at the phone.

[She pulls on a big T-shirt Evan left and crawls into bed, Harold jumping up beside her.]

Meredith: I think it might… does that mean I get to see your face now?

Evan: Awe, sweets.

Evan: Gimme like five minutes and then I'll be ready for facetime.

Thanksgiving had been so much better than she could have dreamed.  They’d made quite the meal throughout the day all the while completing a puzzle.  They’d both needed a fun holiday and in the company of one another they were able to achieve exactly that. Today they’d bundled up and went to the farm to cut down a Christmas tree.  Yes, the blonde had been picky but as Henri would remark to her sister Mere had gone easy on her.  Once the tree was home and standing proud in the living room they dressed it with white lights and lit a fire.  For now that was all that would go on the tree.  Finishing up in the kitchen Meredith brought in two steaming mugs of hot chocolate and cozied up beside the brunette.  “You’re leaving tomorrow.” She said after a moment of silence.

 It had been a long time since Evan had spent a Thanksgiving with someone that she cared about; and it had been great, getting to do so with Meredith, even if it had left a bit of longing in regards to not truly getting to spend another holiday with Henri. The meal had been delicious and the company warming, and it was easily now going to be one of her favorite Thanksgiving memories. Furthermore, the tree retrieval had been fun too. Mere had taken a while, but Evan couldn't complain when it had brought such a light to her eyes. When they had finished up the first part of the tree and had settled, Evan let out a soft sigh. “I am.” She agreed with a nod, adjusting her body to slide closer to the blonde.

 Meredith took a long sip from the steaming mug before setting it in the coffee table.  Feeling the brunette shift closer she settled comfortably against her.  “....I know it’s selfish but… I don’t want you to go.”  She admitted softly. Taking one of the older woman’s hands into her own she laced their fingers.  Harold hopped up onto the end of the couch closest to the blazing fire and curled up to take a snooze giving a little snarf in their general direction.

 She smiled softly and kissed the woman's head, squeezing her hand a bit more tightly. “I don’t really want to go either. But I need to.” Evan said, rubbing her thumb across her knuckles. “I'll be back soon though. And we're going to talk everyday.” That she knew was true because of the rules that were set in place. “So you won't have time to miss me.” She knew that wasn't exactly how it worked, but she could at least pretend a bit.

 “Oh, no?” The blonde was certainly skeptical.  Blue eyes glanced up giving her a little raise of that perfectly arched brow.  “I highly doubt that.”  She knew she’d miss her every day and that made her stomach twist into knots.  Leaning into the older woman a little bit more, she grabbed the knit blanket from the back of the couch and pulled it around them.

 “No. Chicago is great as a city and I do enjoy my job; but being away from you will suck.” They really hadn't known one another for long, but Meredith had managed to work her way into Evan's heart. She smiled as the blanket was pulled around them, letting go of Meredith's hand to wrap her arm around her, her hand resting comfortably against her side. “Wanna know a secret?” She mused, resting her forehead against Meredith's temple. “Being away from you will be one of the most difficult things I've ever done.”

 It made it a tiny bit better that Evan would be finding it just as hard.  Feeling that arm wrap around her body made her smile.  She hummed in response to the question with a small nod.  The closeness felt too good and yet just right.  “Ever?”  She was surprised to hear that but it sent a warmth through her that she couldn’t explain.

 She was pleased when Meredith seemed content, her hand gently smoothing along her side. “Mhmm, there are just a couple of things that are at the top of the list...and this is definitely up there now.” She admitted, wanting to be as honest as she possibly could. “Just gonna have to keep reminding myself that I'll be back here soon enough.”

 The blonde smiled a little more.  Turning her head, she kissed the brunette’s cheek gently.  “It’s nice knowing I won’t be alone in those feelings.” She admitted.  These next few weeks would be entirely too difficult, the rules would help for sure but still… her heart would feel a little empty.

 Evan smiled, a small flush covering her cheeks as lips pressed against her skin. “You definitely are not alone in those feelings, beautiful.” Evan mused, squeezing her side before taking a sip of her drink. “I promise to do whatever I can to make it not so bad okay? So you just need to tell me if there's anything I can do to make it better.”

 Her cheeks flushed a soft shade of pink when Evan called her beautiful.  Biting gently into her lower lip she glanced at the crackling fire. All she really wanted to do was tell her to stay, that’s what she could do.  But she’d done so much already.  A lot could happen in the span of a few weeks, they’d just proved that.  Meredith couldn’t deny that she had feelings for her sister in law.

 She lifted her hand to trail her fingers through light locks, letting out a soft breath as she enjoyed the warmth that was surrounding them, even as it was tinged with sadness. She could hear the soft snores coming from Harold and she chuckled softly before shaking her head in amusement. He was quite the character. “I’m glad you at least have him here with you.”

 The younger woman leaned into the touch giving a soft hum.  Her eyes followed Evan’s to the snoring pup and she let a soft laugh slip past pink lips.  “Lazy cakes.” A playful roll of blue eyes was given.  “So am I. He’s perfect.” Soft fingertips traced patterns lightly on the woman’s thigh.  “He’ll miss you too. Especially when I have to go off to work.”

 The muscles in her thigh tensed for a moment as patterns were drawn through her clothes, letting out a soft breath before she relaxed into the touch. It was fairly intimate but far from the most intimate thing they had done which was saying something; and it also felt really nice, to be close to her this way. “I’ll miss him too. You’ll have to make sure I can facetime with him too.” She teased gently, glancing at the blonde.

 She felt the muscles react to her touch and only smiled a little when the woman relaxed.  Another small laugh left her and she nuzzled into the brunette.  “You’ll get to FaceTime him and I’ll send you all the photos of us and then eventually you’ll be back.  Cause you promised.” She glanced up with a smile, fingers still tracing patterns over her thigh.

 Henri appeared and leaned up against the nearest piece of furniture simply staring at her younger sister.  “You’re thinking far too loud.”  She sighed a little raising her brow.  “What’s on your mind, Ev?”

Having Henri appear out of nowhere was something that Evan had just gotten used to. Particularly when she was alone. Or rather, when it was just her and Harold at home. Evan knew that Henri was around when Meredith was there too, she just seemed to be quieter. She furrowed her eyebrows and then glanced up at her sister. “I’m going to be gone for a month.” She mused, head tilting to the side. “So I was...I had an idea.” Evan stated, crossing her arms over her chest. “I was thinking that having a list of rules might help Meredith. And I was hoping maybe you’d help me come up with that list?”

 Henri listened and then smiled some.  “That actually sounds like a really good idea.”  Not that she was surprised, her sister was smart.  “Though with rules must come consequences… that needs to be figured out too.”  She gave a small nod, “I’ll help you.  I noticed she already wrote down a few things like no killing children, sleeping with you, telling you if and when the asshole bothers her and her bedtime.  She keeps it written in a journal.”  She gave Evan a look.  “Don’t judge I literally have nothing to do but snoop.”

 She grinned when Henri said that she liked the idea that she had, nodding in understanding and agreement at the notion of consequences as well. Evan’s smile widened when Henri mentioned that Meredith was keeping notes on the rules that she was being given. “That’s adorable.” She mused, chuckling at Henri’s statement soon thereafter. “No judgement. Promise. You do have a lot of time on your hands.” She said with a slight tilt of her head, pulling out her phone so that she could make note of the rules and consequences that they came up with. “So I was thinking about maybe making a rule of needing to eat three meals a day. I’ve noticed that she doesn’t really bring a lunch to work, but I was just focused on the fact that she was at least eating breakfast and dinner; proud of her for that too.”

 “That sounds more than reasonable.”  She nodded.  “She can’t just stop eating when you leave it’s unacceptable.”  The thought upset her to no end.  “I want her sleeping in your room even if you aren’t there. Harold can be with her. No more of that couch shit.”  She needed the blonde to function at least somewhat normally.

 Evan typed out the few guidelines that she and Henri had mentioned, nodding at the notion of Meredith not being allowed to sleep on the couch when Evan was away. If it wasn’t acceptable when Evan was there, it certainly wasn’t going to be acceptable when she was away. “Do you think it’s too much to ask for her to message me at least a few times every day?” Evan questioned, furrowing her eyebrows. It was hard to know what lines she shouldn’t cross when she and Meredith technically weren’t anything. Even if Evan wanted them to be.

 Henri considered this a moment. “No, I think it’s a good rule and I also think a call should be expected once she’s in bed.  You’ve gotten good at reading her voice and it’s harder over text. You have to hear she’s okay.”  The older woman gave a small nod and came to look over her shoulder.  “Harold will be her responsibility so whatever routine you’ve both started with him it’s her job to continue…”

 She nodded her head, pleased that it didn't seem to be too much. After all, in her opinion the rules that they were coming up with were super important to ensure that Meredith stayed healthy while Evan wasn't around. Her heart would break if Meredith fell back into the cycle that she had been in before. Her fingers typed up the guidelines and then furrowed her eyebrows slightly. “I don't want to overwhelm her with too many new rules so I think this is probably a good start right? I can always add if I come up with more.” She mused, rolling her shoulders. “So...consequences.”

 “I think it’s the perfect start.”  She gave a little nod and then leaned back some with a small smirk.  “It’s not like you can deny her orgasms. That’s typically a good punishment as we both know.”  She thought another moment.  “You’d be uncomfortable spanking her I’m sure.”  There were so many punishments that used to be fun that she knew her sister probably wouldn’t want to touch on.  She’d pick something boring like writing lines or essays or corner time none of which she believed would work on Meredith.

 Evan blushed at the notion of denying orgasms. Even if she liked the idea, she was far from believing she was the right person for that. Even if she wanted to be. She rubbed the back of her neck and chewed on her bottom lip. “Like...I don’t know that I would be against spanking her. The problem with that one is the distance. It's not like spanking her for all her wrong doings when I get back will work. It's too removed from the whole error in the first place.” Evan replied, trying to figure out what might work best.

 “If you keep a tally and then couple it with something less physical and more possible it might work.  But I’m not sure I have suggestions for long distance that I think would work on Meredith.  Any way I ever punished her was physical in some way shape or form. The one time we tried the psychological route I realize it didn’t have any real effect.  So… you may need to do some research.”  Henri had no real need to stray from orgasm denial and spanking it worked like a charm.

 Evan let out a slight groan of frustration and dropped her head down against the back of the couch, rubbing at her face. She certainly wasn't against doing research for this, but if Henri was telling her that the more psychological route didn't really work, Evan wasn't too sure what she would find. It would be so much easier if Evan could just make it about orgasms, but that would be crossing too many lines. More than she was already crossing.

 Henri shrugged “who knows, maybe she’ll be good and you won’t need to punish her.”  She knew that was wishful thinking because Meredith would definitely try to get away with not having lunch.  “One time when I went away I had her keep a tally of broken rules. Whatever number the rule was was the number of spanks added.  And she also got corner time with me on the phone where she couldn’t speak to me but knew I was there.”

 Evan nodded slightly, biting down on her bottom lip. “That's not a bad idea. Could also make it that she has to like...be in the position of using the wall as like the back of a chair and be sort of ‘sitting', that strains the legs and at least there's some form of physical element even if it’s vague.” The younger woman thought out loud.

 “You could do that.”  She nodded some.  Like clock work a text came through Evan’s phone from the blonde.  

Meredith: I wanna be home right now :(

 Evan bit nodded slightly and wrote down those few ideas before turning to the text sent by Meredith, smiling softly.

Evan: Soon, Mere. Just a couple more hours.

 The blonde was bored. She was currently sitting at her desk while her students took a pop quiz that most of them looked miserable about.

Meredith:  Not soon enough.

 Harold hopped up onto the couch beside her and Evan took a quick photo of the two of them, sending it to Meredith.

Evan: He'll be ready for cuddles with you when you get here.

 She grinned seeing the photo.

Meredith: Awwww he’s so cute.

Meredith: You’re pretty cute too.

 Evan felt her heart flutter and she smiled softly.

Evan: You're too sweet.

Evan: So...I had an idea.

 Meredith smirked when Evan told her she was sweet.

Meredith:  I have my moments.

Meredith: Oh?  I normally like your ideas.

 Evan paused for a moment and then continued.

Evan: I'm thinking we should set up some rules for you.

 The blonde’s cheeks flushed a pretty shade of pink and it took her a moment to reply.

Meredith: Rules are good.

 Evan felt herself relax a little bit at Meredith's response, letting out a soft breath.

Evan: I agree.

Evan: So we'll keep the bedtime in place, along with you telling me if Nick bothers you. Sleeping in the same bed as me when I'm here. And no student killing. ;)

Evan: But I came up with a few more as well.

 Mere was trying hard not to draw attention to herself but she bit gently into her lower lip and stared at the phone in her hands.

Meredith: Sounds fair.

Meredith: What are the new ones?

 Evan moved to get a bit more comfortable, allowing Harold to settle on her lap.

Evan: I expect you to sleep in my room while I'm gone as well. No going back to sleeping on the couch.

Evan: You're also to eat three meals a day.

Evan: I want Harold's routine to stay the same so you're going to have to start taking him for a walk every day.

 Meredith bit her lip a little harder.

Meredith: You’re sure you want me in your room?

Meredith: Three? What about two and a snack?

Meredith: I can definitely take him for a walk.

 Evan rolled her eyes slightly, shaking her head.

Evan: I'm sure.

Evan: 3 meals.

Evan: I know you can.

 The blonde could see Evan rolling her eyes through the phone.

Meredith:  :|

Meredith: What happens if I don’t?

 Her eyes narrowed and she licked her bottom lip.

Evan: For one thing, you'll have a time out on video with me. But you'll have to use the wall as a back of a chair and pretend to be sitting. Work out those thigh muscles.

Evan: And I also expect you to keep a record of the rules that you break. And I will be spanking you for them when I get back.

 That seemed familiar but she guessed that perhaps Henri had used that on Evan before.  She huffed some.

Meredith: You would actually spank me?

 Evan read over the text a couple of times as she tried to figure out how Meredith was feeling.

Evan: I would.

Evan: As long as you consent. I don't want to push myself on you. But rules need consequences.

 Meredith was flushed and she was lucky her students were occupied.

Meredith: I consent.

Meredith: I told you I missed having rules… clearly I need them.

 Evan carded her fingers through her hair, clearing her throat.

Evan: You did. And that's why I want to give them to you.

Evan: I also expect you to send me at least a few messages every day.

Evan: And you're to call me once you get into bed.

 She smiled a little at the phone.

Meredith: Thank you.

Meredith: That sounds dirty.  I know it’s not but it sounds it.

 Evan chuckled and bit down on her bottom lip.

Evan: I definitely get how it seems dirty.

Unsent: We could make it dirty.

Evan: It'll just be a check in. And if need be I'll stay on the phone while you fall asleep.

 The blonde clenched her thighs at some of the thoughts going through her mind.

Meredith: You may have to do that every night.

 Evan wriggled slightly and cleared her throat.

Evan: That's okay, Mere.

Evan: Do you have any questions?

 Meredith tucked a few strands behind her ear.

Meredith: I don’t think so… but those are all the rules?

 Evan tilted her head to the side.

Evan: Those are what I've come up with as of now. I didn't want to go from giving you like barely any rules to a ton of them.

Evan: But if you're open to more, I can set up more.

 Meredith thought to the list of rules that Henri had made her and felt her cheeks heat up again.

Meredith: I think that’s good but if you decide you want to give me more I won’t be opposed.

Meredith: Henri had a lot for me at one point mostly because she wanted to see how long it would take me to break.  The punishments were fun for her.

 Evan rested her head in her hand and let out a breath.

Evan: I will keep that in mind, Mere. Thank you for being honest with me.

Evan: Mm..that's a good one though. Honesty. About how you're feeling and about whether or not you break any rules.

Evan: That definitely doesn't surprise me.

 The blonde took out her journal and wrote down all of the new rules.

Meredith: Honesty… about how I’m feeling… what if I don’t think you’ll react well to how I’m feeling?

Meredith: I have the old list written down in an old journal.

 Evan took a few moments to really think over that question, not wanting to take it lightly.

Evan: I would still like you to be honest. And we'll work through whatever it is. Okay?

Evan: I like that.

 The blonde took a photo of the new list in her current journal and sent it.

Meredith: Okay.

 Evan smiled at the picture and simply sent one back of her and Harold once more.

Evan: Good girl.

Evan: It is super important to me that you trust that you can talk to me about anything.

 The younger woman felt her heart warm at the photo and then saw those words and had to clench her thighs.

Meredith: I wanna be home.

Unsent: You probably shouldn’t call me that unless you want me turned on.

Meredith:  I’ll keep that in mind.

 Evan moved to lay down on the couch, adjusting Harold so that he was still comfortable and cuddling with her.

Evan: Just a bit longer. You've made it through most of the day.

Evan: Okay.

 Mere glanced up as the bell rang and students shuffled to hand in the quiz.

Meredith: One more class.

Meredith: When do the new rules start?

 Evan hummed thoughtfully and then replied.

Evan: You've got this.

Evan: I'm going to say tomorrow because it's too late to get those three meals in.

 Mere cleaned up and straightened the room and packed up.

Meredith: it’s a free period but I’m not allowed to leave :(

Meredith:Tomorrow it is.

Unsent: thank god… don’t need to tell you about how sexually frustrated I am.

 Evan scratched the dog's head and smiled softly.

Evan: Sorry, gorgeous. That sounds rough.

 The blonde mentally cursed the older woman for making her blush again.

Meredith: It is rough.  I’m packed and ready to leave.

 Evan could almost see the pout that Meredith could be sporting.

Evan: How can I entertain you for the last little while?

 Mere huffed and pouted some.

Meredith: Teleport me home.

 She let out a sharp laugh, leading to Harold looking up at her. “sorry boy.”

Evan: Unfortunately I am not skilled in that way.

 The pout only grew on the blonde’s face.

Meredith: Maybe Harold is.

 The brunette looked at the dog. “Can you teleport Meredith here?”

Evan: Mm, sorry. He doesn't seem to know how either.

 Mere took a photo of herself pouting and sent it to Evan.

Meredith: Sad.

 Meredith was absolutely adorable and Evan almost ‘aww'd’ because of it.

Evan: I'll try to learn the art. But for now you just have to hold out.

 She was cranky right now and honestly just needed cuddles and to be around her new favorite human and pup.

Meredith: You’ll need it when you’re in Chicago.

 She felt a soft pang in her heart and she let out a soft sigh. She was not looking forward to leaving her.

Evan: That's for damn sure.

 Meredith nibbled at her lower lip and drew doodles in her journal.

Meredith:  Think you’ll miss me?

 Evan didn't have to think for very long.

Evan: Absolutely.

 The blonde smiled at the reply.

Meredith: I’m gonna miss you too.

 She smiled and rubbed her hand over Harold's head.

Evan: We'll just have to count down the days.

 She bit a little harder into her lip.

Meredith: And I’ll have to try and stay out of trouble.

 She giggled softly at her words.

Evan: You definitely will. Have to be good for me.

 She clenched her thighs.

Meredith: So I have to tell you how I’m feeling every day?

 She quirked her eyebrow at the question.

Evan: Yes. That's what I would like.

 The blonde released a breath she’d been holding.

Meredith: That might be the hardest part.

 Evan chewed on her bottom lip, unable to disagree with that point.

Evan: I know it will. It’s not easy to be completely honest about things.

 She cleared her throat gently.

Meredith: it’s not easy to talk about feelings.

 The brunette smiled softly.

Evan: No, it's not. One of the most difficult things in life.

 She thought for a long moment before replying.

Meredith: I need you to make me a promise.

Meredith: If I’m honest about my feelings then you won’t shut me out because of them.

 She tilted her head to the side and let the words settle in her brain and her heart before she replied.

Evan: I promise. I won't shut you out.

 The blonde smiled and felt her heart settle in her chest.

Meredith: Thank you :)

Meredith: I’ll be home soon. Leaving in five.

 Evan sat up and gently moved Harold onto the couch and then stood up.

Evan: Stay safe. I'll see you soon.

 Meredith grabbed her bag, locked up and headed out to the Jeep. She was careful as usual on the drive home and when she made it inside she was met at the door by Harold.  She scooped him up into her arms and gave him all the kisses before setting him down so that she could change out of her skirt suit.  He followed her up and into her room and she quietly wondered where Evan was as she went about changing.

 She gave Harold a few scratches before making her way up to the bathroom and getting into the shower. Already in the shower, she realized that she had forgotten to grab new clothes but she was definitely not going to get back out to grab the clothes now. After her shower, she wrapped the towel around herself and stepped out of the bathroom.

 The blonde was leaving her bedroom as Evan was leaving the bathroom. She wore leggings and an oversized sweater that was falling off one shoulder.  She ran a hand through blonde strands and when she glanced up she came face to face with a very wet Evan in nothing more than a towel.  Her breath hitched and her cheeks flushed.

 Evan grinned cheekily as she almost walked right into Meredith, clearing her throat. “Forgot to bring new clothes into the bathroom.” She explained, trying not to focus on the redness of her face; though that was definitely a challenge. “How was the drive home?” The brunette questioned, more than confident in the way her body looked and not minding the moment at all. It was actually nice to have an effect on someone.

 Finding words was difficult in that moment.  Her cheeks were staying pink and there was nothing she could do about it.  “Mm hmm,” she hummed.  The younger woman gave a little shrug at the question. “It was … uhm… long... “  Normally she was so articulate so the fact that she wasn’t finding her words was probably amusing.  She leaned up against her door frame, her thighs clenching beneath her sweater.  Biting gently into her lower lip she glanced up innocently keeping her eyes on Evan’s face.

 Her eyes lit up with the slight stutter coming from the other woman, appreciating seeing her a little off kilter. Something that had set her off a bit when they had gone dancing together. It had been a bit since Evan felt as though she'd gotten that form of a reaction from the blonde. “Well, I'm glad you're home now.” Evan said, leaning in to press a kiss to Meredith's cheek. “I'm going to go change.” She said against the blonde's ear before heading to her bedroom.

 Mere saw those eyes light up and she had to swallow hard.  She bit down a little more into her lip and also bit her inner cheek to keep herself from moaning as the woman pressed a kiss to her cheek.  The sound left her as a near silent whimper.  “Mm hmm…”  She hummed again, it was honestly all she could do.  As Evan went into her room she let out a breath and rolled those pretty blue eyes at herself.  God, she needed to get laid.

 Stepping into her room, she smirked slightly and leaned against her door for a moment. Now that was fun. Deciding to have a bit more fun, she slipped on a pair of comfortable, black short shorts that accentuated her legs nicely and a white tank top that formed against her well; finishing it off with a black cardigan to keep herself warm. Leaving the cardigan open, she made her way out of her bedroom.

 She went back into her room to change into a new pair of leggings those ones were ruined simply from that encounter in the hall.  Instead of black leggings she now had on dark grey ones as she made her way downstairs to snuggle up on the couch with Harold.  He seemed quite pleased to be curling up against her. Her mind tried to wrap around the fact that her very sober body was having this sort of reaction to Evan and it was hard to comprehend.

 The brunette walked downstairs, smiling at the sight of Meredith cuddled up with the dog. Harold had easily gotten onto Evan's good side and she loved getting to spend time with him when Meredith was at work. He was a good snuggler and it had Evan wondering if she should get herself an animal for when she headed back to Chicago. “Any room on the couch for me?”

 The blonde glanced up and was quick to bite into her cheek again at the sight of the brunette.  She shouldn’t be allowed to wear stuff like that.  Her cheeks heated up ever so slightly and were a light pink.  Making a little bit of room she smiled some.  “Now there is.”  The way Harold was laying took up way more space than he should which meant they’d be laying quite close.

 She smiled and moved to claim the spot that Meredith had made for her, settling down with a hum. “Thank you for the sacrifice.” She teased lightly, brushing a strand of Meredith's hair behind her ear. They didn't have much longer before Evan was to head back to Chicago and so Evan wanted to make the most of their time together. Even if that was just spent snuggled up on the couch.

 “It’s not like he was about to move.”  She gestured to the lazy dog and let out a little laugh.  The blonde leaned into the touch and studied the older woman’s features, she never felt like she could read her.  Everything the brunette did or said only made Meredith like her that much more, it was getting harder and harder to mask that fact.

 “That's true. But you could have left me to suffer on my own.” She said with a wink, wrapping her arm around the woman, the closeness between them something she was used to thanks to their sleeping arrangements. She noted Meredith's eyes scanning over her and she leaned in to press their foreheads together. “What are you thinking about?” Evan questioned.

 “True.”  Harold gave a little snort and stretched so he took up even more room.  “Couch hog.”  She accused before settling into Evan’s hold.  When that forehead rested against her own her breath hitched some.  “Hmm… that this is the last day I get to avoid that question.”  She replied with a soft sass in a teasing manner.  Replies like that used to get her a swat to the ass.

 “Such a couch hog.” The brunette snorted at the reply, shaking her head slightly and squeezing Meredith's waist. “Cheeky girl.” She muttered softly, shaking her head. She kept her forehead pressed against the blonde's feeling her heart settle as she relaxed into the comfort of having Meredith near. She had acknowledge, in some way, that she did in fact like Meredith and that those feelings were growing...she just felt bad about them. But she figured a small bit of indulgence wasn't terrible, right?

 The blonde smiled at those muttered words and that squeeze.  At least the Hughes women seemed to appreciate her cheeky side, it was a quality her parents had tried to get rid of in her early on.  She gave a soft hum as they stayed like that and scratched Harolds head some.  “Wish I could will time to slow down so I could just… keep you here.”  She admitted softly.

 Evan felt her heart squeeze slightly at Meredith's words and she gently rubbed her hand along her side as she attempted to soothe the blonde. “I feel that way too. I really don't want to leave you.” The brunette mused softly, pressing a kiss to her cheek before pressing their foreheads together once more. “I'll be back for Christmas though. And we'll get to spend a few weeks together then.”

 “Time should still slow down.”  This closeness felt right, lips on her skin felt right, the way Evan tried to soothe away the negative feelings felt right.  “Mm hmm.  And then I’ll have to take a trip to Chicago.”  She didn’t like the thought of Evan being so far away.  The blonde nuzzled into the brunette and let out a breath.  Even though being this close felt right being this close while Evan was dressed like this was sexually frustrating to no end.

 “I agree. Time should definitely slow down so I can stay right here with you.” She mused softly, her stomach flipping at the thought of Meredith coming to visit her in Chicago. “Definitely and I can show you around a bit. We'll have some fun over Christmas and New Years.” She promised, her hand moving to rest on Meredith’s lower back, rubbing circles into her back. She wanted to so much more between her and Meredith but she knew that it couldn't be.

 Hearing that Evan felt the same way only made her smile.  “I’m sure it’ll be fun…. I’ve never been to Chicago.”  She couldn’t wait to see the city.. More like she couldn’t wait to spend even more time with this woman but for now she was happy to lay here with her family, content to just be.  “We’re gonna cook all day tomorrow, aren’t we?”  She expected as much but hearing the very domestic plan was oddly fun and comforting.

 “I’m excited to get to be the one you share that with.” Evan expressed honestly. She nodded her head with a smile. “We're going to cook and we're going to put a puzzle together, and watch movies, and just spend time together. And I think it sounds like a perfect Thanksgiving.” Evan said with a smile, brushing her nose gently against Meredith's.

 “And watch the parade and the dog show?”  She smiled, adding to their list of things to do tomorrow.  It was tradition to watch those two things.  She had no doubt in her mind that Evan was right, they would have a perfect Thanksgiving. The Eskimo kiss made her heart flutter and her cheeks flush once more.

 “Yeah, gorgeous. Of course we'll watch those too.” Evan said with a nod and a smiled. Evan kind of loved how easy it seemed to make Meredith blush and she wanted it to keep happening. “You're adorable.” She stated, wanting to also be fairly honest with her thoughts.

  Hearing they’d keep up with tradition made her heart happy.  All her traditions changed and solidified with Henri.  Being called ‘gorgeous’ kept her blushing but being called adorable made that blush deepen.  She smiled shyly.  “You…. I’m convinced you just wanna make me blush.”

 She chuckled and she shrugged her shoulders. “I am definitely not against seeing that red paint your cheeks.” Evan agreed with with a nod of agreement. “But you really are gorgeous Mere. So I'm just speaking the truth.” She replied softly, her hand sliding up her spine to soothe her.

 The blonde glanced down, “Not nearly as gorgeous as you,” She murmured. And she believed those words. The Hughes women were the most beautiful women she’d ever seen.  “And it’s completely unfair that you know how to make me blush so easily.”

 “Mmm, you don't give yourself enough credit.” Evan replied with a gentle tap to her back. “I quite enjoy that I can make you blush. But don't worry. You have the ability to make me blush too.” The brunette winked, and adjusted her position to get a bit more comfortable on the couch.

 “Do I?”  She said in a teasing tone with an amused smile.  The younger woman resettled as Evan did and glanced down as the pup stretched again giving a grunt and a little snore. She rubbed his tummy and he simply looked more content.

 “Mhm. You do. Very much so.” She replied, biting down on her bottom lip and letting out a soft breath. More often than not, Evan found herself affected in one way or another. She glanced down at the pup and smiled softly. “You're both too cute.” Evan said, drawing the blonde closer.

 “Good to know.”  Harold kicked his back leg when she found his spot and a small giggle pushed past her lips.  Her cheeks flushed again.  “He’s the cutest though.”  She snuggled into Evan’s hold.  “I’m really happy to not have school tomorrow.”

 “He's definitely adorable.” Evan agreed. “I'm pretty happy that you don't have school tomorrow either. We just get to hang out all day and be chill.” Evan stated with a grin, lifting her hand to brush her fingers gently over the blonde's cheek with a soft smile.

 “Chill and cook.  That’s still a monumental task.”  She smirked.  They had some pretty big plans for their thanksgiving meal.  The younger woman leaned into Evan’s touch.  “And my rules start tomorrow… on a holiday no less.”  Those blue eyes found the brunette’s gaze.

 She chuckled and nodded her head in agreement. “It's definitely going to be a lot of work, but I'm excited to have a Thanksgiving meal with someone I care about.” Evan admitted, her thumb continuing to trail along her jawline. “Perfect time for the rules to start.”

 “So am I.”  Just knowing that Evan cared about her made her heart swell.  The blonde gave a little pout.  “How do you figure?”  She knew she’d forget something tomorrow with the craziness that came with it being a holiday.

 “We'll find a way to make Henri a part of it too.” Evan promised. “That way we start them while I'm still here. And you don't just have to start them when I'm not even around. Make it feel more concrete.” Evan explained, wanting to kiss the pout off of her lips and just fighting against it.

 “I would love that.  I’m sure she would too.”  She smiled almost sadly at the thought.  Her smile morphed into another pout.  “But… but you’re staying til we get a tree and… And tomorrow is a holiday.”  She practically whined.  Her pretty blue eyes were giving that puppy dog look d she’d mastered over the years.

 She shook her head and smiled. “You're not changing my mind, Meredith. Rules are starting tomorrow.” Evan replied, nudging her nose against Meredith's again. “No more puppy dog eyes.” Evan said with a shrug of her shoulders and a light scratch to the blonde's scalp.

 The younger woman gave a little huff and pouty frown.  It was rare that the eyes worked on Henri but she thought for sure she might persuade Evan with them.  She couldn’t help but lean into the touch despite her current feelings.  Giving a light hum she cuddled in closer, her sweater slipping a bit further off her shoulder to expose more skin.

 She held back a groan as more shoulder was exposed, rubbing her hand down her back before carefully pulling back. “Time to get some dinner ready.” Evan replied, booing her nose gently. “You wanna stay here and snuggle with the pup?”

 “Hmm?”  She had just gotten comfortable for real and Evan was ready to get up.  “Oh Uhm… yeah I think we’re gonna have all the snuggles.”  She smiled and leaned forward to kiss the top of his head.

 She paused and moved to leave before pausing and shaking her head. She grabbed her phone and set an alarm before settling back down. “I want more snuggles. I'll make dinner in like an hour.”

 The younger woman had laid down and curled up.  Grinning at those words she reached up and grabbed the brunette by the shirt pulling her back down with them, this time their bodies pressed up against one another a little more so than before.  “Get jealous that Harold was getting all the snuggles and kisses?”  She teased.

 She let out a soft gasp as she was tugged back down onto the couch, rolling her eyes playfully. She laughed softly as Meredith spoke and nodded her head. “So jealous. I deserve snuggles and kisses too.” Evan replied, pouting just a little bit. She held the other woman tight, resting her head and letting out a soft sigh of contentment.

 As the woman held her close and joined in on the banter the blonde smiled.  She turned her head a bit, enough that those lips could find Evan’s cheek.  The kiss was planted just shy of her mouth, it was soft and lasted at least a second too long. Instead of being weird she turned back around and pulled that arm tighter around her slender body.

 She felt her heart stutter at how close those lips were to her own and she let out a soft breath, holding the blonde close and letting her eyes fall shut. Being around Meredith just felt so good and she wished that she could just take the step. Henri had even pretty well given her permission. But she just couldn't push through the guilt she felt about her feelings.

 Her own eyes fell shut and she focused on the feeling of Evan’s breath against her neck.  Her bare shoulder was the one that the other woman could more than likely see.  She laced her fingers with Evan’s and snuggled, so content to be settled against her.  She definitely didn’t want to assume that her feelings might be reciprocated but she couldn’t help but want to be with this woman.

Evan hadn't expected for them to decide to go dancing together, but when Meredith had combined Evan's idea of bowling with the idea of dancing, she hadn't been able to disagree. Evan finished off her black outfit by curling her hair and adding a touch of makeup to her skin. She then made her way downstairs, by the door to wait for Meredith. She double checked her purse to ensure that she had socks for bowling before pulling on one of her black coats.

  Meredith was excited to go out, she used to go dancing all the time.  By the time she was finished getting ready her make up was done to perfection and messy blonde waves were worn down.  Bracelets were worn on each wrist and a thick collar like necklace adorned her neck.  Since they were also going bowling she decided against the dress she’d picked out and instead wore black pants that almost looked painted onto her skin and a black top that dipped low in the front.  There were heels on her feet and yet she was still shorter than Evan. She stuck black socks, mo Ryan’s a few necessities in her small purse and headed downstairs.

 She glanced up when she heard Meredith walking down the stairs, feeling her breath catch. She was so gorgeous. She looked away for a moment to compose herself and then glanced back up, hoping the flush on her cheeks wasn't too noticeable. She cleared her throat and then smiled. “Ready to go?” Evan questioned, quirking an eyebrow slightly. She was definitely trying to play off the reaction she had just had but Meredith looked amazing. The clothes fit her curves incredibly and the makeup enhanced the beauty that was already there.

 The younger woman felt those eyes on her but she didn’t mind, her own blue gaze took in the sight of the brunette.  The curls were a beautiful touch. It was as if they’d read each other’s mind in their outfit choice at least with the color.  The blonde noticed the flush but was convinced it wasn’t for her.  Returning the smile, she gave a nod.  “Definitely.”  As she moved for the door she didn’t grab a jacket figuring they’d just be moving from car to club and back.

 “Um what do you think you're doing?” She commented as Meredith moved for the door without grabbing a jacket. “It’s freezing out there. You need a jacket.” Without waiting for an argument, she slipped out of the black leather jacket that she was wearing and put it over Meredith's shoulders. She narrowed her eyes, waiting for a refusal before she turned to grab a different jacket for herself before walking out.

 “Hmm?”  Mere peaked over her shoulder at those words.  Her brow scrunched up and she was about to talk back but then that warm leather jacket was being draped over her. The jacket was beautiful, stitched with a few flowers here and there but the best part was that it smelled like Evan. She was about to argue but that look stopped her.  Instead she slipped her arms into the jacket and went about locking up that house before meeting her at the car.

 She nodded her head, pleased when Meredith didn’t argue with her about the jacket. She wouldn't have left until Meredith stopped or grabbed her own jacket, so she was glad it hadn't been a problem. She moved to the car, having decided that they would take a vehicle there and leave it overnight. When they reached the vehicle, she slipped in and started the car, backing up once both of them were buckled in.

 Meredith buckled up and was quick to jump into her role as navigator.  She got them there quite easily, it took a little over ten minutes. Lucky Strikes had its usual Saturday crowd. They immediately put their name in for a lane, it might take a little while but eventually they’d get one. Checking the coats, the blonde then led them to the nearest bar.  She ordered a hard cider and a shot of petron.

 At the bar, Evan grabbed a shot of some concoction that the bartender had made as well as a glass of vodka, cranberry. She stood beside Meredith, ready to enjoy their night out. She had already found herself enjoying time spent with Meredith so she knew it would be the same that night, just with a little something extra added in.

 By the time they got called for their lane Meredith was on her second cider.  She was nursing it and feeling happily buzzed.  They’d changed into their socks and bowling shoes and she picked a pink ball that seemed to glow in the black lit alley.  The game had been fun, even if there was lots of teasing back and forth.  This was her last turn and she had one pin to get down. She bent a little, she could feel many eyes on her ass…. the pants had clearly been a good choice. She took the shot and when the ball barely missed the pin she gave a small pout.  “Too much pressure when it gets down to only one.” Another sip was taken of her cider.

 Evan swallowed harshly and nodded her head slightly, biting down on her bottom lip. “You did great, Mere.” Evan said with a slight smile before pushing up to go and throw her last frame. She was more than a little distracted by the alcohol and how good looking Meredith really was. Her first ball managed to stay on the lane just barely, but her last slipped off and she chuckled. “Once upon a time I was good at bowling.” She slipped off her bowling shoes and her socks before finding her own shoes. “It was fun though.”

 “You’re sweet.”  She smiled. Meredith wasn’t amazing at bowling but it was definitely fun.  Blue eyes watched the brunette as she played the last frame and once she was done she gave a small laugh at her words, “I was never good at bowling.”  Putting her heels back on she gave a small nod, “It was definitely fun.”  The blonde bit into her lower lip gently and gave a small tilt to her head.  “Gonna come dance with me?”

 Evan chuckled softly, shrugging her shoulders. Evan had been a bowler in a youth bowling league when she was younger, but she had stopped when she was fourteen. She was glad, however, that Meredith had had a good time. She narrowed her eyes slightly as Meredith bit down on her bottom lip, trying to ignore the way her stomach flipped. “Mm, I guess so.” She teased with a light wink before gently grasping Meredith's hand and leading her onto the dance floor.

 Meredith grinned at the reply then took her last sip of that cider feeling tipsy and warm.  She let Evan lead her out into the dance floor that was already crowded with bodies. Blue eyes were fixated on the woman who looked so much like her wife, but Evan was different… different but no less stunning.  Meredith wanted to dance but she didn’t want to attract the wrong kind of attention, in her mind she’d already decided that her partner for the night was Evan.

 As they reached a place on the dance floor that had a bit of an empty space, Evan stopped and turned her attention to Meredith; a small smile forming on her lips. She could see the flush of alcohol on the blonde's face and she let go of the other woman's hand. She was gorgeous. And Evan knew if Meredith hadn't been Henri's wife, she would definitely be making a move. But she had been and so she wouldn't.

 A smile pulled at painted lips. Her body started to move, once upon a time  she’d been a dancer and her system was wired to move sinfully. She could feel eyes on her and out of the corner of her own she could see someone trying to advance. To make it clear to anyone else that might get the wrong idea, she hooked a single finger onto Evan’s belt loop and tugged her in closer.  Meredith was off limits.

 Meredith was gorgeous and moved way too sexily for it to be ignored and she knew that others had their eyes on her...but if anyone made a move, she wouldn't be afraid to play the part. Though it seemed like Mere would make the move for her. Her breath caught in her throat once more as she was tugged closer to Meredith, letting out a shaky breath. However, she soon regained her confidence, looping her arms loosely around Meredith's neck with a slight smirk as they continued to move.

 That smirk did wicked things to her and her cheeks flushed slightly in the dimly lit club.  The alcohol was easily waking up a part of her that she thought might have died with Henri.  Their relationship had been extremely sexual so the fact that she hadn’t felt turned on or in need in over three months made her think that perhaps she was broken.  No, that part of her was working just fine.  She started to wish those hands were on her body instead.  They were dancing so close now that their bodies were pressed up against one another.

 Her heart was racing as they seemed to move closer and closer to one another, their bodies moving with and against each others in a delicious way. Her fingers tangled just slightly in Meredith's hair and her lips parted with a slight huff. She knew that what she was feeling in the moment was wrong, but she simply reminded herself that as long as she did not act on it...it would be okay. That train of thought was so similar to the one she had in regards to Henri so many years ago that it caught her off guard.

 Meredith bit back a moan when she felt those fingers tangle into her hair.  She kept that one finger hooked in her belt loop while her other hand slid around to settle on her hip, fingers teasing the sliver of flesh she found.   It all had her heart hammering in her chest.  Her hips pushed forward a bit, grinding her front slowly against Evan’s.  She leaned in and spoke against her ear, “They need to know I’m yours tonight.”

 Evan had to hold her own gasps back as hips rolled towards her open, one of her hands cupping the back of Meredith's neck and rubbing her thumb into the skin. At Meredith's words, her nails scratched gently against her neck and she nodded just once. “There'll be no doubt.” She muttered, pressing a kiss to Meredith's temple before pulling back to press their foreheads together as they continued to move. Her heart was pounding and her breath escaped in tiny pants as her eyes met Meredith's.

 Shivers danced along her spine as she felt Evan’s touch and when lips found her temple she felt her breath hitch at those words.  This felt dangerous but far too good to deny. Those blue eyes gazed up through thick lashes into Evan’s as they danced like that, so very close, foreheads touching.  She was happily surprised to find that the brunette could hold her own on the dance floor.  Eventually she felt eyes shifting away from them and she settled into their closeness.

 Her hands slipped down to rest on Meredith's lower back, nails scratching along her back. “You're pretty damn good at this, Mere.” Evan managed to say, a small smirk on her face. She hadn't gone dancing in so long and she hadn't been expecting to go with her sister's wife, but now that she was here, she certainly wasn't going to complain.

 Meredith sucked in a breath at the feeling of nails against her heated skin.  She flushed a little at that smirk again, unable to help herself.  “I took dance when I was younger… was on the dance team through school… even considered exotic dancing at one point before I got my bartending job.”  The blonde smiled some.  Her own arms shifted up to go around the brunette’s neck keeping them close.

“Mmm, bet you could put on a damn good show.” Evan mused, nails digging lightly into her back as arms wound around her neck. She kept moving her hips, only focused on Meredith, ignoring absolutely everyone else in favor of the blonde. “Bet you everyone is jealous of me right now.”

 She bit into her lower lip and tried not to blush furiously but it was really no use.  “Oh, I can.”  She husked.  The blonde traced patterns on the back of Evan’s neck, whimpering ever so softly at the way those nails felt.  A hum was given and a small smile.  “I’m sure there are some just as jealous of me.”

 She clenched her muscles at the sound of that whimper, trying to ignore the burn that it ignited within her. She winked slightly when Meredith tossed the comment toward her as well, rolling her hips in a particularly sly manner with a hum. “So much jealousy.” Evan teased, letting out a shaky breath of want that she was trying to deny.

 The blonde gave a soft laugh.  “Mm hmm.  But they can all suck it.”  She murmured.  Afterall, they’d be going home together tonight. As those hips rolled in that way she bit her inner cheek to keep from moaning.  She couldn’t help the feelings of want and need that coursed through her and she quietly wondered if Evan was feeling the same way.

 “Damn right they can. None of them are taking you home tonight.” She stated, eyes flashing. Of course it wasn't like she was taking her home in a sexual manner, even if her body wanted otherwise. “Fuck.” She muttered at the sound of the moan and she moved her head to nuzzle against the blonde's neck.

 “You are.”  The smile that graced her features was beautiful but probably dangerous.  A shiver rolled through her body at hearing that word.  The blonde tipped her head slightly to give better access to her neck.  Her hands flattened against the back of the woman’s neck and then moved around and down to rest on her collar bone, tracing that ridged like with both thumbs.

 “Mhm. I am.” She agreed with a nod. She groaned softly as Meredith temptingly dropped her head back. She wanted to nip at her neck so badly but she knew that she couldn't. Instead, she simply let out a soft whimper as thumbs moved along her collarbone. She swallowed harshly and pressed the lightest of kisses to Meredith's neck before she pulled away, taking a slight step back.

 She loved the sound of that even if she knew nothing was going to happen between them.  Hearing her groan and whimper had her thighs clenching.  A whimper of her own left pink lips as she felt that kiss to her neck.  When Evan stepped back she bit her lower lip and turned, taking her hand to draw her back in close.  She laced their fingers and placed the brunette’s hand on her hip, rolling them back against her.

 “Mere...fuck.” She gasped as hips rolled against hers once more, biting down on her bottom lip. She had taken a step back to try and cool things down between them but it didn't seem like that was working. So she took a deep breath, settling her own emotions and trying to focus only on the fact that they were dancing. Not how they were dancing. She cleared her throat, easing back into an actual rhythm.

 They danced like this for a full song.  Her free hand dropped back to rest against Evan’s upper thigh while the other one remained laced with the brunette’s on her body.  She wished those hands would travel but it felt good to grind back against her in such a heated way.  When the song changed she leaned back.  “I think I need another drink.”

 At Meredith's words, she paused and furrowed her eyebrows. “No...I think you're done.” Evan stated in reply with a nod of her head. “Plus it’s time for us to head home.” Evan said with as she stretched her arms above her head.

 Meredith gave a small pout, her brow scrunching some.  “But why?”  She practically whined.  “The club doesn’t close for another couple of hours.”  She wasn’t drunk or anything, she was completely coherent.  The fact that Evan was ready to gocuttîheir night short was disappointing.

 The reason for ending their night was kind of selfish. But she also thought that it was smart for them to leave now. “You're right...it doesn't close for another few hours but like...it’s bedtime.” Evan replied, dark eyes focused on blue orbs.

 The blonde gave a huff.  “Bedtime?”  She rose a brow.  “Since when?”  Something fluttered in her chest any time Evan took control in any way and tonight was no different even if she was feeling just a bit defiant.  Something told her that a bedtime would be imposed as a new rule.

 She quirked an eyebrow and tilted her head to the side. “Since now. Are you going to argue with it?” Evan questioned, taking a step closer to the other woman. She felt comfortable in taking control right now and she appreciated that fact about herself.

 Her cheeks flushed some as Evan slipped into dominance so easily. Those brilliant blues looked up through dark thick lashes. She bit into her lower lip and considered it a moment.  “What happens if I do?”  The alcohol induced buzz made her a little more daring, more like woman Henri fell in love with.

 Her hand moved up to slip behind the woman's neck and gently gripped the woman's hair. “a punishment of some sort. But we’d have to discuss that.” Evan mused, furrowing her eyebrows slightly before taking a step back. “Lets go.”

 As those fingers got a hold of her hair she sucked in a sharp breath, she felt it through her entire body.  Her cheeks flushed again at mention of a punishment, submitting to Evan would probably be incredibly helpful but in this moment the thought also turned her on.  With another little huff she made her way to the coat check to get their jackets.  Handing Evan hers she slipped into the leather garment she’d been given earlier.  It looked damn good on her, nearly as good as it felt.

 “Good.” She murmured as Meredith fell into the order before following after her. As Meredith grabbed the jackets, Evan called for an uber before she gently took the jacket from the blonde, thanking her for it. She slipped on her own jacket before grabbing Meredith's hand and leading her out of the club. She leaned up against the building and crossed her arms over her chest.

 She pulled her jacket closed and hugged it tight around herself, Evan’s scent only making her think about how close they’d just been.  It had her heart feeling all sorts of ways.  Leaning up against the wall beside her she stared up at the starry night sky as they waited.  “You like Lucky Strikes?”

 “It definitely has some perks for sure.” Evan replied, chewing on her bottom lip and glancing at Meredith. “Do you come here a lot?” The brunette questioned, tilting her head to the side slightly. She saw a guy walking towards them and slipped her arm around the blonde, drawing her close.

 “Mhm,” She hummed in agreement. Giving a small shrug she shook her head.  “We’ve been a few times a year since it opened but there are better dance clubs.”  Meredith had noticed the man but when Evan drew her in close she hadn’t been expecting it.  She stalled against her happy for the closeness and extra body heat.

 “Got ya.” Evan said with a nod, wondering if Meredith would have preferred to go elsewhere for their night out. When Meredith rested against her, Evan held her a bit more tightly. She was much more comfortable in this type of closeness. It was the type of closeness they had every night when sleeping.

 “I had a good time tonight. With you.”  Feeling those arms tighten their hold she smiled some.  Evan was protective and she loved that about her.  Being held in her arms was a huge comfort and always felt perfect and safe.  The blonde tilted her head to place a kiss on the older woman’s cheek.

 “I had a good time with you tonight too.” Evan said, because she had. She didn't want Meredith to feel like she regretted the night at all. She smiled at the kiss to her cheek, feeling it flush slightly. She rubbed her back gently and then kissed her forehead gently. The guy had walked past them, giving them a look and Evan simply stared right back.

 The kiss to her forehead earned a smile.  She tucked herself in against the older woman and rested her cheek in the crook of her neck, arms looped around her waist until the Uber showed up.  When they got into the Uber she sat beside Evan, her head dropping to her shoulder.

 She let a content sigh fall from her lips, enjoying the closeness between them until the Uber arrived. She reluctantly parted from her before sliding in next to her in the back seat. As a head rested on her shoulder, Evan allowed her hand to rest on her thigh, squeezing it gently.

 Meredith relaxed against her and nearly fell asleep on the way home.  By the time they made it there she slipped off her jacket and hung it up, kicking off her heels at the door.  “PJs,” She murmured.  Heading upstairs she stripped along the way finding her room so that she could change. Henri stayed downstairs by her sister and looked at her amused.  “Have fun?”

 “M’kay.” She mused, slipping off her jacket and hanging it up before she kicked off her shoes. She knew she'd have to head upstairs and change herself, but she needed a moment alone. Not that she truly got one as Henri spoke to her. Evan glanced over at Henri with a sigh and then rubbed her face, not really knowing how to answer the question.

 Henri simply smirked and leaned up against the banister.. “That good?”  The older woman laughed, she could read her sister like a book.  “I probably should have warned you about the way she is on the dance floor.”  She knew what Evan looked like when she was turned on, she knew what she looked like when she liked someone.

 “I probably wouldn’t have listened.” Evan replied, leaning against the wall and looking at her sister once more. She had never been able to hide anything from Henri and she was sure that this wasn't any different. But it was still hard to admit and it didn't stop the guilt from eating away at her. “I stopped…before it went too far but…” She groaned and closed her eyes.

 Henri smirked again observing her little sister.  “You like her.”  She was amused.  It was a statement not a question. She knew her own reality meant she could no longer have either of them so she didn’t have a negative thought about the two of them getting close.  “I don’t blame you. She’s beautiful.  And so are you.”  She didn’t mean just physically.

 Evan flinched at Henri's words about her liking Meredith and she let out a slow breath. She did like her and if she wasn't Henri's widow, she honestly would have made more of a move. But she was and it just wasn't right for her to take advantage of the blonde. “It...me liking her doesn’t matter.” Evan replied, biting down on her bottom lip.

 “Sure it does…”. She pushed off the banister and walked closer to Evan.  “What’s more is… she likes you.” The woman got closer and spoke against her ear.  “You make her happy and…. I want her happy. So…. think about it.”  She smiled that smile. “Ev?”  The blonde called from the top of the steps and Henri was gone.  The younger woman bit her lower lip gently. Standing there in a huge T-shirt and boyshort panties looking far too innocent now that her dark make up had been cleaned from her pretty face.

 She swallowed harshly at Henri's words, having a difficult time understanding why the woman would tell her to go for something like this. Her heart lurched at the sight of the blonde at the top of the stairs and she offered a slight smile. “Coming.” She murmured, pushing off of the wall. She walked upstairs, turning off some lights and then moved to squeeze Meredith's hand. She led her to the bedroom and grabbed her PJs before making her way to the bathroom to brush her teeth and change.

 Seeing that smile made her heart warm.  The blonde waited there until Evan came and took her hand to lead her into the bedroom.  She crawled into bed under the covers but didn’t lay down… she had to wait for the brunette or she knew she wouldn’t fall asleep.  There were so many feelings, so many emotions swarming in her heart and mind but she couldn’t make sense of them right now.

 After she was ready for bed, the brunette made her way into the bedroom, closing the light and then moving to her spot on the bed. She curled under the blankets and turned onto her side as she usually did, letting out a soft breath. There was lots going on in her head, especially with Henri telling her to think about the fact that they both liked one another. Her eyes scanned over Meredith’s face and she curled into herself and the blankets a bit more.

 As Evan settled so did Meredith.  She finally laid down and snuggled up under the covers.  She turned towards Evan and watched the older woman observing her. Her freckled nose scrunched a little.  “Hmm?”  She wondered what was going on in that pretty head.

 Evan shook her head slightly and offered her a bit of a smile. “Nothing.” Of course that wasn’t true, but she couldn’t really say what she was thinking and so she needed to shrug it off. “I think I’m going to sleep well tonight.” The brunette said with a slight chuckle. She hadn’t gone out in a long while and she could feel it catching up with her.

 In her tipsy and sleepy state she wasn’t about to argue or question that reply even if she felt it wasn’t the honest answer.  Mere brushed her nose with Evan’s and then turned over to her other side. Reaching back behind her she found the woman’s hand and pulled her arm around her body, drawing her close so that she could be the little spoon in Evan’s arms.  She cuddled back against her with a soft hum.

 She felt her heart skip a beat as a nose brushed against her own and she let out a soft breath before watching as Meredith turned away from her. Her eyebrows furrowed in confusion, wondering what she had done wrong until Meredith's motives became clear. She held her close and pressed a kiss to her shoulder before relaxing into the pillow. “Sleep well, Meredith.”

 She was already half way to dreamland when Evan spoke.  She hummed.  “G’night, Evan…. I liked being yours tonight.”  She murmured before drifting off.

It had been Evan’s idea.  Ever since their discussion about adopting a dog it just kept coming up in conversation and then the Hughes woman surprised her by taking them to the SPCA.  The smile on her face when she realized where they were could have lit up an entire room. She felt like a kid on Christmas morning as they walked through the rows of dogs looking for their forever home. It was odd, normally she was so drawn to larger dogs but they seemed to keep coming back to this one cage with a French bulldog mix in it. They were walking down another row when Meredith took Evan’s hand.  She laced their fingers and tugged her back in the direction of Harold.  “He’s so… cute.  He just looks like a snuggler.”

 In the days after speaking to Meredith about her wanting to adopt a dog, Evan couldn't help but think that now was the perfect time. Before Evan headed back to Chicago. That way, Meredith had someone to help ease the dog into their new home and then had company once Evan made her way back to Chicago. The brunette loved the smile that formed on Meredith's face when she realized where they were. She enjoyed walking through the area looking at all of the animals, noting the one that Meredith seemed smitten by. “But he's so small…” She commented, but she couldn't argue with the look on her face. She squeezed Meredith's hand, her thumb brushing over her knuckles as she called the employee over. “Could we spend a bit of time with Harold here please?”

 “Yes, well, some of the best things come in small packages.”  Henri used to tell her that Right after she’d tease her for being shorter. When Evan called over the employee she squeezed her hand in return, that smile was back and she simply beamed.  Those bright blue eyes were focused on the pudgy little frenchy.  As they opened the kennel she gave one more squeeze to Evan’s hand before pulling away to kneel down. Harold waddled over and immediately nuzzled into her hand.

 As Meredith moved away, Evan stood back to watch the interaction. And just a few moments into it, she knew that they would be taking him. She was so confident that she left the room with one of the employees to fill out the information that she could and pay the money necessary. She would wait for Meredith to choose out the other items however. Once she had filled out everything she could, she returned to the kennel and kneeled down herself.

 When Evan went away she played with Harold for awhile.  He knew how to fetch and to give his paw and to sit and lay down, he was a good boy and she was already in love. By the time brunette came back Harold was in Mere’s lap happily accepting all the love the blonde was giving him.  As she knelt down the dog wiggles out of Meredith’s lap to waddle over toEcan and head butt her hand for pets.  “He’s perfect and I love him.”

 The brunette smiled and pet the dog comfortably when he asked for them. He was pretty cute...for a small dog. And he seemed to be loving and kind which was really the most important thing. Hearing Meredith's words, she looked up and nodded her head. “I know. I could tell. That's why he’s yours as soon as you sign your name and pick out some essentials for him.” Evan explained, scratching Harold behind the ears.

 It took her a moment to process that but once she did her eyes widened and her smile grew.  Careful of her new canine companion she launched herself at Evan and hugged her tight.  “You’re the best, you know that?”  When she pulled back from the hug she scooped Harold up into her arms.  “Thank you so so much,” she hadn’t been this happy in so long.  Snuggling him close she got up with him.  “Where do I need to sign? What do we have to do?”

 She wrapped her free arm around Meredith and hugged her back with a soft laugh. “I'm glad you're pleased with the decision.” She teased, standing up a second after Meredith had. “Follow me.” She led her into the other room where an employee was waiting to finish up the signatures. “So they have some collars and leashes here for us to pick from and then we'll have to go grab everything else for him.”

 Meredith signed where she needed to sign and then looked through the options.  She found a little black leather collar and matching leash and picked those out.  He’d look so handsome, she was sure of it.  “ There’s a pet store in the Trader Joe’s shopping center. I think it’s a petsmart.”  They got him settled into the car and then Mere took a seat in the passenger’s side, buckling in.

 She nodded her head, happy to go wherever it was that Meredith seemed necessary. She thanked the employees and then walked out to the car, getting into the driver's seat. She waited until everyone was settled and then drove off to the Trader Joe's. She parked fairly close to the entrance and then turned to her with a smile. “Okay...so food, bed, treats, toys, water and food bowls, brush, nail clippers, shampoo, poop bags; anything else we need?” She asked with a quirk of her eyebrows.

 “Hmmm,” she thought for a long moment. “I wanna get him a pretty silver tag with his name and our address.  But otherwise I think you seem to have the list covered.”  The blonde grinned and got out of the car to go get Harold out of the back.  She loved the way he waddled when he walked. They met up with Evan to head inside.

 “Name tag it is. We should try and figure that out first. Maybe they can have it done by the time we finish our shopping.” Evan suggested, making her way towards the store as Meredith walked beside her, holding onto Harold's leash. She definitely had no regrets about this idea. She was sure that having Harold around would help Meredith so much.

 “That sounds like the perfect plan.” They found their way inside and over to the counter. She told the lady exactly what she wanted- a silver circle with the name and address.  The woman promised it would be ready by the time they made it back to the front.  First stop was to look at beds. She pulled down the three that looked most comfortable and let Harold choose. The dog looked at all three and then headed to a grey plush looking bed.  “Good choice.”

 She chuckled softly at Harold choosing the grey bed. “This dog is just perfect for you, isn't he?” She grabbed the bed and placed it in the cart before they moved onto their next item. Evan was happy to simply walk around and push the cart. After all, Harold was Meredith's and so it was her decision. Not that Evan wasn't looking forward to having some company while Meredith was at work.

 “He is.”  She beamed.  For the most part that’s how their shopping trip went. Meredith would give him options and let him choose. He chose the nature’s choice food, the bacon flavored biscuits, the shiny silver dog bowls, the plush Dino toy and the small tennis balls.  The rest of the items she picked out with Evan’s help until they had a full cart.

 Once the cart was filled with everything they needed, they made their way to the front where they were given the tag for Harold's collar. They soon paid for everything and then made their way back out to the car. “Do you want to just get some takeout for dinner? Make it nice and easy tonight?” Evan questioned as she placed the items in the trunk of the car.

 “Sounds perfect. What are you in the mood for? The best take out around here is Chinese and Indian… although the pizza is pretty good too.”  She helped get Harold settled into the back of the car in his new bed and put the little silver tag on his collar.  “You look so handsome.” She smiled and scratched his head a little before going to the front of the car to buckle in.

 “Let's go for some Chinese. It’s been a while since I've had that.” Evan commented with a nod. Rather than having to wait so long, Evan called the restaurant and ordered before she drove off. That way it would minimize the amount of time that they would be sitting and waiting for their meal. Once that had been completed, Evan started the car back up and began the drive to the restaurant.

 Meredith made sure to put in her two cents about orange chicken and sticky rice.  They made their way to pick up the food and then made the trek home.  The blonde brought Harold, his bed and one of the bags inside.  He was a curious little creature and looked around, finally finding himself a comfy spot on the couch, funny enough right beside Henri who gave a scratch to his head.

 Evan made her way into the house and to the dining room table, setting the other food down before checking in on Harold. Once she saw where he was, she made her way back to the kitchen to pull the food out of the bags. “I'm so hungry.” Evan mused with a smile before taking a seat. “So what's the plan for him sleeping tonight?”

 Meredith saw he had settled and after she was done setting up her stuff she joined Evan at the table.  She made herself a small plate, the smell of the orange chicken making her stomach grumble.  “I was thinking we could bring his bed upstairs and set it beside the bed.”  The bed was too tall for him to jump up on to.

 Evan nodded her head in agreement and smiled. “That sounds like a plan. Wouldn't want him to be all alone after having a new home.” She mused, making up her plate and then taking a small bite of the food. “Mmm, so good.” The brunette glanced over at Meredith and bit down on her bottom lip. “I think he's a good addition.”

 “Exactly.” She smiled across the table and popped a piece of orange chicken into her mouth.  Henri had lulled Harold into a slumber over on the couch and he looked perfectly content.  The older woman was happy her sister had thought of this, Mere needed a companion.  The blonde gave a nod and glanced over at him before looking back to Evan.  “I think so too.  He’s perfect.”

 “He's alright. For a small dog.” She teased, winking at the blonde. She took another few bites of food. “So for Thanksgiving...I had an idea. It's nerdy and you can totally tell me it's dumb but...yeah.” Evan said with a slight smile, head tilting to the side.

 “Don’t let him hear you say that,” she teased right back.  Henri was highly amused by the conversation and by the fact that there was a dog on her couch who could clearly see her.  Mere continued eating, “hmm?”  She hummed and swallowed another bite of food.  “I’m sure it’s not dumb.”

 “He and I are pals, it's all good.” She winked playfully. “I was thinking since it'll just be the two of us, maybe we could get a puzzle to do. It's kinda something we can do all day in between cooking and watching movies or whatever.” Evan suggested with a slight shrug and a smile.

 She considered this while they ate.  “Sounds like it could be fun definitely not dumb…”. Mere took a long moment before speaking up again. “… before you leave will you go with me to get a tree?  Please?”  Blue eyes were hopeful.  “I just don’t wanna do it alone…”

 “Cool then…I look forward to it.” She glanced up when Meredith began to speak again, tilting her head to the side and bit down on her bottom lip. “Of course, Mere. I will definitely go with you. That's no problem at all.” Evan said, reaching over to squeeze her hand gently. “I haven't gone tree shopping in a while. I think it'll be good.”

 “How many pieces is this puzzle gonna be?”  She rose a brow but smiled.  When Evan agreed she felt a weight lift off her shoulders.  A brighter smile pulled at pink lips.  “Thank you , promise I won’t take forever finding one.”  Henri chuckled from the couch.  “She says that now but you’re going to be there at least an hour-dress warm.”

 Evan paused thoughtfully but then simply shrugged. “I'm unsure right now. Lots.” Evan finished off her food and then listened to Meredith and Henri's comments. “Mm. You told me about Henri needing to carry you out...I'm not going to hold my breath about it just yet.” She said with a soft laugh.

 Mere gave a little huff at the retort.  She finished off the last of the small plate she’d made herself and then went about packing things up and clearing the table to do dishes.   “I doubt you’d try to carry me out.”  She smirked a little as she washed a plate.

 She quirked an eyebrow and stood up from the table, moving to stand beside Meredith. “Oh no? Don't think I could? Hmm?” Evan questioned, crossing her arms over her chest and allowing her eyes to scan over Meredith's now familiar face. It was a face she was waking up to every morning and falling asleep to every night.

 Meredith side glanced the woman as she continued to wash the dishes. That freckles face held amusement as she bit into her lower lip. She gave a small shrug. “I mean you look strong enough I just don’t think you would.”

 “No? Why wouldn't I then? What gives you that impression?” She questioned, resting her back against the counter with a curious expression. She wasn't upset by the assumption, just interested to see what her reasoning might be.

 The blonde shrugged again.  “Just a feeling.”  She reached around her for the dish towel to dry off a few things before putting them in their rightful place.  “I feel like you have more patience than Henri did.”  The older woman snorted.  “I mean, she’s not entirely wrong.”

 Evan hummed and then simply nodded her head slightly. “I supposed I can’t argue with that.” She said with a slight smile and a shrug. “I'm going to go for a shower...is there anything that you need help with at all?” She questioned, tapping her fingers lightly.

 The younger woman smiled.  She had no doubt that Evan could throw her over her shoulder, or carry her- she and Henri had very similar builds. Both women were taller than her and physically stronger.  She shook her head at the question.  “Nope. Just gonna finish up here then bring Harold up with me.  Need to get into pjs and stuff.”

 “Alright. Sounds good.” She moved to walk out before turning back. “Make sure you take the pup out.” Evan said with a slight smile and a wink. Of course she trusted Meredith enough, and knew she was smart enough to know to bring the dog outside. “See you in a bit.” She headed upstairs, taking her time with the shower as she listened to music. Eventually, she made her way into the bedroom now changed into her pajamas.

 Mere took Harold out to do his business and then grabbed up his bed and his plush Dino and led him upstairs.  He was already asleep in his bed by the time Meredith made her way back into Evan’s room.  She wore an outfit much like last night, huge worn T-shirt and flannel sleep shorts.  Crawling into bed beside Evan she gave a small smile.  “I think he knows he’s home”

 Evan learned down to pet the dog for a few moments, pleased that he seemed so comfortable in the house already. She eased herself under the covers and smiled as Meredith made her way into the room. “I think he does.” She agreed, turning onto her side with a hum. It was still a bit early, but Evan was happy to lay in bed and simply snuggle for a bit. The comfort that she felt was a little worrying to her, but she was trying not to focus on it.

 Meredith liked their routine, she was finding comfort in having one even if it was simple.  “It was funny watching him waddle up the steps.” She cuddled into the blankets turning to face the brunette.  “Thank you for today.  It meant a lot to me.”  

 Evan laughed softly. “I look forward to seeing it myself. And I'm excited to have a buddy when you go to work.” She mused, her arm finding its way around her waist without much thought. She knew she needed to put some distance between them, but figured that her heading back to Chicago would accomplish that. For now, she was content. “Of course. I'm glad it went well.”

 “I’m not sure he’ll be able to do it himself all the time. I might have to carry him.”  As that arm went around her waist she cuddled in a little bit closer.  They were getting extremely close but it felt natural and necessary… it was comfortable and as usual it made her feel safe, it wasn’t something she was looking forward to giving up.

 “Well, I'll keep an eye on that.” Evan said, her hand gently trailing up and down the blonde's back. “Don't want the little man getting hurt. Especially when it's avoidable.” Evan mused, snuggling a bit further under the blankets and smiling softly. “Do you think having Harold around will help you sleep when I'm in Chicago?”

 The blonde bit into her lower lip at the question not really liking to think about the day that she’d once again be alone in those huge house.  The hand caressing her back helped her to relax a bit.  “I dunno.  My guess is once you’re gone he’ll end up in bed with me. And then you’ll have to fight him for your spot when you come home for Christmas.”

 Evan gasped at her words, shaking her head. “I can't believe that you're going to make me fight for my spot. Don't you enjoy my cuddles?” Evan pouted playfully and then pressed their foreheads together for a moment. “If you ever need to, call me, okay? I definitely won't mind staying on the phone with you.”

 “I love your cuddles.”  Meredith laughed a little.  “I wouldn’t, he’ll just get so used to snuggling up with me that he won’t wanna give it up.”  When that forehead rested against her own she closed her eyes for a moment.  “Expect a nightly phone call then.”  Lips tugged into a small smile. “And a slew of texts and goofy photos.”  She let out a small shaky breath.  “It’ll be hard here without you.”  She admitted.

 She couldn't deny the flip of her stomach when Meredith said she loved the cuddles, even if she tried to ignore it to the best of her ability. “Well, we will just have to figure something out that works for all three of us.” Evan mused, believing that they would be able to come to some sort of compromise. “That's okay by me, Mere. Honestly. I'm happy to be on the other end when you need or want me to be.” At her admission, she let out a soft breath. “I know. But...I'll do what I can to make it as easy as possible okay? Promise.”

 The younger woman only clung a little tighter to Evan, the thought of letting her go right now was simply too hard to handle.  She went quiet for awhile and simply gave a small nod.  “What’s your favorite song?” She eventually murmured, changing the subject so as not to be sad right before bed.

 She pressed a kiss to Meredith's forehead as she tightened her grip. Her hand gently rubbed along her back and she did her best to comfort her. “My favorite song is either Who Do You Love by Marianas Trench or The Call by Regina Spektor. Yours?”

The blonde melted a little into the hold.   “I think it changes every day. Right now I love listening to Sara Bareilles.  My favorite song of hers is Gravity.  She just did a recording for the Hamilton remix cd of the Theodosia Reprise. It’s pretty amazing.  Henri took me to see Hamilton in New York one year for my birthday.”  She smiled a little at the memory.

 “She is pretty great. Good choice there.” She said with a smile. “That's pretty cool. It’s nice that you were able to go to the show.” Evan mused softly, breathing out slowly and allowing her fingers to continue brushing over her back. “When uh..when is your birthday?”

 Evan’s touch was almost healing in a way and Meredith let herself enjoy the comfort.  “Hmm? Oh… Uhm November 1st.  I just turned 27.  Yours is May 2nd, right?”  She knew because Henri always used to light a candle for Evan that night and Meredith always baked cupcakes.

 She hummed thoughtfully. “Sorry I just missed it then.” Evan said as her eyebrows furrowed. She wished she would have known. Not that at that point she ever thought about Meredith. “Well...happy belated birthday.” She offered with a slight chuckle. “Yeah, that's the day.” She confirmed with a nod.

 A warm smile touched her lips.  “Thank you.”  The blonde hadn’t been well on her birthday this year. No one even remembered really and she spent the day at work and then at home numbly going through the motions of life.  “I make cupcakes every May 2nd and Henri would light a candle, that’s how I remember.”

 Her heart felt a little more full at Meredith's words and she smiled softly. “Cupcakes are amazing.” Evan mused, thumb brushing circles along her back. “It’s nice to hear all of the little things that Henri did.” The brunette expressed, feeling some longing well within her.

 “I make pretty amazing cupcakes.”  The way that thumb traced over her back had tingles dancing along her spine.  The blonde gave a small hum at the comment.  “She was just as stubborn as you but she was stubborn in her own way.  It’s why your room never changed.  We’d always hang your stocking on the mantle for Christmas. She got you a gift every year. I still have them stored away in the closet. I’ll put them under the tree this year.”

 “I look forward to trying one of your cupcakes.” Her bottom lip trembled, but she forced herself not to cry at the notion, closing her eyes and taking a few deep breath. She had missed out on so much, holding onto her fear and anger and pain. And she was so upset with herself. And the issue was that there was nothing she could do now to change anything. She wished there was, but there wasn’t.

 She noticed the way Evan reacted and hugged their bodies a little closer.  “I also bake amazing pies.”  She murmured, changing the subject.  “Tell me your favorite kind and it will go on the thanksgiving menu.”  Henri had been so stubborn that there were now six gifts tucked away waiting for Evan.  Mere had always thought it was sweet.

 “Amazing pie, huh?I'm in for a treat then. Cherry is my favorite kind of pie.” She expressed with a smile, feeling the wave of sadness pass over her. It would take a while for her to stop feeling sad over the smallest things but she knew it was natural. “What's your favorite pie?”

 “I can definitely do cherry. That used to be my brother’s favorite.”  She and her brothers were very much estranged but that wasn’t her choice, that was on them.  “I love Dutch Apple and Peach Crumb.  But they definitely need to be served with a scoop of vanilla bean ice cream.  It’s just how it has to be done.”

 She smiled at her words and nodded her head. “Just means we're going to have lots of delicious pie. And I am more than okay with that.” Evan said, adjusting her position to get a bit more comfortable before settling down once more. “I think we will have a good Thanksgiving. I'll do my best to make it good for you.”

 “For us.”  She corrected gently.  “I want it to be just as good for you.”  A day of cooking and puzzling with Evan just sounded like an amazing day even if it would be missing Henri.  She shifted along with the brunette and they resettled, one of her legs easily tangling with the older woman’s.

 She hummed softly and nodded her head. “For us absolutely.” She replied, kissing Meredith's forehead. As a leg tangled with her own, she let out a soft breath and gently gripped the woman's shirt. She felt way too comfortable with Meredith but she wasn't going to fight it right now.

 The kiss to her forehead had her cheeks flushing a little but thankfully her face wasn’t in Evan’s direct line of sight at the moment.  “I’m not gonna wanna go to school tomorrow with you and Harold here. I’m gonna wanna play hookie but technically I’m not allowed cause it’s the day before a break.”  

 Evan smiled softly and lifted her hand to play with her hair. “One day. And then you'll get all of the Harold snuggles. I think it'll be good for me to get a day with him so I'm not a complete stranger since I'll be leaving for a month. Gotta have him like me when I get back.” She said with a playful wink. “It'll be good. And I'll text you to try and make the day go by quickly.”

 The blonde leaned into the touch so easily but then gave a soft whine.  “One day too long.”  She poured some but then let a small sigh leave her lips.  “You do need bonding time…. I guess as long as you promise to text me it won’t be all that bad.”  She still sounded pouty though.

 Evan chuckled softly, fingers still carding through blonde locks. “I definitely promise to text you.” She paused, humming. “Darn you're adorable though.” Evan cleared her throat after she spoke, attempting to brush it off. “I'll probably take Harold for a walk tomorrow.”

 She’d closed her eyes to simply enjoy the way those fingers felt in her hair.  “Can’t wait to be thoroughly distracted.”  She smirked a little but it warmed to a shy smile at the woman’s words, her cheeks flushing again.  “Nuh-uh.” The blonde tried to argue but Evan was already changing the subject. “Hmm I’m sure he’ll like that.”

 “I'm pretty distracting so hopefully you're able to get your work done.” Evan teased gently, letting out a soft yawn. “I hope that he will. If not...at least it’s good for him.” She mused with a shrug, twisting to glance at the sleeping dog. It was great that he already seemed so comfortable. She had been a bit worried about how the night would go.

 “Lucky for you I wanna be distracted.”  She teased back.  Pouting a little again the blonde nuzzled into her.  “You’re lucky you get to watch him waddle all day.”  The thought of going to school tomorrow was kind of awful.

 She chuckled softly. “That's true. At least I have permission to be distracting you. It would be a shame if you weren't a fan of it.” She rested her chin on top of Meredith's head as she snuggled up to her, rubbing her back once more. “Sorry, Mere.”

 “But you’ll both be here when I get home and we can get in all the snuggles and shop for Thanksgiving and it’ll all be good.”  The more she spoke the more mumbled it sounded, she was getting sleepy.

 “We will definitely be here when you get back.” She agreed with a smile, rubbing her back slowly. “Get some sleep. Goodnight, Mere.” She murmured softly, once again slipping into the routine of waiting for Meredith to actually be asleep before she closed her eyes herself; a goodnight whispered to Henri as usual.

Once Evan managed to fall asleep, she slept very well despite the fact that someone else was sleeping in her bed with her. However, thanks to her inner clock, she was unable to sleep in and her eyes blinked open in the sunlight. Her eyebrows furrowed at the body wrapped around her and she cleared her throat, glancing at the time. She knew Meredith had work, but it also seemed like she was finally getting the sleep she needed. Sighing softly, she brushed fingers through blonde hair and pulled back a bit. “M-Meredith?”

 Meredith leaned into the touch of fingers threaded through her hair.  Hearing her name her eyes slowly blinked open and bright blue came face to face with Evan’s gaze. It took her a minute to process where she was, who she was with and the position they were in but when it all dawned on her those freckles cheeks flush and she carefully extracted herself.  “Sorry…” She murmured sheepishly. Looking at the time over Evan’s body she groaned. “I should Uhm… probably shower and head out.”

 “It’s okay.” She promised, moving back a bit as Meredith worked to untangle their limbs. She nodded her head slightly when Meredith said that she had to get ready for work and she sat up. “I figured as much. Didn’t uh want you to be late or anything.” Evan started, rubbing her face. She had no idea what she was going to do that day. It had been a long time since she hadn't had some form of work to do on a weekday. Even on weekends, Evan was usually doing something work related. She slipped out of bed herself, figuring she could make some breakfast and shower once Meredith was gone.

 “Thanks.” She replied, getting up from the bed and heading for the door. Pausing in the doorway she turned back to Evan. “And thank you… for last night.”  A small smile tugged at her lips before she finally stepped out of the room and made her way next door to shut off her alarm and start getting ready.  Henri stepped into the room as her wife stepped out. “Looks like you both got some much needed sleep.”

 She nodded her head slightly when Meredith thanked her, returning the smile. “You're welcome.” She replied, jumping slightly at her sister's voice. She looked over and then bit down on her bottom lip with a slight nod. “Yeah, guess you were right about what would help.” Evan mused slightly, stretching slightly and looking around her bedroom. “I'm glad she got some sleep.”

 “She needs more but that’s definitely a start.”  Henri leaned up against the desk and observed her sister for a long moment. “I knew she’d sleep through the night but I’ll admit, I’m surprised that you did.”  It was almost amusing.  She sighed some.  “I wish she’d take some time off work… I should be thankful the school goes on break soon for the holiday I suppose.”

 “I'm surprised I slept too.” Evan admitted, chalking it up to the fact that she had spent lots of times snuggled up with someone in this bed. She was sure it would have been different had she been back in Chicago and trying to sleep with someone else in her bed. “Yeah...here's hoping that she continues to get some sleep.”

 “I’m sure you’ll make certain that happens while you’re here.”  It wasn’t a question more of a hopeful statement.  She took a look at one of the photos of them, Evan was smiling and Henri was kissing her cheek. They’d been very much in love and those feelings never did go away. It was odd when she fell just as hard for the blonde. Loving two people at once was almost cruel but at least Meredith understood.  “I’m not sure I’ve said it but… I’m really happy you’re home, Ev.”

 She nodded her head slightly in response. Now that she knew for sure that she could do something to help Meredith, she would assist whenever allowed. Especially because she now knew she could sleep through as well. At Henri's words, she looked down and picked at a loose string in her sleep pants, feeling tears well in her eyes again.

  Seeing the emotions well up inside her younger sister she struggled to keep it together.  Thinking quickly she adjusted herself on the bed and put a pillow in her lap patting it. “C’mere.” She murmured, that sea hued gaze fixated on the younger one.  

 Her eyebrows furrowed slightly at the suggestion and breathed out slowly before moving to lay her head on the pillow, gripping at the pillow cover. The tears began to slip from her eyes and down her cheeks, feeling the pressure build up in her chest. Her bottom lip trembled and a sob broke through as she let herself really feel the loss. The first night she had felt the sadness but had also felt shock and confusion and the days after she had been more focused on Meredith and getting used to being back in Maine. Now though, the sadness felt overwhelming.

 Hearing Evan cry broke her. Her jaw clenched to keep her own emotions at bay.  Reaching out, her hand hovered over her body and she moved it slowly along the curves until she reached the blanket. Pulling up the blanket over her she carefully ran her hand up and down, soothing along those same curves but thankfully she was able to have a barrier between them to keep their connection safe for now.  “I love you.” She said softly.  “Never stopped.”

 Feeling Henri's hand rubbing over her side through the blanket, she gripped the pillow more tightly and sniffled. “I l-love you too.” Evan managed to say, despite the tears and sobs that were still coming from her. Her heart was aching more than she could express and she chewed on her bottom lip, trying to stop her tears. “I...I'm s-sorry I was so selfish.”

 Henri felt her lips tug into a sad smile. She shook her head as she continued to run her hand over her in a soothing motion. “Shh… not selfish.  You were heartbroken.  There’s a difference.” She thought for a moment.  “I never meant to hurt you the way I did, Ev.” She sat there awhile just caressing the other girl as she cried.  There was a knock at the semi opened  door and suddenly Henri was gone.  When the blonde popped her head in she looked like the polished professional she was. She was the type of professor most students probably fantasized about. Noticing the tears streaming down her face she went over to the bed and sat down tucking a few strands behind the woman’s ear, thumbs wiping them away. She cupped her face gently.  “Do you need me to stay home today?” She asked softly.

 Hearing that Henri had never meant to hurt her so badly caused another sob to be pulled from Evan's lips. Evan had fought so hard the night that Henri had broken them up, but it hadn't been enough and she hadn't known how to deal with the pain. Running away may not have been the best choice but it had felt like the only option at that time. “I j-just...I felt like I had no-nothing, Hen. I couldn't st-stay.” She froze as when she heard the knock and she tried to quickly wipe away her tears, but she wasn't fast enough. Evan let out a deep breath at the question, leaning her cheek into the touch just slightly. “No...you...I'll be okay. You shouldn't miss because of me.” Evan paused, remembering that Henri was wishing for Meredith to take some time off and realized she had missed a chance to get her to stay home. But she also didn't want to manipulate her.

 Meredith studied her features carefully, noting how the woman leaned into her touch. After a long moment she gave a small nod. “Okay but… if you need to please get in touch?” Blue gaze was pleading. “Actually… I’ll text you anyway. I get bored between classes.” A gentle smile pulled at pink lips.  Without even thinking she wrapped her arms around the brunette and hugged her close.

 Evan let out a watery chuckle and she smiled. “I'll look forward to your texts. I'm sure I'll end up bored pretty quickly today.” Evan mused, with a nod. She let out a soft breath as arms wrapped around her before she slowly returned the hug. It had been a long time since she had hugged anyone. “Um, you probably don't have time for breakfast now huh?”

 “Good.  Cause you’ll get lots of them.  The fact that the older woman hugged her back had Meredith settling in her arms.  When she heard the question she smiled and pulled back. “I probably have time for a bagel or fruit and some coffee.” She replied. The thought of food was still a difficult one but the more Evan tried to feed her the easier it started to get.  She glanced down at her watch giving a nod.  “Meet me downstairs?”

 Evan nodded at her words and watched her leave the room before she slipped out of bed. She grabbed the clothes she was going to wear that day and set them on her bed to put on after her shower and then slipped on her robe. She then made her way downstairs and into the kitchen, having composed herself a little bit more. “What time do you finish work again?”

 Meredith was busy making breakfast. Each plate had half a toasted bagel and a little cup of fruit salad. She buttered the pieces on either plate and then went to fill two mugs with steaming hot coffee fixing it the way she now knew Evan liked it.  Bringing things to the breakfast bar she gave the woman a small smile. “Three because I typically stick around to give office hour help for students.”

 She nodded her head in understanding as she took a seat and offered her a smile. “Alright, sounds good. I think I might head to the gym for a few hours just to give myself something to do.” She mused, more than happy with her decision to rent a vehicle. “Thank you for breakfast by the way. I appreciate it a lot. Do you want anything specific for dinner?”

 Meredith sat down on the stool beside her and took a small bite of her bagel.  “That sounds like a good plan. And don’t mention it. I like making breakfast.”  She took another small bite and hummed as she sipped the black coffee.  She thought for a moment before shaking her head a little. “Nope. Surprise me.”

 Evan settled in to eat, humming at the taste. It was such a simple breakfast but oh so good. Sometimes the simplest of meals were the best. “Alrighty, I'll figure something out.” She paused for a moment and glanced over at the blonde. “Do you happen to have plans for Thanksgiving?” Evan questioned, biting down on her bottom lip. She knew that the thought of holidays probably wasn't fun, but she wanted to know if she needed to get out if Meredith was having company over.

 The blonde had taken a few bites of fruit which was somehow easier to eat than the bagel. She glanced over at the other woman and crossed one toned thigh over the other beneath that pencil skirt. Meredith gave a small shake to her head.  “My family disowned me when I married Henri.  They’re hardcore republicans.”  She gave a little shrug. “Are you gonna stay?”

 A puff of air was pulled from Evan's lungs at Meredith's words and she shook her head in disgust. How did people still not understand that love was love? It was ridiculous. “Mm, you deserved better than that.” Evan stated firmly, taking a bite of the bagel. She swallowed her bite and then tilted her head. “I was thinking I would stay until then. Then probably head back to do some ‘adulting’ as the youth say.” She teased lightly. “Then..come back for Christmas maybe if you're okay with that.”

 Funny enough that was exactly what Henri had said followed by a comment on how it was a miracle that they could have created the most accepting human being she’d ever met.  Meredith smiled a little bit, happy to hear that she’d be staying. “I’d uhm… I’d really like that.” She nodded.  “I really don’t want to do the holidays alone so.. that would really mean a lot to me. Just having you here at all means more to me than you know.”  She admitted before stomaching another bite of bagel.

 She smiled in return, glad that her presence seemed to be a good thing for the other woman. The fact that they hadn't known one another before Henri had died was a shame, and them meeting was definitely the only good thing to come out of it. Though she wasn't sure if either of them would consider it worth it. “It’s nice getting to spend time with you. And hey, if you ever feel like visiting Chicago…” Evan said with a cheeky grin before sipping at her coffee.

 Her heart warmed a little at the admission and she nodded in agreement. “I’m glad I’m getting the chance to know you.”  She felt her cheeks flush seeing that cheeky grin and smiled a little more.  “Maybe we do Christmas here and New Years in Chicago- I get an insanely long break in the winter.”  She took a long sip of coffee and then finished off her fruit, leaving a bite of bagel.  “I need to head out.”  She leaned over and kissed her cheek out of habit before bringing her plate and mug in the sink.  “See you this afternoon.”

 “I think that sounds awesome.” She agreed with a smile and a nod. It was weird, but nice to have a plan set up for the holidays. It had been a long time since she had had anything beyond any work functions. She nodded her head when Meredith said that she needed to go, flushing at the kiss to her cheek. “Have a good day. See you later.” Evan finished her own breakfast after she had left and then did the dishes quickly. Instead of going for a shower, she made her way straight to the gym.

 Eventually the day wore on and she was bored out of her mind during her free period.  She pulled out her cell phone and pulled up her texts.

Meredith: So bored.

 The gym was pretty empty, allowing Evan free reign of virtually anything she wanted to do.  However, after a few hours, her muscles were tired and achy and she decided to drive back. When she got there, she made her way up to her room, stripping the sweaty clothes from her body and tossing them in the hamper. Glancing down at her phone as it went off, she chuckled.

Evan: Just got back from the gym. Kept me busy for a while. How're the students?

 Mere smiled down at the text she got back.

Meredith: Surprisingly competent today. How was the gym?

 She made her way to the bathroom, turning on some music.

Evan: It was good. Hardly anyone there. Too sweaty right now though.

 The blonde held her breath as she heard Nick pass by in the hall talking with another colleague, she’d been skillfully avoiding him all day.

Meredith: Sounds like you were productive.

 She smiled at the phone before turning on the water, replying just before she stepped into the shower.

Evan: As productive as one can be when they actually have nothing that needs to be done.

 Mere looked at the time and sighed.

Meredith: This day isn’t going fast enough.

 The text was left unreplied to for about twenty minutes as Evan showered. Stepping out of the shower, she wrapped her hair and body in towels and then grabbed her phone.

Evan: If I had the power to fast forward time I would. But I was thinking we should go do something fun this weekend.

 Meredith ended up talking to a student for awhile so her reply came about ten minutes after Evan’s.

Meredith: ….what do you consider fun?

 During the ten minutes, she had made her way to her room and changed into a pair of black jeans and a red plaid shirt. She then brushed through her curls, letting them dry naturally.

Evan: I don’t know! I haven't actually gone out and done anything with anyone in years. We could go bowling or play pool or like anything.

 Mere ducked into the Hall from her classroom as she saw Nick going into her office.  Once in the safety of the library she smirked at the text.

Meredith: Can you dance?

 She moved to drop down on the couch, turning on the TV and putting it on a rerun of Friends.

Evan: I can.

 The blonde found a secluded corner and took a seat, nicely hidden from view.

Meredith: Lucky strikes is an ‘adult’ bowling alley that also has a dance club.

Meredith: Adult because they sell alcohol not adult like inappropriate.

Meredith: omg…. forget I said anything.

 Evan laughed at the at the texts she received, shaking her head slightly. She could almost visualize the flush on her cheeks.

Evan: Adult bowling sounds like a great time. ;)

 Mere was so red and had literally face palmed.

Meredith: :| You’re laughing.

 Evan snorted, curling up with a hum.

Evan: I totally am.

 The reply only made her cheeks darken in shade and she bit down into her lower lip.

Meredith: Rude.

Meredith: I feel like a high schooler hiding away in the library and texting when there’s a sign that clearly says no mobile devices allowed. And I’m really trying not to draw attention to myself.

 Evan chuckled and shook her head in amusement.

Evan: Meredith Hughes! You rule breaker.

 And of course Evan would tease her just as much as Henri always had.

Meredith: I’m a teacher! I do what I want!

 She snorted and shook her head slightly. What a doofus.

Evan: Mm, okay, there.

Evan: It's alright. I'm a bit of a rule breaker myself.

 The blonde kept glancing up, checking to make sure that Nick hadn’t come into the library.

Meredith: I usually follow rules :P

 Evan quirked an eyebrow and hummed thoughtfully.

Evan: That's good to know. I may have to just randomly put a rule in place.

 Mere felt her cheeks flush as she read and reread that text.  She bit her lip again.  Slight deflection.

Meredith: So you like making them not following them? :P

 Evan bit down on her bottom lip, thinking over her answer.

Evan: Depends on the situation. I was pretty good at following Hen's rules. Usually. Not so good at following rules from others.

 Meredith felt her lips quirk at the reply.

Meredith: I never thought I’d say this but I miss the rules.

Meredith: They made me feel secure and I dunno it sounds stupid I guess.

 She let out a soft sigh.

Evan: It doesn't sound stupid. Not at all. You're talking to someone who lost some rules too. I get it. As much as I can get it.

Evan: I'm not going to judge you for anything you're feeling okay?

 The blonde felt a well of emotions and swallowed hard.

Meredith: I know you went through this loss long before I did.

Meredith: I want you to know I had no clue what was going on until much later. I pushed enough once you’d left and Henri told me everything. I don’t judge you either. And I’m sorry for any of the pain that may have been my fault by association.

Meredith: And thank you.  Without her literally everything fell apart. I like routine. I just feel lost. I know I’m preaching to the choir… just feels like a relief to admit it.

 Evan read the texts over a few times, biting down on her bottom lip.

Evan: It uh...might be weird to say but I was never mad at you. I know how easy it is to fall in love with her. I was just...hurt...and I don't know.

Evan: It's weird to be able to talk about it. I've never gotten to do that before.

Evan: You can always talk to me.

 The blonde bit her lip again and ran slender digits through blonde waves.

Meredith: You can talk to me about it but don’t feel like you need to. Just want you to know I accept you for who you are.

Meredith: That goes both ways.

Meredith: It’s gonna sound odd but I feel like I’ve known you far longer than I have.

 She breathed out slowly and pinched her nose, clearing her throat.

Evan: Honestly it's just...it’s nice to know that someone other than me and Henri know about it. Even if it doesn't truly matter. It just...makes it feel like it meant something.

Evan: Sorry that's...dumb.

Evan: Yeah. I understand that feeling.

 Mere cleared her throat some… she was just happy Evan was being open with her.

Meredith: Not dumb.  It matters.  The relationship was real.  I know because of what I’ve been told and what I’ve seen.  And I’ll always be here to validate you when it comes to what the two of you had.

Meredith: Nice to know I’m not alone.

 Evan felt tears welling up and she blinked them back, breathing out slowly. She was surprised she was talking about it but she supposed it was easier over text.

Evan: It's been six years and I'm still not over it and I just...I feel so fucking dumb for not being over it. Because if I could have just...six years without seeing her and now it's too late.

Evan: Definitely not alone.

 Meredith could feel the upset on the other end even if she couldn’t see the woman.

Meredith: She was never over it either if I’m being honest. She asked me sometime last year if I’d ever experienced what it was like to be in love with two people at once.  It was something I knew long before that and have always accepted.

Meredith: I’m surprised though, I can’t picture you following rules.  Even if Henri did set them.

 She had heard something similar from Henri, but it was different coming from the other woman that she had been in love with.

Evan: Thank you.

Evan: I mean I didn't always. But she was pretty persuasive.

 Meredith smiled a little at the thanks.

Meredith: Any time.

Meredith: I wanna come home.

Meredith: I think that’s the first time I’ve felt that in months.

 Evan breathed out slowly and curled up on the couch, head resting on the arm.

Evan: You'll be back soon enough.

Evan: I was thinking tacos for dinner.

 The blond glanced up only to see Nick chatting with a student on the other side of the library.  Definitely time to make an escape, she had to teach anyway.

Meredith: True.

Meredith: Tacos sound good.

Meredith: Have to go conduct an orchestra. Pray that for their sake they don’t suck today.

 She sighed a little disappointed but understood that she needed to teach.

Evan: Don’t kill any students alright? Talk to you later.

 The blonde smirked at the reply.

Meredith: I make no promises. :)

 After their conversation had finished, Evan moved to the kitchen to chop everything up so that the process for dinner later on would be much quicker. She hummed softly as she moved around the kitchen, feeling much lighter than she had.

 Orchestra went better than she initially thought it would.  One kid was on her shit list in the brass section but all things considered that was a success.  She narrowly avoided Nick and made her way home.  The second she walked in the door she dropped her bag, kicked off her heels and groaned. “I swear heels were invented to torture women.” She remarked as she made her way into the kitchen.

 Hearing the door open, Evan looked up with a smile and hummed thoughtfully. “I completely agree with you. I fucking hate heels.” Evan commented, chewing on her bottom lip. “I figured we could probably eat around six if that's okay with you? I've got everything ready to go it just needs to be cooked.” Evan stated, putting the last of everything back in the fridge before washing her hands.

 “If I don’t wear them then I’m shorter than half my student population and that’s just unacceptable.  Sacrifices are made daily.”  The blonde leaned up against the counter and watched the woman as she did her thing in the kitchen.  “Sounds good to me. Gives me time to get out of these clothes and decompress.”  The day had been a long one.

 Evan chuckled softly and nodded softly. She could definitely understand where Meredith was coming from. After washing and drying her hands, she turned to Meredith with a smile. “I was thinking of trying to find a new Netflix series to watch if you're up for it. If you want some alone time though I definitely get it.”

 “Definitely. Start browsing while I go strip out of professor mode.”  She headed for the stairs but looked over her shoulder.  “And if it’s something scary you can be sure I’ll be using you as a human shield.  Just saying.”  She shrugged with a smile and headed upstairs to get changed. Henri appeared in the doorway.  “It’s nice seeing both of you smile.”

 She chuckled, shaking her head in amusement. Human shield powers activated. Evan bit down on her bottom lip when Henri appeared and spoke, looking down for a moment; still a bit embarrassed over the breakdown that morning. “It’s nice to smile.” Evan agreed, making her way into the living room.

 Henri followed her and leaned up against the arm of the couch.  “What show are you thinking?”  She didn’t want to draw attention to the breakdown knowing her sister would be embarrassed so she didn’t bring it up.  Upstairs Meredith changed into leggings and an oversized button down flannel.  She let her hair down put on some comfy socks and gave herself a once over in the mirror.

 She dropped down onto the couch and curled up with her legs underneath her, turning Netflix on once again and shaking her head slightly. “I actually don't know.” She mused, eyebrows furrowing slightly. “Maybe we'll watch One Day at a Time. I've heard good things.” She mused with a nod of her head. She moved to it and clicked on the show, pausing it to wait for Meredith.

 The second that Meredith appeared was the moment Henri vanished from view.  The blonde dropped down onto the couch and pulled the knit blanket from the back to get cozy beneath it.  “What did you find?”  The younger woman settled easily into the plush cushions.

 “I was thinking One Day at a Time. Have you watched it?” Evan questioned, settling back to get as comfortable as she could. They could get through a few episodes and then Evan would go finish getting dinner ready. “How's it feel to be out of your work clothes?” She said with a bit of a smirk, knowing how much she loved the cool down after work.

 “Never seen it. Sounds good to me.”  It was so nice having another human being here with her, the warmth and mere presence made all the difference. She smiled at the question giving Evan a side glance.  “Like heaven.” That smirk killed her, it was the same one as Henri’s that she’d grown so fond of over the years.

 “Awesome.” She was glad she had managed to choose a new one for the both of them. “No doubt. It's always a great time of day.” She said with a nod before starting the show, setting the remote aside and getting comfortable once more. “Did you manage to keep all of your students alive?” Evan teased.

 “I have a work persona that has stayed very much intact through all of this.  It feels good right now to drop it along with the pencil skirt and heels.” She smirked some. She knew her professional attire got heads to turn but it also kept her students completely focused on her which was certainly a plus.  “One almost got killed. Being a moron doesn’t bode well, especially when you’re in my orchestra. But yes. They’re all alive.”

 “I definitely can't argue with you there. Nice work.” Evan said with a slight laugh. “Glad you followed the rules and didn't kill anyone.” She said with a laugh, eyes scanning over the television as the episode actually began. It was odd, but nice, spending so much time with a person.

 The blonde quirked a brow. “So that was a rule, was it?”  She smirked a little and tried to focus on the screen.  “Good to know.”  The show was easy to watch and the company was easy to be around. She quietly found herself wondering if Evan would be implementing other rules.

 “Mhm, it’s been decided. Killing your students is against the rules.” Evan said with a chuckle, shaking her head. “Don't disobey.” She teased, shooting a wink in the other woman's direction. After a few episodes, Evan groaned and stretched her arms above her head moving to her feet.

 Meredith felt her cheeks flush at those words coupled with that wink.  The blonde watched her get up and flipped off the television. “Dinner?”  That was the plan.  She headed to the kitchen to set the table and went about getting out the appropriate plates and utensils. Hearing the doorbell her brow furrowed.  “I’ll get it.”  Heading to the front she opened the door to find Nick there holding flowers and sporting that charming smile.  “What are you doing here, Nick?”  That didn’t deter him.  “I didn’t see you today at school.  I wanted to make sure you were alright.”  Meredith didn’t know how to reply and before she could he was speaking up again.  “Can I come in?”  The blonde shook her head. “Now’s really not a good time Nick-“

 “Mhm, dinner.” Evan said with a nod of her head before making her way to the kitchen. She walked around Meredith and went about hearing everything as she went, pleased that it wouldn't take too long to reheat everything. Evan nodded her head when Meredith said that she would get the door. After all, no one would be there for her. She moved to the door when Meredith hadn't returned, furrowing her eyes when she heard the name. “Hey, food's ready.” She interrupted. It wasn't quite right but she was trying to speed up the process.

 The blonde had tensed up and when she heard Evans voice she felt her heart jump a little and her breath catch… but she also felt relief.  “Great.”  She offered the brunette a small smile.  “Hey, I’m Nick.”  Meredith took a step back from the door.  “I Uhm… have to go finish setting the table.”  She offered her colleague a tight smile but walked past Evan knowing the other woman would make sure he found his way off their porch.  “Meredi-“ He sighed and deflated some.

 At Nick's introduction, she tilted her head to the side and offered him a single nod. “Evan.” She stepped up beside the blonde and brushed her arm against hers, offering some support before she moved back to the kitchen. Once Meredith had left, Evan stepped out of the house, closing the door behind her and breathed out a sigh. “What are you playing at? Honestly...what are you doing here right now?”

 The physical contact made all the difference, it was as if Evan could make her feel safe and secure from one simple touch.  Nick scoffed some.  “I’m just trying to be here for her. Didn’t know she had you here I thought she was out here on her own.”  He ran a hand up the back of his neck and gave a small shake to his head.  “Thought she could use a support system.  And something to take her mind off the loss.”

 Her eyes narrowed slightly at him, her arms crossing over her chest. “See, I think there's more to it than that. And you need to back off. She is still grieving and you are showing her and her wife no respect by shoving yourself into her life.” Evan said sternly, completely unamused. “And it’s pretty fucking creepy to show up at someone's house without so much as a warning. Especially when she's made it clear she doesn't want anything.”

 The man looked a little nervous, Evan had this intensity about her just like Henri had.  “Eventually, she needs to move on and when she does, I’ll be here.”  He remarked. “But hey, I get it, she’s got the support she needs. Maybe once you’re done picking up the pieces I’ll ask her out.”  He gave that charming yet unsettling smile and backed down off the porch.  “Nice meeting you, Evan.”

 Her jaw clenched and she took a step forward, not comfortable at all with the words he was speaking or the look on his face. “If you ever do anything she doesn't want, you will fucking regret it. And that's a promise, Nick. I will have no problem at all coming after you.” Evan stared him down, waiting for him to drive off before she stepped back into the house, locking the door behind her.

 He got into his car and muttered “crazy bitch” before driving off but the message was clear as day.  By the time Evan made it back into the kitchen the table had been set and Meredith was busting herself with drinks. Water was a must but tacos called for tequila.  She glanced up.  “Want a margarita?”

 “A margarita sounds amazing.” Evan said with a nod, moving to put everything into bowls and then place them on the table. She let out a breath and set some dishes in the sink to be dealt with later. “Tell me if he keeps bugging you. Alright? I'm hoping he won't, but just…” Evan trailed off and then cleared her throat before taking a seat at the table.

 The blonde pulled out the good tequila from Henri’s fancy liquor cabinet and poured them both a homemade margarita.  Once upon a time Mere had been a damn good bartender.  Meredith bit her lower lip as she set the glasses down and took a seat.  “I will…”. She took a sip of her drink, in thought.  “Most of the day I was avoiding him.  Especially while I was texting you… he knows when my free time is and my usual haunts hence why I was in the library.”

 “Thank you.” Evan replied, in response to her saying she would tell Evan about Nick and also I'm response to the drink set down in front of her. Evan hummed and shook her head as she began to put some food on her plate. “He uh..seems pretty determined. But hopefully I got him to back off for a little while at least.” Evan mused, biting down on her bottom lip. “You shouldn't have to deal with such an inconsiderate jerk.”

 The blonde was a little amused by the woman’s words.  “You’re like my guardian angel or something.  I honestly don’t know what I would have done had you not been here.” She smirked but it faded into a smile. “You threatened him, didn’t you?”  She started making her taco, it was certainly smaller than Evan’s but at least she was putting food into her own plate unprompted- progress.

 She chewed on her bottom lip, tilting her head to the side. “If it's going to get me in trouble...nope..I definitely did not.” Evan said with a shrug of her shoulders. Though the smile on her face definitely said otherwise. She wasn't ashamed of what she had said. Meredith needed time to heal. And she didn't need someone in her life that didn't care about that fact. She took a bite of her taco and then sat back a bit in the chair.

 “You totally did.”  She smiled.  After a quiet moment she spoke up again.  “Thank you...just having you here is-... I feel safe.” She took a bite of her taco with a small hum and then dipped at her margarita, the alcohol was much needed after that special visit.

 “I'm glad that I can do that for you.” Evan replied, offering her a smile. She was glad to see that she hadn't had to push the food on Meredith at all. It was just known that she would at least eat a little bit. As long as she put something on her plate, Evan was happy. “What's your day like tomorrow?”

 “I have work.  No orchestra tomorrow so I should be home by two at the latest if I decide to stay for office hours.”  Meredith worked slowly at her food and made sure to drink some water not just her alcohol.  “What do you think you’ll do?”  She never realized before how nice it was to have someone to come home to.

 “Cool. Sounds good.” Evan shook her head slightly. “I'm honestly not too sure. May head to the gym again if I feel up to it. Other than that though I don't really have anything planned. Might also just take a drive for a while. See what's going on around here.” She replied before taking another bite of her taco. “I think we've got enough food to just have tacos again tomorrow night if that's cool with you.”

 “Check out how much has changed?”  She asked knowingly.  “If you’re anything like your sister then you probably aren’t a huge fan of change… try not to overwhelm yourself?”  The blonde nodded after taking another bite.  “Mm hmm. They’re really good.”  They were perfect. “Definitely don’t mind having this again tomorrow.”

 “Yeah, but might be better to overwhelm myself with the change and then know what I'm getting myself into if I end up needing or wanting to go anywhere later on. You know?” Evan shrugged her shoulders and then took a sip of her drink. “Mm, you make a great drink.” She commented with a smile. “And good. Happy to cook some food you enjoy.”

 “True.”  The blonde smiled at the compliment.  “Thanks. I was a bartender for all five years of schooling even a bit after that.  I still know all the bartending secrets.”  She finished her small taco. True, it wasn’t necessarily as much food as previous night but this was the first night she’d cleaned her plate.

 Evan quirked an eyebrow slightly and nodded her head. “That's awesome. I appreciate your ability to make good alcoholic beverages. I'm sure it'll come in handy for Thanksgiving and Christmas.” She said with a smile, finishing her own taco a few moments after Meredith. She sat back once more, ready to simply enjoy the drink. “Is there anything you need to do tonight?”

 “It will.”  She promised.  “I make amazing holiday cocktails.”  She sipped at her own drink, happy she was actually able to stomach the taco. It had been too long since she’d emptied her plate.  “I need to do dishes but that’s about it.”  She wasn’t huge on giving her students assignments that would give her work to take home because she would typically end up losing or misplacing something at home.

 Evan nodded her head at her words, rubbing the back of her neck slightly. “It's good that you get to rest before work tomorrow.” She mused before glancing over at the other woman. “Um...I think as long as you're comfortable, you should sleep in my room again. It seemed to help…” She stated, figuring she may as well say the words now so they knew the plan later on.  

 “I hate bringing work home. Gives too much room for losing things.”  At work She was super extra organized and rather anal retentive but once she took off her teacher facade she was way less ocd.  The blonde didn’t look uncomfortable or anything she just looked surprised. “.... Are you sure?  I Uhm… want you to be able to sleep too..”

 “I get that for sure. I've been lucky to never lose anything that I've brought home from work. Thanks to confidentiality I would never hear the end of it if I lost something.” The brunette expressed before her gaze softened slightly. “I'm sure. I slept pretty well last night too honestly.” She admitted with a slight smile.

 Hearing that Evan had slept well to had her cheeks flushing slightly as she remembered the position they’d woken up in.  She returned the slight smile with one of her own then bit into her lower lip gently as she considered it.  “... Okay.” Another sip was taken from her drink before she started to put things into containers and clear away the dishes. “That uhm… sounds like a good plan then.”  She knew in the back of her mind that Evan wasn’t just suggesting this, she felt like it was a rule that had simply been worded nicely to test the waters.

 Her head nodded when Meredith said that it sounded like a good idea. “Do you need to wake up at the same time tomorrow?” Evan questioned, tapping her fingers lightly against the glass. It was good that Meredith seemed open to the idea, and she hoped that it was enough that she wouldn't have to continue suggesting it. She would see tomorrow if Meredith simply moved to the bedroom on her own.

 “Mm hmm.”  She hummed as she put away the last of the leftovers.  Moving to the sink she started washing the dishes.  “Same time every morning because I always have a 9:30 class to teach.”  The routine they were falling into was super domestic.  “And as long as I’m up in time I can make us breakfast like this morning.”  She offered a small smile.

 “Alright. So what we should do is make sure you bring your phone charger and phone into my room so you don't sleep too late. Don't want you being late for work just because you've got to sleep in my room.” Evan stated with a bite to her bottom lip. “That would be great. I am a big fan of not having to make breakfast. So much so that when I'm in Chicago I normally just go out for breakfast.” Evan admitted with a cheeky smile. She stood up from the table and moved to the sink, reaching around Meredith to grab the extra cloth before moving to wipe down the table.

 Meredith took mental notes and gave a small nod. “That sounds good. I probably would have brought it last night but it all took me by surprise,” she admitted.  She kept washing the dishes and once she was done she went about drying them and putting them away.  The blonde laughed a little at the brunette’s admission.  “Long as you’re here I’ll be making you breakfast then.”  She smiled.

 “Of course. It was kind of a last minute type of deal for sure. Caught me a little by surprise too honestly. But you needed sleep so…” She finished wiping off the table and returned the cloth to its place before slipping her hands into the pockets of her jeans. “You're spoiling me.” Evan teased, tilting her head to the side slightly before glancing at the time. “Want to watch a couple more episodes? Just chill out before bed?”

 The younger woman bit into her lower lip, still a little embarrassed at just how badly she seemed to need the care that Evan was giving her.  Putting away the last of the dishes she turned to her with a small smile.  “Look at it as payback for all the dinners you’re spoiling me with.”  She gave a small nod and followed her into the living room back to the couch.  “At this rate we’ll be through the series well before thanksgiving.”

 “Touche.” She wasn't going to argue with that point, though she supposed the two of them were really just taking care of one another. “Just means that we'll have to find a new one. I'm sure we can manage that.” Evan said with a smile, dropping back into the couch, her arm over the top of it as she got comfortable. “What's your favorite movie?” She questioned, feeling a bit of a need to get to know Meredith a bit better.

 Meredith pulled the blanket back over her body and curled up amongst the cushions.  “Hmm…” she thought for a moment. “Ever After.”  She flipped on the television and went into the recently watched section of Netflix, clicking on the proper show and episode.  “But Professor Marston and the Wonder Women is a close second.  What about you?”

 She smiled at the words and nodded her head. “Those are great choices for sure. I definitely approve.” Evan said with a smile and a tilt of her head. “My favorite movie is The Matrix. And then I really like E.T as well.” The brunette admitted, shrugging her shoulders a bit. “I like too many though honestly.”

 “Those are classics.”  She smiled.  “What about…”. She grabbed a pillow to place in Evan’s lap and laid her head on it , blue eyes gazing up into the brunette’s.  “...Your favorite tv series?”  The closer they were the better she felt and for some reason this felt perfectly natural.

 Evan hadn't been expecting the change in position from the other woman, but she certainly didn't mind and had nothing to complain about. Thinking it over, as she moved her hand to card her fingers through blonde locks, she smiled. “Charmed or One Tree Hill are probably my all-time favorites. I really like Criminal Minds too though. You?”

 She found herself leaning into the touch, she loved having her hair played with.  “Ooo I loved Charmed so much but I was mad when they killed off Prue.”  She debates in her mind for a moment.  “I loved Xena.  And Gilmore Girls…. but I have a soft spot for Law and Order SVU.” She loves too many television series to just pick one.

 “I was pretty peeved about that as well. It's unfortunate that it came down to that honestly. I did end up liking Paige eventually though so there's that at least.” She mused, smiling softly at the way Meredith responded to the touch on her scalp. “Those are great shows as well. I appreciate those choices.”She said softly, her other hand drifting down to rest on the couch beside Meredith's body. “Where's somewhere you want to travel to?”

 “It took me a very long time to warm up to her, honestly, she just annoyed me at first.”  This was so comfortable, it felt so good being this close to someone again physically and it also helped that she felt emotionally safe with Evan.  “Ireland.”  She said without missing a beat. “But I dunno maybe just all over Europe in general. Anywhere but the US… you?”

 Evan nodded in understanding, letting her hand rest for a moment, still tangled in blonde hair. “Ireland would be pretty cool. I'd really like to go to Greece one day. Australia too.” The brunette answered, her thumb rubbing along her hairline. “Honestly though I agree with wanting to go anywhere other than the US.” She said, looking down into blue orbs.

 “Greece would be beautiful  but I hear  it’s a little dangerous right now and their economy isn’t the best. Australia is a long ass plane ride but I suppose if we made stops along the way it would definitely be worth it.”  Looking up into Evan’s eyes she couldn’t help but smile some.  They clearly weren’t paying attention to the show but Mere couldn’t bring herself to care.

 “Mm, there's no rush. Could always go to Greece later on.” Evan mused, shrugging her shoulders slightly and smiling down at the teacher. Her heart thudded a little with the knowledge that in some small way they were planning, even just slightly, for things to occur in the future. “It would be a long plane ride but I don't know...I think we could keep ourselves busy enough.”

 “Mm hmm.” It felt good simply knowing that someone wanted to plan things with her even if it were all just hypothetical for the time being.  “ I always wanted to travel but we were always too busy and before that I never wanted to do it alone, I’m a nervous flyer”. She admitted.  “Favorite color? Before you ask, mine’s grey.”

 She nodded her head slightly, rubbing the back of her neck with her free hand. “Yeah, business always seemed to get in the way.” Fingers began to trail through her hair again as she thought over some things. “Hmm? Oh uh...my favorite is green. Grey is an interesting choice though, I like it.” She said with a smile, eyes scanning over Meredith's features.

 “Green is pretty. You’d love Ireland… they claim it’s greener there, that when you get back everything just looks muted in comparison.”  The blonde noticed the way those eyes took her in and yet it didn’t make her uncomfortable it had the opposite effect.  The corners of pink lips tugged upwards a bit. “Grey is the color of my favorite types of weather. I like storms. Rainy and snowy.  All different shades of grey.”

 Evan hummed thoughtfully and chewed on the inside of her cheek. “Ireland would be pretty cool. We should just save up money and take off for a few months some time and travel to the places we want to go.” Evan suggested, continuing to play with her hair. “Rain is pretty great. I love it a lot. So I get where you're coming from with that.” She said, glancing up at the TV. “We're going to have to start these episodes over at some point.” She said with a soft laugh.

 “We should grab a map and put dots on it for where we want to go then we can get pins to mark off the places we do.”  She cleared her throat softly at the mention of saving up.  “Well… Henri put together a rainy day fund. We didn’t get to use it much so… there’s money in it for fun things.”  She leaned into the touch once more and gave a hum at the agreement about rain.  “Hmm?”  She glanced to the tv and laughed a little too.  “I’m not worried about it.”

 She nodded her head slightly at Meredith's words and chewed her bottom lip. “Well, give me some time to save up some money and we'll go then.” Evan replied, brushing fingers through her hair with a soft breath. She had some money set aside, but it was mostly stuff that she had specific uses for. “Nah, chatting with you has been nice. Though I think if we're gonna keep chatting, it may be time to just move up to the bed.”

 Technically, that fund would easily cover them both for mutiple trips but if it made Evan uncomfortable she wasn’t going to push. Maybe she’d just get them the trip to Ireland as a Christmas gift. Mere thought for a moment about her word then gave a nod.  “Up to bed it is. I’m gonna put on some pajamas and grab my pillow.” She sat up with a small smile even though she definitely felt a loss when that hand left her hair and headed for the stairs.

 She smiled softly and watched as Meredith made her way upstairs, grabbing the remote and turning off the TV before standing and heading upstairs, turning lights off as she went. She headed to the bathroom and brushed her teeth before making her way to her room and changing into her PJs.

 Meredith brushed her teeth and washed her face in her own bathroom and changed in a worn overgrown T-shirt and flannel sleep shorts. She typically got overheated at night if she wore much else.  Grabbing her favorite pillow, bare feet then carried her across the hall to Evan’s room. She gave a small knock not wanting to walk in on her naked or anything.

 Hearing the knock on the door, she smiled. “Come in, Mere.” Evan was already curled up in bed, resting her head against her wall and let out a small hum. “Hey.” She mused with a smile as Meredith walked in, pulling back the blankets to allow the blonde to get settled. “All comfy now?”

 That was the first time that Evan had called her Mere and it made her smile.  She came in and shut the door behind her.  The blonde climbed into the offered space with her favorite pillow and snuggled into the covers.  “Mm hmm.” She hummed.  “And it helps that you and your bed are comfy.”

 She chuckled and settled down, turning onto her side and smiling. “Well I'm glad that you find yourself comfortable here. You deserve to be comfortable.” Evan mused, reaching out to brush a strand of hair behind the woman's ear before she pulled her hand back. She was getting too comfortable...she needed to watch herself.

 Evan’s smile was absolutely addictive and beautiful and she found herself staring on the rare occasion that it showed itself.  Her lips quirked as the woman tucked that piece of hair away.  “So do you.”  She replied gently almost as if she’d heard that inner thought but that wasn’t possible.  “And yes I find myself comfortable and safe.  Things I haven’t felt in a long time.”

 She breathed out slowly and nodded her head, pulling the blankets over herself more fully. “Good. I...am glad I can do right by my sister somehow.” She paused and smirked slightly. “Also...it’s just nice to know me being here helps.” Evan licked her bottom lip and then sighed softly as she began to relax further against the bed. “Can I…” She paused and shook her head. “Never mind.”

 “You are.”  She murmured.  “And good… I’ll make sure to keep reminding you.”  She smirked a little but it faded into a small smile.  The blonde’s brow scrunched and her freckles nose crinkled a little when Evan cut herself off.  “Can you what?”  She asked gently, not planning on giving her a way out.

 “I look forward to the reminders.” She bit down on her bottom lip and then turned on her back to look up at the ceiling with a furrow of her eyebrows. “Can you maybe tell me a uh...happy memory of you and Henri?” evan paused and licked her bottom lip. “If not...I mean...that's alright.”

 The blonde thought about it a long moment. “I can do that.”  She replied softly.  “Since Thanksgiving is coming up...We would go get a tree the Sunday after thanksgiving every year.  We would cut it down.  I love Christmas… the whole season. We’d get there and she’d point to a tree but I would stubbornly want to see all of them. She would be as patient as a Hughes woman could be and every year without fail would pick me up over her shoulder and carry me half way out of the lot kicking and laughing with her threatening to cancel Christmas and that’s when I’d find our tree and she’d put me down so she could saw it and drag it back. We’d get the lights on it that night and light a fire and she’d hold me and we’d read our favorite Christmas stories… “

 Evan listened to the story, a small smile forming on her lips as she listened. It was such a Henri thing to do and it was nice to share in some small part of her. She let out a deep breath and turned to face the other woman again. “That sounds wonderful. I can almost see her gradually getting more and more impatient with the whole thing.” The brunette said with a soft chuckle, slowly reaching out to slip an arm around her, resting the waters a bit.

 The blonde smiled at the sound of that chuckle.  “Oh my god, your sister’s lack of patience was truly remarkable… so sometimes I’d look just a little longer cause I knew I was pushing my luck.”  When that arm slipped around her she moved in closer, relaxing into the woman’s hold.  “I loved everything about the holiday season because she made it magical.  I’m honestly happy I get to spend it with you this year.  I was dreading it until we made plans.”

 “Mm, so you were acting cheeky were you? Is that what I should expect?” Evan questioned. “I'm sorry...that she can't be here with you. I wish...I wish she could be.” Evan paused and rubbed her thumb gently along her back. “As much as I'm looking forward to spending Christmas with someone, I would give anything for her to be able to be here with you instead.” She admitted with a deep sigh.

 “I have my cheeky moments. I make no promises about my behavior.”  The smile on her faces said it all.  At those somber words Meredith found herself moving closer and hanging on a little tighter.  “I know… but I wish the three of us could spend it together.”  She went quiet a moment,  “..... everything happens for a reason, as much as I hate certain things that happen at least I know that much is true.”

 Evan sighed as Meredith moved more closely to her, gently gripping her shirt. “I...wish we could too. Sorry I made that an impossibility.” Evan mused softly, resting her forehead against Meredith's for a brief moment before she then pulled back. “Sometimes that reason doesn't feel fair though. Like...it brought me back home but it...I don’t know.”

 “You don’t need to apologize.”  Meredith closed her eyes at the feeling of that warm forehead pressed against her own.   “But without her part of Home is missing?... I know.”  She bit her lower lip gently and traced idle patterns along her side with soft fingertips.

 “Yeah...it’s just...I've never slept in this house without Henri being here as well. Like...ever. Until now.” Sure Henri's spirit was still around but Meredith didn't know that and it wasn't the same anyway. She shivered slightly at the touch to her side, thoughtfulness settling over her. “You have made this as bearable as it could be though.”

“Me neither. It’s jarring and unsettling.  We never spent a night apart so… I just haven’t done the sleeping thing cause cause I didn’t know how without her.”  She offered a sad smile.  “I’m glad I’m able to do that for you… You’ve done… so much for me.”

 She nodded her head, appreciating how difficult the loss must have been for Meredith. It wasn't easy on Evan at all...but Evan had already gone through a loss when it came to Henri. The loss for Meredith was still completely fresh. “Just...helping each other as best as we can. It's nice to have that with someone.”

 “It is.” She murmured softly, her breath warm against Evan’s skin.  Meredith bit her lower lip for a moment. They needed to lighten their conversation before either one of them attempted to sleep.  “.... hmm.. are you more of a cat person or dog person?”

 She smiled at the question and shrugged. “I guess more of a dog person. But I like cats too.” Evan replied, fingers playing with her shirt slightly. “What about yourself?” She replied with her own question, “And have you ever had an animal?”

 “Same.”  She smiled some.  “I love dogs but I like cats.  I think if I ever get one I’d want to rescue though. Too many fur babies out there need homes already.”  Thinking back on her childhood the blonde hummed.  “I had a family dog- was a golden retriever named George.  And at one point we had a bunny named Patches.  Did you guys ever have any pets?”

 She nodded her head in agreement. “I'd definitely want a rescue as well. Especially one of the older ones that have done nothing but grown older. It's sad that they're all alone.” Evan mused softly, fingers resting on her lower back. “That's a cute name. And I like George too.” Evan nodded slightly. “We had a dog, a husky,  named Zeus when we were younger. We uh...had to send him to a new home after our dad died though.”

 “That’s exactly what I would wanna do. Some poor baby who still has some good time left but who no one wants cause he’s not a puppy.”  Meredith enjoyed daydreaming with Evan.  “I helped name them. My brother and sister had no interest.”  She thought for a moment.  “That must be the husky I’ve seen in family photos.”

 “Well good work on the names.” Evan said with a nod and a smile. “I helped name our dog. I'm quite the fan of Greek mythology. Would have named him Athena if he had been a girl.” She smiled at the mention and nodded. “That would be him. He was a good boy.”

 “He looked like a Zeus.”  She gave a small nod.  The blonde nuzzled into the older woman a little bit.  “... Is this going to be an every night thing?”  Not that she minded but she wanted to know what to expect.  “Sharing a bed, I mean.”  Her voice was on the quiet side but she didn’t seem uncomfortable or anything of that nature.

 “Glad you approve of my name selection.”She smiled as Meredith nuzzled against her, lifting her hand to brush through blonde locks once again. “It is.” She said after a few moments pause. She was certain about it. Meredith needed sleep and this seemed to be the best way to ensure that she was getting the sleep that she needed.

 Meredith let herself enjoy those finger threading through her hair and gave a soft hum.  “Not killing students and sharing a bed with you. I think I can manage that.”  She murmured, a smile pulling at her lips.  In her head those cemented as rules she knew she’d need to follow.

 She chuckled softly and nodded her head. “I definitely think that you can manage that, Mere.” She replied, biting down on her bottom lip. “We should probably get some rest now. Some of us have work tomorrow.” Evan said with a soft hum, pressing her forehead against Meredith's for just a moment.

 The second Evan’s forehead rested against hers those blue eyes closed.  “Mm hmm.”  She let out a breath, “work,” she muttered. Working was the furthest thing from her mind but Evan was right, they both needed sleep.  Meredith focused on her breath, breathing In the brunette.  “Good night, Ev,” she murmured softly.