mine; not yours

As much as I am already an adult and a mother of 3, I still learn something new everyday. 2026 is the year that Yusuf officially starts school and I still say "Have Fun! Learn something!" to him and Sahar, everytime they walk into school.

School haave to be fun, only then they will be interested to attend school and learn something; anything. Even if they learnt something as small as spending their allowance at the bookshop, that is one step closer to independence. This new experience and knowledge is something that they need to do on their own.

They are aware that they need to take care of their belongings, and they have to be responsible for their own actions. Yusuf have been quite a well-liked boy by his teachers, and they always remind us of it when we fetched him. As a parent, it felt hella good, it means that we've raised him towards the right path and whatever we are doing, we should keep it up.

Sahar started Primary 1 this year. She enjoys school and i don't really much for her. Just need to put her in a new school routine. This time around, asking her if she has homework and it she has packed her school bag for the following day.

Both of their schools are very pro-parents involvement. There are always something that we, as their parents, have to complete with them. Not complaining, cause once they officially graduate from secondary school, things around the house will slowly change.

I am in no rush in ask my kids to grow up. Yes, I will guide them to do be independent and be resourceful, but definitely no rush in have them leave this home of ours.

January '26

There are two things that means a lot to me, my sleep and my family.

If you have not already noticed, my rest is the only thing that helps to energize and keep keep me as sane as I am today.

At the age of (maybe) 18 years old, I had quite traumatic phase of life and I just kept getting hit by "life's shite" over and over again. One evening I told myself I was done feeling as low as I was and wanted to start a fresh day. I would cry and think and be pitiful for myself at night, and wake up feeling a new person. I was not going to allow anything that happened the day before to affect my fresh new day. I would wake up with a smile and carry on with life. Whatever happened in the past shall just be a lesson learnt for me.

I have chosen to start everyday with a fresher mind and heart. Therefore, sleep is my true remedy to keep me going as I am today.

Finally, my family is so so so important to me. I am glad I have found and married a man who have the same priority as I do.

Lekieh and I very little things in common. He is into music and hanging with his friends, while I am into swimming and just catch up on TV series. But getting together as a family is the one thing that made us bond so closely.

Lekieh would randomly whip out instruments and kids will dance sing out aloud. He would also make the time to play the Xbox with them. While I make the effort to squeeze in some swim lessons for the kids after their school.

Every day we try to have dinner together as a whole family. We would sit at the dining table and share absolutely anything. We try to get the kids involved too. We would make the effort to visit our parents every week with the kids. The only time we would "skip a week of visitation" would either be because we are too exhausted, or someone is unwell.

Getting the chance to spend some family time while our parents are still well, feels pretty awesome. I know not everyone gets to have this luxury because their career is taking a toll on them or even have weird shifts that are making meet ups almost impossible.

October '25

; Yusuf First Visit to Masjid

September '25

July '25

July '25

July '25

; Our first Business Class ride Together

July '25

; My Navigator

July '25

July 2025, I was invited to the Frankfurt office for an RFP. Though the invitation was short notice, it was worth the rush and experience.

The flight from Singapore to Frankfurt, Germany, was about 13hours long. Keeping in mind that I am 5months pregnant too. Thank goodness for flat bed on Lufthansa Business Class, also thank goodness for Lekieh's company.

From the day of my flight booking to the day of my travel, it was less than 2weeks. Arranging care for the kids were easy, and my parents helped to hold down the fort. More than anything, I think I made my parents proud that I made this work trip. They have always wanted to send me overseas to study, to see the world outside of Singapore, but I simply did not and never had the interest to do so. So, this trip, was something that my parents whole heartedly supported. Also, they are glad that Lekieh made time to accompany, because I was expecting.

I've been working in the company for almost 5 years, and this is the first time I am literally seeing my teammates physically in person. We usually have video calls and most time we do not even turn on the camera because it uses up the bandwidth. Happy to say that they the same person I spoke to over Video Calls. They are genuinely kind hearted people in calls and in person.

So the work trip literally felt like an honest work trip for me. Morning, went to work, ended work at 6pm. Rushed to the hotel to put my bag, rushed out to have dinner. So if you don't already know, most shops and restaurants closes at 8pm. So by the time we reach a restaurant to eat, it was 7pm. And by the time we are done with food, it was almost 8pm, and there is no where else for us to venture. So back to the hotel it is.

I can't say the same for Lekieh. I love the fact that he is very independent and adventurous. He studied the train system and even travelled out of Frankfurt Am Main. He brought home loads of pictures for me to look at, and I love it!

Germany has some amazing and beautiful architecture. I loved the weather too.

July '25

June '25

Hi hi. So this March 2025 l, we found out we were expecting our third child and will be due in November 2025. A little overwhelmed by the thought of having number three, but the support and encouragement from my family says otherwise.

I brought Hilyah to one of the ultrasound appointment and she was so happy. Just a simple new experience for her. Now she goes around telling people that "adik"(baby) looked at her and smiled. I could she how excited she was for the baby's arrival.

Hayden on the other hand.... Well, let's just say it took him awhile to catch on. He tends to play rough, and he did last week. I told him to stop and "Mummy, cannot play rough now. Mummy carrying Adik Baby." And of course, his first question was "Where?". I had to explain to him that Baby was in my tummy and sleeping. Even showed him some ultrasound pictures to make it make sense for him. Ever since then, he is more gentle. He would randomly give me leg and back massages and asks "nice? Baby happy, mummy?". Also, now every time he wakes up from his sleep or naps, he would come to me and ask "Mummy, baby come out already?". He is so excited to be an Abang. I love it.

All these affirmation is just a cheery on top of this tough pregnancy. As I get older, I can feel that I am much weaker than I was with first two kids. The water retention and back ache is arriving sooner than I expected.

I am falling ill much easier too and the medication that the doctor have provided is just not strong enough for a 24hours recovery. I tend to need about 3days long to recover or even longer.

Age is really catching up with me and there is still so much I would like to do and teach my Baby #3 when it's out.

May '25

May '25

; Diggerland at Siam Discovery Bangkok

February '25