unknown angel

When you start working or studying full time it's makes you appreciate being in bed and relaxing because life in general expects so much of you. People want you to work to appreciate simple things. The stress just means you're working hard and those simple moments when you can just sit in bed are just your reward. People relax differently to other people. Obviously it isn't natural to work your whole life but when you take those moments to be still and quiet and relaxed that is true serenity.

I wish I could be nonchalant but I smile at literally any social interaction and have dissociation eyes 24/7

I will now eat like a starving bear in a forest

What doesn't kill you kills your soul

Sometimes I go out and realise from my experience on tinder, bumble etc that everyone is perverted in their own ways. Like I'll go outside and be in public wearing something normal but I look around and think 'some of these people are kinky' in a way yes it's hot to think of someone perving on me but at the same time it's funny the way everyone goes about their daily lives and you know deep down that they all have their own kinks and perverted little fantasies. It's like sonder but in a 'Ha! Everyone is kinky and I remembered that!' typa way..

I feel like I'm waiting for something. I feel like I'm waiting for life to throw something at me that'll significantly change my life. I don't believe in any god or any plan but I know that there is more than this.

My ideal day is going out and sipping soda, taking my snus then being taken for walkies. Like yes take me to a field. Chase me, run around with me, talk to me and treat me like the good girl I am. Remind me how real puppies play and show me how to play human things.. I wanna be perved on while I lay on the grass and trained to bark, sit, stand, hump.. whatever.. nevermind..

Intimacy isn't just sex. Sometimes it's sitting with your friends late at night getting drunk and talking about life and why everything is the way it is.

Some people think having daddy issues is some cute, sexy thing to have but they don't understand the child inside of them waiting for their father to show up or act like a fucking man. Nobody talks about the desperation you grow up with, wanting older men, being overly sexual and desperate. And nobody realises that the desperation is just little you wanting to be cared for. Because since little you didn't have much care you crave that care.

Status means nothing. You could be the richest person and the biggest asshole. You could be the poorest and be the kindest. Obviously it works both ways which proves why status doesn't matter. All people are different and have different lives, personalities etc. Just find people that think as deep as you, feel as deep as you and you're set for life. Status doesn't matter. What really matters is how you live your life. Kindness is the strength in the world and freedom is what brings things together. Natural and man made. Humans and creatures are all united by kindness. Deep that.

People find so much interest in things that don't make life interesting or exciting. People need to be more spontaneous instead of just focusing on the newest model of things or the latest trends. Spontaneous and almost impulsive thinking gives you that exciting life. The unknown gives you that euphoria because you aren't doing what is considered a routine. Enjoy life freely and do what you want at your own pace, with friends or without. Just live your life.

Routine isn't normal for humans. People feel comfortable and safe in routines because there is nothing unexpected. People fear the unexpected. This is why paranormal activity is so feared, why breaking rules is so feared and why saying things in a way that people don't usually say them is feared etc. Because people are afraid of what will happen. Routine does nothing other than making humans scared of the unknown and giving them a structured but boring life. Step out of your Routine and go be spontaneous. It's extra life experience that gives you a good life quality.

Why be stressed about things if the only real fear in life is death?

Drained from feeling svicidql, I just want to roll around in a field and be reminded by someone that I'm a good puppy and the prettiest little angel..