Her Chronicles✨

You ever felt like you second guess yourself to the point you feel the people that shout “I know you!” Really don’t know you. They just know of you? When creating soulful relationships you are taking the time to appreciate a person and not belittle them. You’re creating patience with this person because they want to see who you are and what you are about — not everyone will take everything in stride, but the ones who really know you will love you unconditionally and will never walk away with a negative response that’ll make you question yourself. If someone is taking the time to belittle you and disrespect you; they were never there for you! They never loved you! They’ve shown the colors you needed to see.

Lately I’ve been having some heavy dreams and visions about a person lately. No one seems to understand how my power feels, but this person is going to come in my life and welcome herself.. I don’t know if I have to be more bold or what — the energy is very strong. I do believe something will happen between myself and her. Proper timing is coming to play and reading this, proves something is about to occur! 💕✨🔮

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Sometimes I feel like people do not understand the difference when I say I am an old soul. I feel like my love and my character gets very misunderstood; I feel that people tend to not only just assume they know me, but think that having an old soul is unpredictable.. I love to enjoy time with someone who cares about me just as much as I care about them. No matter if it’s friends or a crush I want someone to actually admire my likes the way I admire their aspirations. Most of us don’t enjoy talking anymore. I don’t know why that is, but I wish love wasn’t so hard to find and things aren’t so difficult. Whether if I meet my person online or in person — I want them to love all of me everyday. Not love me sometimes and grow out of love with me. That tends to suck after awhile especially when you feel in sync with that person without them even realizing how dedicated you are to things that they don’t understand. If they’re willing to understand and make the sacrifice to join your world then they should understand the prosperity that you’re willing to give to them and compromise for them. 💕

Loyalty is something a lot of people tend to forget. It’s about opening up, being in someone’s corner, not sugarcoating a damn thing. People now days enjoy using others time and abilities for their own purposes because they’re either weak themselves or they want to be in control of everything, even you! Loyalty will show you want boundaries you can handle; whether if it’s yourself or others you’re battling with you have the power to see what’s off and what’s completely overbearing for you. If you have someone who’s energy is unbelievably toxic and you don’t realize it once you’re too late, it’s because you were trying your HARDEST to show others it’s not them, it’s you. When positivity was showing you it wasn’t you at all; it was someone CLOSE To you. There’s many sayings that can earn you about someone. A crush, a friend, a spouse — there’s warnings everywhere you go, but if you don’t want to see the warnings and you avoid these warnings. The warning will show you the hard way when it was showing you the easy way.

One thing I try to do is form my own opinions on people in my life — we all have someone in our ear telling us to do something(whether if it’s positive or negative) someone is close by looking at your every move trying to see if you’ll listen to the fact that they were right and you were wrong. No matter if it’s a friend, a crush, a dream of yours or even a hobby; there’s always people trying to “warn” you and tell you that something isn’t right. If you feel like this certain thing is taking its toll on you then it’s up to YOU to try to find a solution of either fixing it, letting it go or still pondering on what are the possible things that anything can go different. Your sanity & self is top priority. We do tend to get mislead by blinded loyalty & love. In order for us not to feel that misleading or betrayals, our walls have to remain high and we stick to staying silent until we’re ready to open our book again to share.

When you are in love with someone, you admire everything about them. You may be vulnerable, but this person gives you peace. She understands you. You’ll give her every part of you even at your worse moments. Little does she know, she’s the reason why you’re changing. She’s the reason why you aren’t going back to old habits — what does she feel about you? Does she truly love you the way you love her? Does she actually take your feelings under Consideration? Sometimes being in love with someone in your vulnerable time might be the worst because the feelings aren’t mutual.. The truth may hurt you, but at least you knew that you had someone to count on. When you find the love that truly is mutual. You’ll see that the person is before your eyes. You’re just not allowing yourself to see them.🧡🌻

You were only just 20 years old and you had a great head on your shoulders. Beyond intelligent and humble. I love you💕. Your spirits will forever live on with me as you fly high with our lord🕊. May you not suffer anymore nor be forgotten! Gone too soon my friend! And your memories of you shall live long last🧡

Everyday I’m battling with Satan. Satan deadass wants me to end everything. No matter how big my smile is and how I don’t cry in front of people. You will not understand how much the silence is so loud for me.! No matter how many times someone tells me “I got you” or “I’m never leaving you” or whatever response they have for me to make me feel better! I CANT DO THIS SHIT NO MORE. I am ready to end it. I’m ready to go. I don’t care anymore!! I can’t put myself back together this time, there’s just no way!!! 💔 I don’t care anymore! I’m tired. I’m numb. I’m done!

I feel for this man 100%. As a woman, we all have different situations to why we have/had abortions — a rape, we can’t afford the child but there are options of putting it up for adoption(which most women don’t enjoy doing), or even medical reasons. Men who communicate with you telling you that they’re willing to take care of you and the child or just take care of the child altogether; Men like him are extremely rare. There are women who do go to the clinic without even telling their men, but what women forget to recognize is you’re also damaging your body when you continuously do abortions. I don’t support abortions depending on the circumstance, but if you’re going to the clinic just to abort the child so your man doesn’t know that you’re pregnant because you were either being unfaithful or you’re not ready; I truly feel like the man has the right to know and have some kind of say like him! It isn’t fair if you’re dealing with a man and he’s the kind of guy who actually wants kids. Abortions are a sensitive topic but I feel like it needs to be addressed! I understand if you and your man didn’t plan it accordingly. Don’t act like you weren’t having sex with no protection and being more careful. Be mindful. Be more aware. Be open about your needs & wants.

If no one has told you already today then I’ll tell you; you’re amazing, you’re perfect, you’re beautiful & spontaneous! You have so much to offer regardless of what others think or say about you. To me, you are different! God made you unique, creative, to be yourself! God did not spend his time on you to make you feel like you are less than the next person, because that was not his intention of creating you. He created you to be a king/queen. He wants you to follow the path that YOU chose to follow for yourself and not for others to tell you that “this is what you should be rather than being this..” I want to remind you that you are put on this earth for a reason, your duty isn’t done! You are worth everything in this world even though you think you’re not worth a single drop of courage. You are a blessing! You are human and you are my family! I am here to look out for you rather than you feeling like you’re alone — I will listen to your cries, I will listen to your fears, I will never step back unless you don’t want me here! You are worthy of your wants and needs. Never allow someone who judges you overpower you! Never allow a bitter human to bash your name to the next person to make them show your worth and sanity isn’t anything — YOU ARE RADIANT! I believe in you regardless if you don’t believe in yourself. 🕊💛

or mental health awareness month I just want to express something that has Been weighing on me. For years, I’ve been battling depression and suicidal thoughts. There’s not many people I consider as friends or close to me because not everyone will understand that you’re dealing with something extreme — we all have different ways to cope with what we’re going through, but some of the ways we think are good are actually bad. Cutting, isolation or even faking the happiness! For me, I’m okay with having the hugest smile with a big heart and helping everyone and anyone around me. When I need that help or need to vent, I’m either bitching and I have to get over it or I’m looking for attention. Everyone has a story to tell! Are you willing to sit down with that person and read their story or are you here to judge them? God created all of us to be whole ourselves and find self-love within ourselves. If you need to find a partner to fill that void, you will not be 100%. You’re still going to feel that emptiness inside. Focus on what truly makes YOU happy. What makes YOU important. What makes YOU Ideal. I’ve had rotten fruits on my tree and I had to cut that tree down and grow another one. When I used to express my depression or me feeling like I need to just leave this earth I stopped expressing because people judged me and made me feel like I wasn’t enough. So now when someone ask me “How are you?” My response never changes. I’m fine. I’ll be okay. You don’t care. Consistency is what really shows when someone cares about you [ friend, family member or spouse ] they will always check on you without you posting about it on social media or them telling you “I’m here for you!” etc. be aware of who is truly willing to stay in your corner rather than them loving your misery.