I’m not sure if anybody will see this BUT this is my final attempt at making my life right. I’ve been stuck in the same position for two years. Every day I wake up without any reason to live. I consider myself to be a highly ambitious person with big goals and dreams but depression has been eating away at my brain therefore I have zero concentration or any energy to do anything. Of course my poor mental health is affecting my academic life and in return I became even more miserable. If I continue like this I genuinely see no acceptable future for myself. I will either have to off myself or do something about it.

This will be my diary of sorts or just a place where I can hold myself accountable.To my core I am a being of routine but with no will to live it’s been harder and harder to maintain any routine at all. I will have to make daily honest updates on here. It’s the only way to track my progress.I am aware that change cannot come overnight.

So my plan is : to get my academic life back on track, to work as much as I can considering that I have to pay for uni, to get healthy ( maybe even start going to the gym?)

My short term/ september goals are:

- Pass at least 5 exams before the new semester (organic chem 2 is the biggest priority)

- Finish two current reads

- Start working out 15 minutes every day

My long term goals are to:

- Become more mindful when it comes to my studies

- Actually pass all my exams on time

- Learn French!

- Get my body in perfect shape

- Earn enough money for uni, solo trips etc

- Work on my English

- Write more poems

- Be offline more

Any amount will do. Thank you for your kindness in advance. 🙏🩷

https://www.paypal.me/triciasantos

Us calling it what it is - a genocide - means they can't wriggle out of it in years to come. They can't continue to call it a conflict or a war if we cement it in public consciousness as a genocide.

Genocide relies on a lot of acquiescence and denial and complacency and pretending it's not happening.

Genocide relies on a lot of what Sartre calls "bad faith" ( https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bad_faith_(existentialism) ). This is different from the rhetoric of lying to another, but is about lying to oneself.

Not sure what the best way would be to tell all of you that every single Palestinian killed by Israel is one life too many and genocide does not have a specific threshold of number of people killed per day to qualify as such.

If you like this, please check out the masterpost (at the bottom of this post) of ways to help Palestine and remember that from Jan 21-28th we are on strike for Palestine!!

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Like a backflip

And I’ll film it

Edit: I’m changing it from 5k to 1k because 5k is just too unrealistic

If I do somehow get 5k though, I’ll do something even cooler

Like two backflips

Edit: [the goal has been reached. I will start practicing backflips once my exams are over and will have the video posted sometime in February. Thank you, everyone!]