Lil' Monster

They said that it's okay because we lo se but I know that it is NOT okay. If we win the game, we will be heading to semifinal but because of me... we can't. I'm the key for our department to semifinal but I am so disappointing like this... Whyyyy I'm so suck at this??? And why did the master put me in mixed doubles when he already know that I'm very far from good. I'm disappointed at myself... :''''( I need someone who can cheer me up... not saying that it's okay but someone who can really listen to my story... T_T I feel extremely down this time. I don't have any positive thought around me, maybe there's such a dark aura. Once again, why? Why I am so suck at this and why did I got into mixed doubles...

Hi there! Usually I used my blog for this personal post but I feel more 'anonymous' here since not everyone can tell that this tumblr is mine hahah So this story is about my bitchy brother. Well, the word 'bitch' doesn't really click with his gender, but seriously, he's the noisiest (dunno if such word does exist) man alive! He talks too much and has a nasty personality. Fix ngga ngerti lagi, dia seneng banget kayaknya ngadu2 ya. Ga pernah sembuh dari dulu, selalu aja ganggu kesenangan gue. Dengan sengajanya ngomong keras2 seolah ngomong dengan gue padahal aslinya dia pengen ngadu. Apaansih bit*h please. You're a man and you're supposed to just sit there and watch what's going on around you and NOT being the one who fuss about it. And now, this is the most recent incident. Awalnya laptop gue fine2 aja bisa connect ke wifi rumah. Tiba2 pada suatu hari laptop gue gabisa connect lagi. Gue kira mungkin laptop gue yg error apa gimana tapi nyatanya di kosan, kampus, ataupun wifi lain laptop gue bisa connect. So this lead me to a conclusion, my brother has something to do with this. He understands technology well, so he's in charge of technology (including internet) in our house. Ngga ngerti sih maksud dia apa ngeblock laptop gue gitu apaan tapi kalo menurut gue sih karena penggunaan internet gue yang lumayan besar. But hell-o, our wifi is unlimited so it's up to me what I'm gonna do with it! Maybe his speed got affected with my opened tabs but at least it only happen during the weekend because I don't stay in the house during weekdays except I have no class. Actually, he is the one who eat up the speed because he's playing online games. You do know that online games make your internet speed extremely slow so it's like he's digging his own grave. Around 2 days ago, I opened his laptop and opened the wifi setting and you have to know this. HE FUC*ING DISABLED MY LAPTOP FROM OUR WIFI. FUC*ING DISABLED. DISABLED, EVERYONE. Who the hell he think he is, disabling me like that????? SO. As the genius self, I made my laptop to be able to connect again. And I was happily surfing through the internet again. Yaaaay. WAS. Until today, maybe he realize that something was off and then... I GOT DISABLED AGAIN. GOT. FUC*ING. DISABLED. AGAIN. AGAIN. WHAT THE H*LL.