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For several years now there's a certain concern that has been bothering me. It makes me question a lot of things and hampers all my effort towards becoming a better person. Everytime it would hit me I feel off. I'd feel chaos pour on me, everything I have carefully built would crash over and over and that's when I would always go back to square one. It takes me down and hatred would eat me turning me irksome to all that surround me.

I'd normally strive to overcome and understand the aftermath but it's hard when I know that I have no one to run who would fully understand without judgment.

It's hard when they would just shake it off and let you feel that you're the only one making a big deal out of it.

It's hard when they expect you to be hollow and unexpressive.

It's hard to not know where to stand and extend trying to fit in.

It's hard when you want to approach and show your love but you need to be a deadpan because your motives might be misinterpreted.

It's hard when they would expect you to be tough and undaunted all the time.

It shatters me to stand in my doubts, trust issues, hatred, and all the gloom. I feel that considering these fuss is somehow a betrayal to my loved ones. Yes. Love.

Love, which contradicts everything and makes everything the hardest at the same time.

Love, which is the crunch point, the game-changer. I remark it all to those people I love.

It tears me down to see how demoralized I have become. A single concern that ruptured every single aspect I have delicately cast in my life.

Frizzy, dry, brittle, unmanageable... HAIR.

I have tried so many remedies out in the market and I must say that the treatments cost too much. So again I cling onto home remedies, I've tried a number of it and this one works best for me;most especially given that I don't have to buy anything 'cause Mama's kitchen is on stand by. :))

What you will need:

1 cup mayonnaise

1/2 cup olive oil

3 egg yolks

What to do:

1. Mix all the ingredients in a bowl. * Don't use a mayo straight from the fridge.

2. Apply the mixture thoroughly on your hair adding extra at the ends.

3. Pile the hair on top of your head and cover with a shower cap and then a towel to lock in the natural heat from your had.

4. Leave on for at least 15-20 minutes and rinse well.

Our skin takes the biggest part of our day's everyday burdens, giving it a treat and pampering yourself is needed from time to time. However, it doesn't have to be too expensive at all to experience comfort that's why we have home beauty remedies.

Here's a three-step homemade sugar scrub that you can make without hurting your budget:

1. Mix half a cup of sugar, 3 table spoons of olive oil, and 3 table spoons of water until fully blended.

2. Add a couple drops of your favorite scent or perfume to the mixture. This is optional. (I suggest using Chamomile, Lavender, or Vanilla oil because of their soothing and calming effects)

3. Voila! You have your scrub. Keep it in a tight closed container.

Apply the scrub in a circular motion until desired skin softness is achieved. Do not scrub too much or you skin will get irritated. This is best for skin exfoliating, removing dead skin cells.

If you're hesitating about using it on your face or other body parts, I suggest that you try it on your hands and feet first.

Most girls are frantic because of chapped lips not just because it's unattractive but painful as well. I even personally experience this dilemma. Well say chapped-lips-no-more with these few tips, just follow and strictly maintain.

This may sound cliché but i'll say it anyway: keep yourself re-hydrated and eat plenty of fruits and vegetables. These are scientifically proven, no doubt.

For the methods that will follow, try which works best for you and make it part of your beauty rituals. Before starting any of these, remove loose and dead skin. However, make sure not to pull at it roughly or you'll worsen it.

Wash-cloth

Run a soft wash-cloth under a warm water,squeeze and gently but firmly rub it over your lips.

Toothbrush

You may apply a petroleum jelly before doing this (Vaseline petroleum jelly works best for me). Gently and slowly rub the bristles starting from the corners of your lips and work on your way to the middle. Rinse. Apply petroleum jelly. Repeat this every 5-7 days.

Final touches

Pat- don't rub-your lips dry. Apply a lip balm or petroleum jelly. You can sleep with the balm or jelly on. Keep applying the balm throughout the day to keep your lips from getting chapped. Refrain licking your lips because it dries them out.

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Let say that for this moment I believe in reincarnation; Am thinking that I was once an owl, a bat, or one of the creepers at night or maybe a nocturnal mushroom. Days are my nights and nights are my days. Don't get me wrong hindi po ako aswang, akyat bahay, sungkit sampay, o magnanakaw ng kable ng kuryente. Maybe I just love the calmness during wee hours. For some it's creepy but for me it's serenity instead. :)

Years after I decided to delete all my blogs I finally thought of having one again, but this time NO MORE scripts and other intellectual properties that could be abused just like my previous blog here.