I've never been the person with a book in her bag. Who packs one for vacation. And for someone so curious, who consumes knowledge like air and loves learning more than almost anything, that never made sense. Even to me.
The truth is, reading long text in English tires me. And I always leaned toward listening to long texts when I could, even in Hebrew. But somewhere along the way, "I don't read much" quietly became "I'm not a reader." And "I'm not a reader" carried shame with it.
So a few months ago, when the new friends I made here started talking about a book club, I froze.
You know that internal voice. THAT'S NOT FOR ME. TOO LATE. I KNOW WHO I AM BY NOW.
We all have a few of those. Mine were heights, any activity that can put me face to face with a shark, and books.
But I wanted to be part of this group. These are people worth showing up for. So I treated it like a task I needed to get done.
I subscribed to Audible and made one small rule: every time I start a drive, any drive, I hit play. No drifting into my to-do list. No business ideas.
The first drive I forgot.
The second I remembered to hit play, but caught probably 40% of it.
By the fifth, it was a habit. And I actively listened without drifting off every second.
And then something unexpected happened. The book captivated me. "The Correspondent" by Virginia Evans. I caught myself looking forward to my next drive. Every single time!
The shocker to me was when I couldn't wait for the next drive, and found myself cuddling up in bed with my audiobook.
Three books later, I suggested the title. I picked the Israeli "Someone to Run With" by David Grossman. My new friends are reading it in English. I'm listening to it in Hebrew.
So no, I'm not reading the books. I'm listening to them. And who cares? I'm having fun, and for the first time I can answer the question I always dreaded: "What are you reading these days?"
That thing that was so clearly not for me? It was just waiting for me to find my door in.
If there's something you've quietly filed under NOT FOR ME, I want you to know: it's never too late, it may very well be for you, and finding your own way in isn't cheating. It's winning.