more bad medicine

we went to see our first ever Hitchcock film at the million dollar theater in LA. it was incredible, but my least favorite part was the geezer on his phone, brightness all the way up, three seats down from me. who DOES that?!

i passed by jack black in grand central market, and we exchanged a smile.

Growing up always having a front and back yard, it never crossed my mind that one day I'd spend the better half of my life in a congested city with little space to call my own. It was the 90s, and then the early 00s, and the formula was still in place: college degree > job > buy a house. I could never have known how irrelevant that would become.

as i sit here, sweaty, dirty, and covered in paint splatters, i think about how my procrastination has led me to a breaking point. yes, i work hard. no, i don't try my hardest. i am definitely not doing my best on a day to day basis. i want to pour these feelings out and into a glass and say here, look at this, feel how heavy it is in your hand. i know this post is erratic but i think i just need to type and type and type until some weight is lifted.

social media ruined the world. there, i said it. i truly believe that. i don't think the internet itself is to blame. i think companies like tik tok, instagram, the app formerly known as twitter, all preyed upon us. maybe not twitter. but as for the social media apps, they were initially 'designed for connection' but now are designed for addiction. addiction feels like such a silly word for an app that shows you how to make a fantastic spicy gochujang pasta, or lets you watch a fist fight that broke out on hollywood blvd. i mean what other app could produce a collective, yet remote, manhunt, bonding us, if only for a moment. but it is an addiction. i myself have lost hours, days, maybe weeks of my life. let's break for commercial and do the math.

at least a year. a solid year of my life gone with the fucking wind. i've never even seen that film. i could have watched it 1,854 times in the time i spent on social media.