So much of me loves you and can’t stand being away from you.. just the thought of you no longer being mine makes me sick, physically ill..

The nights we argued, the times I cried, the times you were mad and wanted some space..I don’t regret any of it. The hurt was worth it because I smiled so much. I laughed so much.. I loved so much !

Loving you came so so easy to me. I felt like I had finally found what I had been searching for.. someone so relatable, someone so kind and caring.. I truly believed it was all going to work out.

After awhile I knew the problems we were having weren’t just bumps to get over.. they were signs and lessons. I tried to ignore them and I fought so hard to just stick through it all and fight for us..

But it seems like I was the only one who ever really fought. Sometimes when you were in the wrong, you’d beg me not to go.. telling me you loved me.. but asking for forgiveness isn’t “fighting for someone”.. it’s just admitting your wrongs.

No, I’m surly not perfect either.. I have so many flaws! Too many to count actually.. but I never lied, I never looked at anyone the way I looked at you..

I never messaged others with intensions on sharing myself with them, knowing you’d be hurt..

I never let you go easily. I never made you feel unwanted..

& I should’ve never had to experience that from someone who told me they loved me.. because my love was real and I ended up hurt.

So its very hard letting you go.. because you were my best friend , my love and my moon.. but its easy to move on knowing you could’ve loved me better.