This post is going to be a proper apology to Jackie. I don’t know where he is on tumblr anymore and I can’t reach out to him in any other feasible way, so I thought perhaps this would suffice on the off chance that he does see this.

Jackie, I understand that you have every right to be angry, to hate me, and to not accept this apology. What I said to you was indisputably transmisogynistic and for that I apologize. I apologize for being disrespectful in the way I wrote you off, in the way I did not properly acknowledge the concern you raised to me, for feeling the need to constantly defend myself despite being so obviously in the wrong, and for needing to be confronted about it by you instead of recognizing the mistake on my own when it first happened. 

I wrote off what I said as being “just a joke” when it so clearly was more than that. I didn’t take the time to educate myself or to be more cognizant. What I said to you about "men are stupid” and having included you in that statement was wildly insensitive, cruel, and horrifically transmisogynistic and I take complete responsibility for what I said. I do not condone my behavior in the least, I’m sorry.

I truly am ashamed and disgusted of myself and the fact that I refused to recognize my mistakes from the start. It was a major moral failing on my end. I have done a poor job of holding myself accountable to transmisogynistic rhetoric and there is absolutely no excuse whatsoever. It’s my fault alone for having been so ignorant and transmisogynistic.

I also apologize for having been on your blog during the time after we stopped talking and for upsetting you about that. I admit I was still emotionally attached to you as my friend and couldn’t help but to check up on you, but I understand now how incredibly inappropriate that sort of behavior was. I haven’t been on your blog since you made that post, I don’t recall the exact date. 

I am so sorry for so shamelessly disregarding and ignoring you. I recognize how cruel, ugly, and horrifically offensive I was being. It should not have taken this long OR being confronted to have accepted/admit that what I did was transmisogynistic. I should have recognized it from the start and me having failed to do so speaks volumes about what and how much I have to learn.

I didn’t make any jokes about being a cis woman. If you’re talking about my header link, I saw that just now and changed it back to my actual links. The link lead to my old url which I no longer have access to.