female cardiophile, my favorite role: patient

Made a GIF out of my lit up lantern. The flicker mimics a heartbeat. 😍

And I'm still creating stuff.

Hey there,

I know, long time no see or hear. I’m still feeling not good and getting more worse with my health.. December I got infected with Covid 19 and hit me very hard. It wasn’t a mild one! I guess you can hear that this s*it is still affecting my heart and my lungs. I’m wheezing so often and cough and so on... and my heart is more irregular / arrhythmic than before. Hope you’ll like it. How sounds my heart for you?

My first digital art is “ready”. Yeah I guess not perfect but it was my first try with a graphics tablet. I always wanted to own one and finally today was the day. :) What do you mean for a first try? Every beginning isn’t that easy but I think there will be a space to get better with time and exercise. It’s not very realistic but I think you’ll see what I meant to say / show.

Na klar, hier meine druckfrischen Werte

Happy 300 follower anniversary!

I’ve done something different for you. Long time I didn’t draw anything but this time it was something special. I’ver never drew something cardiophilia related but yeah I guess I want to do some more. :)

Here she is or I am. - I’m presenting you

Julia the big hearted curvy goddess

Something about me

Birthday in June

pronouns: she / her

cardiophile since: ever, noticed it in my early childhood, got obsessed / addicted to hearts

cardiophilia forms: romantic, soft, medical, sensual, a bit sexual, dark cardiophilia... I guess from every topic a bit. Loves hearts of every gender. Loves the most to be listened to. But enjoys sometimes to get a listen to others too.

Can you listen to her? - of course! She likes to share live sometimes if there is time and opportunity (on Discord / Skype and will still post some recordings here too. :)

hight: 1,65 m / 5″4

features: different sized boobs, left side is a way more smaller then the right one. Reason: a big heart needs a lot more room so the left one had to be smaller. Benefit of that:  better access to her beating organ. Has a lot of irregularities of her heartbeat. S2 split seems to be presented but don’t know the reason for that, a lot of arrhythmia (but not always), her heart changes often its pace just suddenly, very promptly. Struggles with every sleepless night & day more and more..

TW: arrhythmia / strumbling heart with extrasystole at 2:35

TW: some struggling heartbeat after a while

Y’all I’m still alive but strugging with everything. Here you go for a recording where you’ll able to hear that - if you’ll wait for it. I felt that. I passed out in the afternoon several times one after another. I needed more than a hour to get full conciousness again. And my heartbeat is still not very constant with it’s pace. It was already in the morning like that - that it liked to sped up and slow down within a short time. I can say that’s tiring. 

TW: racing heart

Hey there, last night I caught a suddenly tachycardiac episode. At the start from this recording everything seems pretty normal. BUT in minute 3 it starts to change. My heartbeat kept getting faster. Don’t know why it came to this “accident”. This was at 2 a.m. in the night. And lasted till 6 a.m. Not constantly racing, but never got under 90 and then again to over 100. My highest record of my smartwatch said 125 BPM (later that night) but it’s not very accurate. Often my HR is way more higher than my smartwatch noticed. I had no anxiety, no panic / panic attack, was very calm, breathed slowly all the time, tried ro rest / sleep but couldn’t. With this HR it was completely over. No sleep possible.