I feel like such an idiot, why did I ever think we would be bestfriends. Why dont you love me anymore, what did I do. We used to be so close then I had to compete for your love and I lost. You 2 broke up and I was the one here for you and I thought I got you back. But now I have to fight for it it again, and I dont want to. I dont wanna have to fight. I'm never gonna be your first and I will never be. I'm always second place. Your second choice. I'm sick of being not a priority. I wanna stop caring about you. I wanna stop being friends. But I cant. You've been there for everything. You stopped me from killing myself so many times and you dont even know it. You were the only good thing in my life. And if I drop you ot feels like I have no one. I dont wanna feel that way ever again. But I feel like I'm about to. That's fine
















