love, is complicated

I feel like such an idiot, why did I ever think we would be bestfriends. Why dont you love me anymore, what did I do. We used to be so close then I had to compete for your love and I lost. You 2 broke up and I was the one here for you and I thought I got you back. But now I have to fight for it it again, and I dont want to. I dont wanna have to fight. I'm never gonna be your first and I will never be. I'm always second place. Your second choice. I'm sick of being not a priority. I wanna stop caring about you. I wanna stop being friends. But I cant. You've been there for everything. You stopped me from killing myself so many times and you dont even know it. You were the only good thing in my life. And if I drop you ot feels like I have no one. I dont wanna feel that way ever again. But I feel like I'm about to. That's fine

We kissed, my heart couldn't take it. I had to smile like a fool

I wish I could hold you all day long, you're so soft and nice it's not ok

he lets me hold him because he knows how much i love it

I just wanna kiss your face and hold your hand

I'm sorry if I'm too much, I just wanna be around you.

my heart jumps whenever you give me a letter, message, or sticky note. Because its like I'm getting a little of you in every word

do I think about you too much? like late at night when all I wanna do is hold you, or in the morning when I wanna make you banana pancakes.

she knows I turn red when she hugs me like that, why does she keep doing it

stupid cutie, I love it when you hug me. it makes me blush forever. my teacher noticed.

every time I kiss your head I feel blessed i even got to see you today

Everytime we talk, my heart feels like it's getting heavier and heavier. I like it.