noooooooooo, why did you give bb hudson kinda an out by having k be the one that cheated first noooooooo (because you wanted to ofc, that's why!!! which valid!!). anyway i think maybe there's juuuuust something wrong with me that whenever i see a hudcon fic with 'au - no girlfriends' or get to a fic that doesn't have that but k has done categorically A Bad Thing first before hudcon get to slangin and bangin i'm like nooooooooo i want hudson to grapple with like k being a sweetie generally (not like a perfect angel with no flaws ever ofc that'd make for a boring character but like just still a big sweetie to him generally) and still falling in love with connor cause he just can't help it and still sleeping with connor or crossing some kinda line after trying sooooooooooooo hard not to. hudcon as a ship having one being taken since it's beginning is just so poisonously chewy to me and has inherent angst and a source of mental anguish and torture that you have absolutely included already ofc ofc ofc i love your fics sfm and i'm just a meanie and seem to want hudson (and connor since he's a sensitive boy who is at v least friendly with k and would feel like shit about it at least to some degree too) to always feel even more and The Worst possible amount of guilt available to the human psyche over it apparently lmao. anyway i fuuuuuuuuuuucking love your writing so much. i love how you characterize hudson and connor sfm they feel like i could actually see them doing the things you write about fr fr irl. you're incredible i'm just sick and prone to frothing at the mouth over the worst amount of mental anguish (which also might explain why i read so many mcd fics for hollanov so like yes something IS wrong with me probably). i cannot WAIT for the next chapter (like odessa??????????? i might cry i think)
hahahaha you bring up a good point BUT even though hudson refers to it as an affair in his internal thoughts I consider it more like an exploration of the problems in their relationship. because he agreed to something he didn't really want then got annoyed when he didn't like it and THEN is being a terrible communicator by blanking her the entire time so. I defo think he's still the one in the wrong and she is not the flawed one here! like from her pov she's like great we're opening the relationship also I had someone in mind to have some casual fun with this is perfect! meanwhile he's off falling in love with his costar.
thank you for reading and also sharing your thoughts!!! i'm so glad you're enjoying it despite my relentless determination to make even the background characters slightly morally grey hehe. soooo excited to sit down and write the odessa stuff I got some real emotional torment brewing. connor pov taking him home when they're not boyfriends but they're so in love and hudson is his but not his oh boy....I love the pain
