make me feel

omg the deliciousness of him ever interacting with hudson and/or connor is too much to bear. connor collecting new friends like tamagotchis and well he knows he has a type, these beautiful funny canadians! but what if we can use jack as the classic Troy Actor pawn in hudcon jealousy games because when hudson meets him he’s like ah. ok I get it. love this guy! then suddenly it’s not so funny to connor any more. blue eye lasers set to kill. now it’s hands on his hudson, around his waist, keeping him close, can I sit next to you at dinner? well maybe I can just sit in your lap. do you guys talk about anything other than sports? hudson let’s go. we have that thing remember. yes that thing, you know what I mean! come on. let’s go let’s go let’s go come here oh god come here kiss me. kiss me please. finally. thank god fucking finally

yes you may hahaha I get 25 days standard and I bought 3 extra this year. our holiday period runs April-april and I’ve used 17 of those days already lol (plus 3 to come for the Madrid F1 in September). gonna be a bare bones next 9 months for me 😅 so I will be needing to write copious amounts of fic to deal with it

thank you for waiting for me ❤️ sorry about my stupid holiday schedule the last few months but if it makes you feel better I will be home almost exclusively for the rest of the year and ready for HOT RPF SUMMER ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

but oh yes he’s getting in so close to observe. lips almost brushing hudsons cheek. thumb pulling his lip down, taking his lower jaw with it so hudson can’t help but stick his tongue out. “ike iss” he’s saying with difficulty. obviously doing it completely wrong but connor gives him a soft little kiss on the cheek and says almost baby. almost got it. try again. and each time he does he gets another kiss, a bit longer, a bit wetter, until all pretense of Russian is gone and hudson is sucking on three of Connor’s fingers while he slowly slurps a hickey into his neck. and from that point on they are not allowed to do Russian practise together without a third party

but yeah they are much less famous right and costar romances are a dime a dozen (despite how some people would like to convince you the sky would fall from the earth if Hudcon/concois were together and thus is worth the worlds most complex relationship concealment arrangement). and look truthfully if they do have this crazy special friendship perhaps it is better if they protect it and keep it nothing more than that than let it potentially burn out from the intensity. equally maybe they just need some more time and for their lives to calm down a bit. we just don’t know and whatever will be will be. However I won’t lie I would have loved to wake up to pics of hudcon kissing in Paris 🥲😩

this reminds me of that interview we talked about yesterday where Hudson talks about Connor's language skills and how 'half the time when you're talking to him he's watching how your tongue moves in your mouth' [paraphrased] and like. first of all Hudson perhaps it is because he is enamoured with you and your silky pillow lips. but second of all oh yes anon what an excuse. like a linguistic version of standing behind someone practising golf or tennis swings. just lazily laying on the couch heads two inches apart, hands entwined in between them. say it again, Huddy. and again. tongue against the roof of your mouth, roll your R. roll it. like this. maybe you need to loosen your tongue up. maybe we can practise something else. yeah I have an idea...

you know. those kind of thoughts

anon you're making me sad 😭 I also agree, I think for all his independence he also has a lot of love to give, he says what a hopeless romantic and how soft inside he is and to paraphrase Hudson he deserves only love and hugs. I remember that one interview where he says something like who he sleeps with is something he wants to keep private and obvs I respect that but I do wonder if there will be a time in the future he might want to be more open about it (when fan boundaries are a bit clearer? when he has someone important/steady in his life?) sandboxly I would die if we got a future of non confirmed hudcon but little candids of them wandering around together holding hands or arms around each other. like not saying anything but not really hiding it either. maybe a couple of years after the show ends so it doesn't affect any of their promo for it and they can easily get the publicists to blacklist questions if they didn't want to talk about it (the tomdaya wedding way). great now I've made MYSELF sad too

oh yes let's be evil today for sure. yeah what if the guy is not just fine? what if he's great? Hudson in an available body who also doesn't live another country away? what if Hudson likes him? thinks he's great, actually, the perfect match? he's missed the boat now, truly watched the plane take off into the sunset without him. never seen Connor so happy and can't bear the idea of getting in the way of it. the show's over so they end up seeing each other less and less until they find themselves in the same city by some minor scheduling miracle and go for drinks to catch up. it's never awkward, exactly, but it's not like it used to be, just-friends kissing and lap-sitting and hands on skin under t-shirts. but Connor's drunk and so is Hudson, a warm summer night in Madrid or Sydney, and when they're walking back to Connor's hotel he stops Hudson by his belt loop and says, can I say something. of course, Hudson replies, of course. did you know back then, I was really in love with you? Hudson can't say anything. and I would have told you but I got so in my head about ruining the chemistry that I never did. sometimes I thought.... The sentence trails. Hudson can only look at him, blurry in the warm night. ....sometimes I thought maybe you felt it too. they're breathing in sync again, like the old days. Hudson slowly nods, the motion like a creaking puppet. Yeah, he says. sometimes I did feel it too. Connor smiles, and nods, and then he laughs, and Hudson says what's so fucking funny, and then Connor says, and you're still going to marry her? to which Hudson replies, are you going to marry him? I would have married you, Connor says, voice soft again. I would have done anything you asked me to. A pause again. Hudson's heart beats so fast he's sure the whole world is shaking with it. So ask me, Connor says again. closer, somehow. tugging on those belt loops again. Are you brave enough to ask me?