make me feel

again I mourn for the 24 episodes we would have had in another life...

I honestly couldn't say without projecting hugely on them hahaha but I bet they talk a lot about art and film and probably these days a lot about work too. I also do like to think they spend at least some time discussing what they want out of life and maybe perhaps the endless impossibilities of the way they feel for each other but as I say....projecting...

well that's what they say themselves so yes it's definitely more than possible! however I personally would be very surprised if they have really never gone there even just the one time...

as for the hudson thing i've been thinking about how to answer this ask for a while and i'm not sure I have a satisfying one for you. because really I am here for the fic and the writing aspect of it, obviously I am a big fan of his but more because him and connor are (steel yourself pretentious comment incoming) more of creative muses to me than anything. I guess maybe it has something to do with the way I engage with romance stories in general...like I know it's very common for people to enjoy 1st person POV and basically self-insert but I hate that. as one of life's true voyeurs I prefer to be on the outside looking in and I think it's the same with my fandom for connor/hudson - rpf-ing them allows you to put them in Situations but it's like they're my sims, I'm not involved, just permanently in the cuck chair. I think some of the answers connor and hudson have given to the 'why do straight women like gay romance' do hold true for me - like it is just easier for me when you remove the female POV a lot of the time. presumably this reveals something about me either about some internalised misogyny or self-worth issues i have but we don't need to go all therapy session in this ask loooool

I am super excited for a properly produced long version of the friendship quiz in particular! i've been watching a lot of other ones on reels lately they're so cute. although ofc downside they won't be doing this one glued to each other's side on a random sofa in someone's office...

connor if you wanna workshop the last two chapters of almost heaven i'm down. p.s. can you ask hudson to show me the rpf journals thanksss I promise i'll be SO discreet about it

people were doing what 😭 sometimes I feel like these people have never been outside nor met a real person. in what world are you committing to a matching tattoo but only in a hidden place and only to pretend (and also what does having matching tattoos have to do with queerbaiting...you know what don't even answer it's not worth any of our time)

WELL SEE how about an au where connor moves to new york instead of LA (he's going to be a Broadway Star) and he lives in a houseshare with perhaps some original characters and this charming canadian comes into town as one of his roommate's boyfriends...and perhaps we depart from the adults canon a little more to make this charming canadian also an aspiring actor. and they bond over The Process and auditions and get up to silly little hijinks as a house and perhaps some more-than-friends stuff is happening while the unemployed actors are stuck at home while the others are at work. and we can still end with the visa wedding except obviously we've ramped the yearning up to 11...

anon are you trying to kill me 😭 hudcon alone in public in a place no-one recognises them... I think they kiss on the cheek at the viewing spot but maybe deep in the forest they find some off the beaten track path and end up kissing against a moss-covered tree trunk. I think hudson holds connor's hand to (unecessarily) help him across a stream and they're silly competitive racing each other up a hill. they take photos all the time and hudson hugs connor from behind when they reach a lookout and connor murmurs 'life can really be so beautiful, isn't it crazy?' and I think they dawdle on the way back down, kicking rocks, not wanting the day to be over even as the sun hangs low in the sky and they should get back and eat food that isn't protein bars or bananas.

overcompensating hudson oh I love him so...very foot in both jars of peanut butter to me (such an evergreen quote thank you hudson). every time he's anxiously asking them if they had a good time and wasn't it fun? didn't we have such a laugh? I love this photo of you two i'm going to set it as my background. meanwhile she's annoyed hudson sat next to connor at the restaurant and kept putting his hand on his leg under the table and connor couldn't concentrate on the movie they watched because she was sitting in hudson's lap the whole time. meanwhile hudson is happy as a clam trying to find a chill way to suggest to both of them if they might possibly maybe be interested in maybe having a threesome just once. just to see if they might like it. call it an early christmas present please PLEEEEAASEEEE

also very true anon 🩷 I think he's doing everything right so far to be clear. just hope that one day he gets the chance to be more open (if that is of course what he wants to do)

yesssss I loved it! paul baker my sweet angel...I relate way too hard to anton.... loved their #journey, my fav was definitely when they co-parented the abortion teen lol. Very glad the new season is coming so soon but it does always make me sad than in the past we'd have got 24 episodes to really sit with these characters and build up to stuff like the last episode. 8 is just not quite enough 😭 but still I am glad to have found them!