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i need more insight on connor’s girls squad doing a full on presentation on how connor should handle his crush on hudson and how he deserves better baby. you deserve someone who will fight for you, who will want to be with you without the greys, all in. while sipping their vitamin water and eating their açaí bowl by the pool somewhere in weho. i need someone to fight for him and open his eyes and not settle with half emotions. and maybe he listens, maybe before s2 starts he has a plan. a really good plan (that maybe goes to shambles once hudson hugs him tight tight tight)

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yes the girls are giving him the best advice! no guy is worth that sorry connor! sure he's cute but you're not the emotional side piece you're a whole fucking meal darling! if he can't see that well that's his problem. aren't you done with guys putting off figuring their own shit out while messing you around? there are so many more options out there? and yes maybe there are a few tears but deep breaths, okay, yes, you're right, putting my boundaries up, not letting him crawl in my bed at night again, not letting him kiss me like i'm the only person in the world, no more, just co-workers, I can do this. I can do this!

RIGHT like one of my favourite things with this is the touching under clothes thing. remember in the gq shoot when he hooks his thumb in connor's shorts when they're sitting on the bench? and when they're all tangled together connor has his hands inside hudson's cardigan (I think there's a similar photo of them at the premier with connor's arm around his waist inside the cardigan). and of course how could we forget hi tops finger in sleeve!!!

right like with s2 filming approaching I do think this is one of the tastiest headcanons du jour... and the hollanov parallels, oh, it's so tasty. s1 is all about hiding how they feel, stolen moments, trying desperately to avoid this huge freight train of feelings barrelling towards your car stalled on the railway crossing... and now it's about being together but only you two know how it feels. protecting something so pure and special but you can't tell anyone about it. finding those snatched days and hours to hang out when their schedules seem purposely designed to keep them apart. is what they have enough? even just through the 'private friendship' lens where there's no extra feelings involved it's a crazy life imitates art thing. obviously sandboxly I do love the idea that throwing them into this maelstrom of yearning deep love is the thing that breaks that deadlock and they can't resist it anymore but sometimes I think I should stop talking about that because then I am going to want it too badly irl and be sad when it doesn't happen 😅

but my ask is more about the owen podcast and him mentioning connor bringing food to set and offering him some. it lowkey made me tear up because we know connor struggled with making friends growing up, and hearing owen talk about connor offering him raspberries immediately made me think about school-age kids sitting at lunch trying to make a new friend.

because why is food such a universal “please like me” gesture?? Like a kid offering you half their sandwich or some oreo cookies because they don’t know how to say “I want to be your friend,” so instead they’re just like “here, have a cookie.”

something something about using food as a bridge offering someone a piece of what you have as a tiny way of saying “I want to share this with you.” and knowing connor’s history, there’s something so soft about imagining that kid who struggled to connect with people growing up now being the person who brings raspberries to set and casually offers them to someone. same instinct, different place: “i have something good, do you want some?” except now it’s a set, and i’m emotional over fruit. which feels ridiculous but also… not really???

also these tags made me laugh because adding the hudcon angle (as we absolutely should) makes this even sweeter. like everyone else is overwhelmed by connor’s gestures, meanwhile hudson is fully accepting the connor brought food and wants to share it with me. hudson being the person who just… accepts that? who doesn’t make connor feel like he’s being too much or too intense, but instead goes “yeah, okay, i’ll take the thing you’re offering and i’ll even ask for more.”

I know right, it's genuinely so sweet...(also I lol'd at owen being like can I put sugar on these. GIRL WHAT IS YOUR DIET raspberries are so sweet 😭)

what is wrong with giving the barbies a little relief after all the torture we put them through anon...

yeah I do sometimes reflect on that, and jacob talking about them when he says they're super close but now they've kissed A LOT, because yeah it is kind of wild?! to be so close to someone emotionally and also physically (for the job!!). like lest we ever forgot connor has had hudson's nipple in his mouth multiple times! maybe closer to 10 when accounting for multiple shots of the same scene!! he has kissed his inner thigh, both of them had their hands in the other's pants (obviously not dick in hand but like. even if that hand is a fist down there the back of you hand is still pressed against dick through underwear....like especially in the cottage bj scene where we know they improv'ed a lot are you telling me hudson is wearing padding in those short shorts? when connor FULLY has his hand up in there just out of shot? for what reason was that needed??? living in the character?????)

even as gen z i am oddly endeared by how millennial coded connor is. this compilation forgot the millennial face he makes when he dances in that quinn video and one red background photoshoot video too. the videos he made as a kid def give off he was watching millennial youtubers endlessly back then and it bled into things. i also find how earnest he is to be a little millennial coded too. not that gen z can't be earnest, we can! the earnestness without hiding it behind a joke or wanting to come across nonchalant like in the tiffany video or the entire shut up evan video makes me feel like he's had someone our age call him corny at least a few times (or saccharine if someone was feeling fancy at least once). connor just gives off very hopecore, he would fit right in with being like 22 in 2014 (idk how to describe what i mean with that last part but i also do)

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we are both trapped in the quicksand of the sandbox then anon because yeah this is soooooo!!!! I actually am kinda fond of the idea maybe they are not speaking so much right now, they got all out of rhythym because they've been so busy and swapping continents so timezones are a mess, and they always relied on random calls in the day before and they suck at scheduling them now. so yeah there is a bit of nervousness. has he changed more than me? have I changed, are we not two halves of the same soul anymore? they're telling stories forgetting the other person doesn't know who they're talking about, so many new co-stars and crew and industry people. but it's that first kiss that does it. like their bodies remembered a language they half-forgot. it's better when they talk just as shane and ilya, better when they let their hands move, hips roll, foreheads press together. the first 'I love you' on set sends a shiver down their spines and fuck, that's what it is. they just needed to hear that out loud again.

In #the sandbox you’ve created a nice community of people who just want to be silly, some days angsty, or thoughtful, or generally play with dolls. Without involving tarot cards or conspiracies against papa Tierney or whatever the hell else is going on on that main h**c** tag. Did you set out with that in mind? Or was it more - it’s more fun to write with a prompt so I’ll see what happens?