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Thanking hudcon for realizing the slap that happened while they were playfighting could be added to the blowjob scene to make it even better. And thanking Chala and Jacob for going along with it! Filled with such gratitude that we got to see that scene on our TVs and can rewatch it any time we want! I rewatched that scene at least 10 times when the episode came out. It's one of my favorite parts of a fabulous episode.

Hudson being so comfortable with each other whether they're pressed together head to toe, sucking tongues, tonguing nipples, kissing wombs, licking all over, or smacking the shit out of each other really elevated the show in so many ways.

Connor and I were kind of goofing off in the makeup trailer, which was a cottage that was a two-minute drive away from that cottage, getting ready.

I was preparing my monologue the whole morning. I’m prepping it, working it. Then Connor, being the great scene partner he is, he was like, “I’ll be here doing this.” Then he did something and we were hitting each other, goofing off. Then he’s hitting me, hitting me and he did this slap. I was filming myself on my phone doing this. I was like, “Do that again.” I couldn’t hold in my laughter because it was so brilliant. It’s so funny, and it makes sense for where they’re at in the story.

I remember showing that to the intimacy coordinator. She was cackling. She’s like, “You have to do that.” Then Jacob was like, “Go for it. Go crazy.”

The first take was the first time I broke broke because Connor is taking all the liberties. I am shoving him. I’m slapping him back. I’m putting the phone away to get in the gasps and moans. I’m so happy with how that scene turned out.

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a very good ask to follow up on the last one haha I totally agree!!! I actually really don't like that scene in the book (I can't remember exactly why but it felt a bit too much like shane wasn't into it and it grossed me out a bit) but in the show it's soooo good. like Ilya knowwwws shane wants it and shane's like 'no aha don't suck my dick [places dick at mouth level]' and the play fighting/slapping was such a genius addition. making it a competition because they are ultimately two crazy competitive people but also showing how comfortable they are with each other and how much trust is there....so so so grateful forever for how much hudcon understood their characters in these moments.

This series of gifs wallops me in the gut every time. The amount of feeling they put into acting out hollanov's emotionally significant first time penetration is just AHHHHHGHH.

I don't peer at any sex scenes in other final media anywhere near as closely, but I love all the little nose squishes and bumps that heated rivalry has. It makes it feel so much more real to have those imperfections left in. The forehead rests and rolls, too! Remembering the one Shane does when riding Ilya. The way even when they're intimately connected they're still finding other ways to touch each other. The desperate handholding during those first blowjob scenes was just amazing.

Now I want to do a reheat this weekend!

when your situationship tenderly takes your anal virginity

All the while hudson has it a bit easier cause he is still tied to his previous non famous life through his non famous partner. There is trust and familiarity and stability. But it brings other complications too of course (great analysis on the blog from you and anons today btw!).

Makes it all the more important to surround yourself with good people who can look out for you and give comfort and advice when necessary.

(In connors case it might even help that at least one of his agents, both managers, and his stylist seem to be gay. They seem to have a good relationship. So who knows, maybe he could turn for advice to them, especially on how to navigate fame and a career as a queer man without invading his own privacy but still living authentically).

I just wish them the best. Selfishly even. So I can enjoy their artistic endavours in the future. And maybe get a tiny look at their cute bond.

I remain convinced he's got a private account at least for his close friends/family to follow (but then again considering how people are apparently able to find hudson's so easily...perhaps not). like there must be ways to do it, maybe you only let your friends follow from their own private accounts....maybe he's just using snapchat or something for the disappearing messages (spoken as someone who has a nearly 10-year long snap streak with my best friend). I also think he will return to posting one day, he's probably just figuring out how he wants to engage with fans and also how open he wants to be with his private life and obviously right now he is very much trying to keep that away from the public eye.

haha it is important to always recentre they are Just Some Guys but I do think (maybe unable to exit projection city) that since they are both self-proclaimed artists/writers/creators they are somewhat more clued into their psyche than your regular mid-20s man. like iMO you cannot create good art without being aware of your own feelings and emotions (see that post a few days ago about good fanfiction coming from longing...I think that's true for all art really not just writing. you have to have a chasm in you somewhere that is dragging you into it black-hole style) also remember these guys are flinging terms of endearments and I-love-yous around like paper airplanes, while being aware of how non-conforming that behaviour presents as.

Legit, if Connor pops out with anyone that is not a man 10 to 20 years older than him (10 years older feels a little too close in age for Connor lol even as a minimum, but hey) (lesser details, but still would kinda surprise me if this is not also the case: dark hair and dark eyes and artsy/involved in the arts in some way) (even lesser details that I'm just pulling 'cause he gives off the vibe: hypothetical dude is probably not American, but if so then like first-or-second generation and the guy would be much much more likely to be called "handsome" rather than "pretty" or "cute" ever) then I would be so, so, so thrown off lmao.

Hudson, however? He could literally pop out with almost anyone. I mean any gender, any ethnicity or nationality, age range of 21 to 45 lmao, they could give off most vibes (probably leans more artsy too though), shy or outgoing, behind the camera or in front of the camera or nowhere near a camera/the industry job, and I would look at them together and go "yep, sounds about right."

sorry my tagging system is awful but it’s all in the sandbox somewhere!

I am partial to the idea that Plot-Significant Boyfriend is european (artsy Berliner? gorgeous Frenchman? tall blonde scandi?) also for the sandboxly implications that he makes hudson feel soooooo inferiority complex. oh sure of course he’s travelled the world and has a second home in Monte Carlo and knows a Danish princess and is spending the summer making a documentary in Japan. and he and connor just flit in and out of each other’s lives and hudson is like well obviously I am too much for him. too clingy and too boring.

and as for hudson… he’s rebounding from the breakup at the speed of light. he has 3 one night stands before he falls into a relationship again and maybe he’s also dating multiple people at the same time, using every ounce of his fame privilege, stuck in an intoxicating cycle of being loved and wanted and it somehow isn’t enough. and connor is biting his tongue like wow it really is so easy for you huh. and you never once made a move on me so I guess there really is nothing there. I was stupid for hoping things would change.

yes hahaha I mean I try not to look toooo closely at the cynthia-and-ariana-esque competitive body dysmorphia thing hudcon have going on…but you just know hudson shut himself in his room that night mouthing Wow under his breath googling ‘how to get shredded in four weeks’ scrolling Connor’s instagram and zooming in on his abs.

it was about posting personal things 😭😭😭😭😭😭 not her pls.

just wanted to say that i would prefer him to use sm as business bc fandom is very greedy and usually people will expect more (which sad bc i also enjoy the content)

sorry if i didn’t explain myself, english is not my first language

No ask just - this is you in the sandbox tonight. Wildfires in Ontario? No that’s the steam coming off liz hazmesentir’s keyboard

Tbf, tbf I don't think anon is being cold or anything. I mean even with the very heavy weight of sudden fame removed (and fame to this level; which will eventually die down at least to some degree especially the pandemonium aspect of it) (which...probably has quite a bit outside of just the outskirts of the fandom tbh, but I wouldn't know for sure since I'm in the cottage moat with everyone here still), most people do not end up with the person they started dating at 18/19 forever and ever anyway. But it would be super cute if they did manage the long haul though! They really are so freakin' cute together.

Also, can I be a little drama fiend for a second? I wish I could eliminate death threats and harassment of partners (for a myriad of reasons) because a lil sprinkle of lighthearted drama of the first time Hudson (only if K and him break up, of course...wouldn't be lighthearted otherwise omg) or Connor date someone like famous, famous would be fun to witness (I kinda wonder who the person would be like; another actor? Musician? Model? What kind of personality do they present to the world? What do they look like?)

yeah I do think they are not really mega famous, they're more famous to people like us who spend a lot of time on the internet lol. I mean connor could walk around one of the busiest parts of london for days only getting spotted 2/3 times...tom holland for e.g. can't do that.

But then I make myself a little sad remembering, even if Connor wasn't so private, we probably wouldn't get to see any of that anyway. You know the optics and ramifications of being in a queer relationship and all that while trying to build a career, just sucks.

Connor dropping the Russian accent on "bye" after the (sweeter than what was written in the script!) stairwell kiss drives me crazy. What's up with that? His accent slip on "go?" after the frottage scene (I haven't been able to find an actual source about the ADR being needed because they forgot to say their characters' names during it, but if that is the case...also, what's up with that?). Jacob asking for another take in ep 2 because Connor "but he's being so nice to me" Storrie couldn't handle Ilya being anything else to Shane after they sleep together for the first time. Hudson feeling physically ill when Shane leaves in ep 4. Characters' actions bleeding into them, Hudcon "our chemistry came naturally, we had to work on Shane and Ilya's" Willrie bleeding into their characters. What's up with that? Also, the bleed in either direction is going to be so fun with season 2 now that Hollanov are in love and know it. I'm so excited we get to watch them perform characters in soulmatism love again and smooch and love up on each other in a bunch of ways in like 9 months.

you can take my hudcon sandbox gold tier membership away from me for this but I don't hear the dropped accent on bye i'm afraid 😭 I think it's too similar to tell. but the 'Go' was crazy, I noticed it even on my first watch before I was fully hudcongealed. btw I don't think they said the ADR was because they forgot, that's just headcanon- if I remember correctly the reason jacob (?) gave for that was that it was too quiet so they had to dub over.