Just Another Brick in the Wall

I dreamed that an old long lost friend was back in my life. Someone that I've been missing so hard that it still hurts me every day. Someone that I've tried to get in touch with, but they have moved on and forgotten about me.

It's so stupid, being so beat up and depressed over someone who let someone else decide that they couldnt be friends with me because we were too close. They let their partner say "no, you can't be friends with her anymore if you still want to date me."

It's been over a year. I shouldn't let this bother me anymore. But I cared so damn much about this person, and they just cut me out like I was nothing. They were my best friend, and I theirs. Well, actually I guess I wasn't.

Some days are easier than others.

Just hearing his voice again made me cry.

It's been a week.

And just like his old ways, the weekend rolls around and he's with his friends and I don't exist. Except now, he's in a different country. He won't be coming home tonight, so he knows there's no reason for me to get upset, and if I do, so what cause he's so far away. I probably won't hear from him until late Sunday or Monday. And really, I'm not all that surprised.

Here goes. Night one.

I'm trying really hard to not get upset. I'm sad and lonely. The house is really quiet.

I'm like desperate to talk to anyone, trying to fill the emptiness that is the house right now.

I'm not looking forward to it. Or all the excited posts from other people.