I never wanted this

Me: what?

Me: I have adhd I literally have a neurotransmitter deficit that prevents me from remembering things

*checks time again, 2:41 am”: “I’ll go to sleep at 3″

*checks time again, 4 am*: “Fuck it, I’ll just stay up, I need to get up at 8 anyways”

For example, the hardest part of cooking for me is preparing the ingredients… So to get around that, buy pre chopped and frozen vegetables. Or do it yourself in bulk when you have the spoons for it.

I usually get frozen onions and peppers cause if I buy them fresh, I end up throwing em away. But frozen stuff keeps for much longer.

Another example is that I found myself delaying going out to buy groceries cause putting on socks and shoes is an effort (I know its odd). So now I just wear sandals and so it’s much easier.

Brain: No. It is now time for Sit In The Bathroom and stare at Wall for an hour

you want to watch a movie. you put it on. two hours have passed. you haven’t watched the movie. there are five new tasks in front of you. you want to watch a different movie.

there is an object in your hand. it is extremely important you don’t lose it. you look down. there is nothing in your hand.

you don’t know your friend’s name. you’ve been friends for months. they just told you their name. you do not know their name.

your friend doesn’t laugh at your joke. why didn’t they laugh? do they hate you? they assure you otherwise. you know they are lying. did they ever like you?

someone asks you what you just said. did you say something? you said so many things. you said nothing. you said everything.

there is something you’re forgetting. you check. you check again. there is nothing you’re forgetting. there is something you’re forgetting.

you had something to say. you can’t remember. it was important. wasn’t it? you can’t remember.