≡;- ꒰ °haunted꒱

when robert smith said “i look back at the piggy in the mirror” i really felt that

i need to lock in

ive been big and small and big and small and big and small again

i need to be the prettiest and the funniest and the nicest and i need everyone to like me and i need to like all of my interests more than you and i need to be the best at my hobbies why is there always a better artist or singer and theyre always skinnier than me i cant do it

why is there always somebody better than me ive been replaced already

skinny males dni

sometimes i remember i have great friends and i have opportunities and people do actually believe in me but it just makes me nauseous because i know im probably not living past 22

my bandmates probably dont want a fat singer

if i spoke to my 13 year old self rn she’d probably be shocked at everything that happened but atleast she still has a mega crush on robert smith