only way to go is up, one meltdown at a time

.... right so, while i know i don’t owe anyone art (i create because i love it), this little corner of the yellowjackets fandom, especially the taivan-loving part of it, has become something i hold close. the friendships ( and the connections i’ve tried to nurture since i first joined the fandom), the late-night conversations, the way people show up for each other here… it's been really special.

i’ve been hinting here and there about life being a lot lately, and the truth is, it’s been a lot for a long time (… let’s be real, we are all going through some shit lmao) i guess for me, i think it's the mental illness of it all that i can’t always stay on top of. there’s a sort of vicious cycle going on, it's hard to break out of it