On butch4butch Daddies and boys
This was a Substack piece I wrote for a friend, who then had a follower send an angry message about how specifically triggered they were by everything in my personal self-reflection. They took the post down but I think it is worth posting here.
If you don't want to read about a butch Daddy and a butch boy, anal sex, fag, dyke, trans people, pronouns, sexual trauma, healing, mention of family death, and polyamory, then scroll on by...
If you picked a favourite paragraph from one of your published pieces, what would you pick?
"Mmm, filthy little fag. Getting your cock sucked in the locker room by the rugby captain. Getting your ass fucked open, ready to take Daddy's cock."
"Yeah, Daddy," I'm desperate to agree. We had talked about this earlier over text. Her calling my cunt my ass. Calling me a fag. Talking about sucking my cock. It's all gender and hotness and dykefaggotry. I don't actually have any interest in anal, but hearing a masculine butch Daddy talk about fucking my ass in the locker room for being a faggot makes me hot in ways I can't completely explain.
I love the gender fuckery here. I love to be called a dyke, I love to be called a fag. Butch4butch has such an enormous spectrum of gender, and that's something that I play with in my stories. My butch characters are cis women, trans women, transmasc, transfem, nonbinary, and genderqueer, with titles like Daddy, Sir, and boy, and who use a variety of pronouns.
This particular scene features a jockstrap, a rugby captain "bullying" a nerd in the locker room, and a Daddy and boy — very gay male inspired motifs for a couple of butch dykes. I have always felt an affinity for gay men and see a lot of erotic overlap between gay male and butch4butch lesbian desire. This particular story really expresses that.
Read more here: Bully Me, available for free online: https://butch4butch.com/bully-me/
Why is writing the body, or erotica, important to you?
Writing erotica has been instrumental in my healing from sexual trauma. It allowed me to enter into the realm of safe fantasy, fantasy that I am 100% in control of because I am the writer, and the only things that happen are because I want them to happen. I was able to explore my desires in a safe way. It gave me language to express what I want and don't want and maybe want to potential partners.
It's also been a way to create the kind of sex I want in real life. Pretty much all of my sexual and romantic partners have read at least some of my stories, and quite a few of my stories are dedicated to or inspired by them. While it started off as a form of inner self-reflection and healing, it's a tool of flirtation and seduction now too.
Also, frankly, when I'm horny, I'll reread my favorite stories of mine and jerk off. They're my personal fantasies after all, written exactly to my taste.
These are selfish reasons, I admit. This is why I write: for myself. But I publish most of my stories online for free for a different reason.
Because when I read butch4butch erotica for the first time, my whole world opened up. Reading George's Boi changed my life. It sparked a new kink (Daddy/good boy), new sexual desires, and new gender feelings. It made me feel affirmed as a butch who likes to bottom. And, it ultimately inspired me to write my own butch4butch erotica.
People have messaged and commented that my writing makes them feel desirable or understood or seen. People have told me that seeing another stone butch bottom/pillow prince have a healthy, loving, fulfilling sex life has helped them feel hopeful for their own sex life as a butch bottom, or a stone top, or a switch.
Receiving a message like that is priceless. I write for myself, but I publish for butches.
If you imagine you are talking to a young queer writer, what advice would you give?
Read more. And keep writing.
What's on your writing desk?
I have an hourglass, Lego plants, a small carved wooden heart from my late grandma, a notebook from my childhood best friend, my favorite pen from my partners (Van Gogh's Wheat Field with Cypresses). My collection of vintage lesbian books is on the shelf, and curled on my lap is my favorite writing desk accessory: my cat.
How can we find and buy your books?
You can read many of my stories online for free at butch4butch.com or on AO3.
If you would like to read my stories a month before they are published publicly, you can subscribe to my Patreon.
You can find the links to buy my books at linktr.ee/butch4butches.
