have you been saying your prayers?

just asked my sister if i should rewatch supernatural and she spat in my face

characters who can’t escape characters who are TRAPPED characters who try so so hard to get away from the Torture but are always dragged back screaming and crying and pleading with god and in the end they end up pinioned like bugs, their cold dead wretched hands still stretched perpetually out reaching for the freedom they never got..

i want piercings all over my body and tattoos all over my body and testosterone in my body and i want to make this body mine all mine and make it a home i actually want to stay in for the rest of my days

beat my meat last night to imagining fucking sam on the kitchen counter and it knocked me clean out i slept for 10 hours

love when my dogs facial expression does not change one bit when she sees me but her tail starts wagging like crazy. good to know she’s autistic like me

god is trying to get me to kill myself today.

i need to be punched in the face so hard my head snaps back and hits the wall with a crunch and a beautiful arch of blood sprays from my nose and i swallow a few of my own teeth and i see white light

this is so sam winchester core ugh

literally just wishi was dead

literally anything and everything is triggering for me nowadays this is fucking mess

gibson girl is such a sensual song ughhh fuck

sometimes i think about how sam winchester is literally the character of all time and i start getting emotional