Kill Me Fast💋

“I recreate myself; that is my only power.”

“Konzentriere dich auf die Dinge, die dich glücklich machen. Der Rest ist deine Zeit nicht wert.”

“All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”

If the person you’re with never changes, will you be happy with them for the rest of your life? Because if they haven’t changed by now, there’s a very good chance they never will. You’ve told them the things they need to work on, you’ve told them what they do that hurts you, you’ve told them how they could fix the problem—probably multiple times—and they’re still actively choosing to not correct that behavior. That is them disrespecting your boundaries and not giving a fuck about how they’re making you feel. Is someone like that really someone you’re comfortable being with? Or have you been settling? I ask you again, if nothing in your relationship were to change, and it were to continue on forever as it has, as it is now, would you be happy with that life, truthfully? With that person? Is that something you can gladly accept? If the answer is no, I urge you to please quit seeing their potential and consider if they truly are the partner for you and if you genuinely see yourself completely satisfied with them based on what they’ve shown you so far. Don’t look at what they could be or what they could do. Look at what they are and what they are doing. Prioritize your contentment; if the voice inside your head is telling you that the person you’re with isn’t right for you, please pay attention to that. Intuition exists for a reason. Don’t stay if you know you’ll probably regret doing so later. You deserve the love you’ve always dreamed of having, and it’s somewhere out there waiting for you. I promise.

“You must understand the whole of life, not just one little part of it. That is why you must read, that is why you must look at the skies, that is why you must sing, and dance, and write poems, and suffer, and understand, for all that is life.”

Someone wakes up in the morning and checks their phone for your Good Morning text. Someone can't fall asleep without wishing you Good Night. Someone gets ready and skips putting on make-up 'cause you complimented them on their skin's natural glow. Someone walks up to their wardrobe and before whining that they have nothing to wear, picks up the same outfit from yesterday 'cause you said that it suits them well. Someone looks forward to their lunch time 'cause they get to see you in the cafeteria. Someone eats their lunch with a smile plastered to their face 'cause you shared a meme they could relate to. Someone orders tea instead of coffee as they remember your love for the former. Someone learns to prepare the perfect cup of coffee, just for you. Someone laughs more often 'cause you told them that it sounds adorable. Someone smiles amidst tears 'cause you told them that they have the most beautiful smile.

“Ich begreife, dass Liebe grausam sein kann. Jemanden so sehr zu lieben […] muss sich anfühlen, als würde man sein Herz außerhalb des Körpers tragen, ohne dass es von irgendetwas geschützt wird.”