Emmie could almost feel herself shutting down at the quote, sitting down cross legged on the bed. But she had promised that she was going to try - and while that was completely unlike her, maybe it even meant that she had feelings - she knew that shutting down wasnāt going to help.Ā āOkayā¦.Iām trying to think and not shut down so I just need a second,ā she said, letting her thoughts fall into place,Ā āLike I know that I started it and then you saying that just made all of this feel real, and now Iām just freaking out andā¦ā she trailed off, before trying to start over again,Ā āLike we said we were going to try and be friends, but this,ā she said motioning between the two of them,Ā āisnāt what friends do. And like I donāt necessarily know what it is and like Iām not mad, and Iām kind of curious, but also Iām fucking terrified. And Iām pretty sure that Iām not making any sense.āĀ
Sadhbh nodded and grew quiet for a long time before finally speaking in response.Ā āNo youāre making perfect sense.ā She had always been a very friendlyĀ person, especially around the girls she was close to. So she had always had slightly stranger boundaries than a lot of people.Ā āHonestly itās felt... I think weāve both felt for a little while that this thing between us isnāt friendship or hatred or anything like that. It kinda feels like weāre more than friends. And Iām...ā The irishwoman trailed off for a second before looking up at the roof to centre herself and try to find her words.Ā āIām okay with that. We can go as slow as we want to. But Iām willing to try this thing and see what comes of it. If you are. Like... you just have to ask, and Iād be honoured to you know...ā Fuck this was gonna be risky.Ā āTo be your girlfriend.ā