maybe if I would’ve stayed, she wouldn’t have left me away. All alone; still alone. Leaving me here in the dark and now I don't know what to do or where to go and when I turn back and look, I don’t know where I came from...not just in life and present but even in the past, how did I reach or meet her, and I don’t know why?
Maybe she left for a reason. Maybe her leaving was better for her than staying and waiting just a bit more for me. Maybe her leaving was better for me than her staying and waiting for me. There are too many plausible explanations and reasons she left.
Maybe she could have given me better answers while leaving or maybe it’s better she left with few unanswered questions from me. We don't know but maybe it’s better for both of us that she decided to leave and took that step; but I am stuck here now. it has been so long now, yet I am here thinking about her- sometimes late at night, sometimes during a normal day of mine, sometimes even it’s a crazy busy day i do find her somewhere in my mind and it’s hard. But you can’t make anyone stay, stay for only you or stay for you so long that it might hurt them, it’s selfish to even think about asking someone to do that just for you.
I was away for few months, and I don’t know what she went through and maybe...just a maybe I victimized myself and blamed her for leaving and whatever the situations were and became cynical while along I was being inconsiderate and never really checked up on her. Got so busy in making a path, a new future that I did not notice what she is going through and when she is lying about her feelings just so I don’t sit and worry about it or her and normally do my work as I am doing and go on with my life.
Maybe I couldn’t express myself and how much I loved or even now I love her.
Maybe it’s all a maybe because we at last we couldn’t get though everything, all the hardships and all the promises we made to each other.
And now the song playlists that we made for each other is all we have to remember and stay in touch with each other. Just through old love, memories and songs is we have now.
turnnoffyourmind
areudirty
2087
prguitarman
tangentwithtanner
dailybridgerton
origamiaround
yousharknotpass
gummygunk
