EMBRACING OUR UPBRINGING . . . . How we do so is personal to each of us. . . . . an old article reposted by request.
"It was just me and mom growing up. She had me when she was 16. She had several boyfriends over the years. When I was 11, I would start peeking when they were in the living room. Got an eyeful several times. Fucking. Oral. Then I would go to my room and rub myself. I taught myself to cum that way. When I was 12, I got caught. Mom was pissed, but her bf wanted me to come in the room. My mom tended to use sex to get ahead, so when he was interested into me, she said ok. She taught me to stroke his cock that night. The next time he was over, I learned to suck. There were other boyfriends, and when I was 14 she was dating her boss and decided he would be the one to take my cherry. She helped lower me onto his cock. He also liked watching mom and me play together , so we did. When I was 15, I got into a situation with my grandpa, separately from mom. I took care of his needs for three years before he passed. He mostly just liked oral, but he was also the first in my ass. He wasn’t a very nice man, but I miss him. I have several multiple active sexual arrangements today. All stemming in one way or another from my upbringing. One is that my mom is engaged now. Herfiance has full privileges."
"I was usually excited about it. Made me feel grown up. A big secret no one my age should know. I’ve embraced my upbringing."
Shared by a very real follower and fellow tumblrite who is and not just considers herself independent, confident and self assured. She's an adult now, sharing her past which "is what it is". Why I post this rather edgy message is to demonstrate (a) what happens in the real world occurs more often than we think and (b) the outcomes aren't always 'horrible" but can be, and (c) that things sensual and sexual weren't and aren't the focus of her life but is a very real part of who she is because, for we women, whatever we feel about "morality", are aware that "sex" is always with us-again, we deal with "sex" every day in ways large and small, from the ogling eye, the knowing smile from others, the "looks" we receive and the minor to major "flirting" we engage in. Most don't see these as "things sensual and sexual but they are. When I asked the sender to share how what happened in her life affected her she responded as you see: "I was excited about it. Made me feel grown up. A big secret . . . "
I've heard it before and more than once. For you see, I grew up with a single mom. My situation wasn't the same but I'm aware and I have to wonder when I had my own daughter if that is why we are as close as we are . . . . but that isn't the topic is it?
First and foremost, I'm not and never will advocate for the violation of any laws especially in this regard. And each of us will read this through the lens of our own experience and "opinion". So be it. She has embraced her past in the sense she doesn't see sex as such is a sin, realizes she is a sexual being, is discreet and prudent as an adult and indulges when she wishes without the usual guilt and often with a sense of humor when she watches other women as they engage in convoluted explanations where xian morality and lust clash. Simply said, she has to smiles when she sees other supposedly morally upright women who want to engage in hot, down and dirty sex often with someone not their significant other. Think about it.
One can face things sensual and sexual in their lives with a sort of fear where the Almighty is displeased and the fires of hell await, or, more important, how they are perceived by others who seemingly abhor such behavior. Sexual interaction and sensual arousal are part and parcel of who we are . . . . what is shared here isn't a confession or her saying "I wish this never happened". All of us, all the time can look back and wish this or that had been different and it has nothing to do with sex. One topic that I often hear from other women is this one . . . one that men don't want to hear . . .and that is that "the guy I really wanted got away". The other: " Tom was the guy that I really wanted but wasn't reliable. Harry is".
I have wonder how many women married Plan B or C or even D for that reason and find themselves dissatisfied in the end. An interesting question and one known only to the wife. We do seek security . . .someone dependable. And, being practical, engaging in casual sex is just that. However, xianity teaches that in order to engage in actual intercourse or sex, etc, one has to be married- Its the ticket to sexual freedom but even then the xian wife can find engaging in things sexual under the watchful eye of the "church", xians and the xian Almighty Himself has its own limitations which dulls the sensual experience if one is honest. The "can't do's" and "shouldn't do's" and "Im not sure so don't do's" abound. If it feels wicked it is so don't. The problem is arousal is just that . . . .arousal and we often feel "wicked" so, what the hell, we're screwed in the "been had" sense. I've discovered, as I travel in my lane on the left hand path, that "embracing one's past" can mean many things . . . How do we deal with our past and the memories? How do we respond to the present as we look back on how we were brought up and those influences be they negative or positive?
When it comes to sex and things intimate especially when we want to experience these things we find that society and the religions have their demands, requirements, proscriptions and other measures which we are supposed to abide by but can't because (and I know I am saying the same thing over and over) we aren't created asexual. Just as boys suddenly realize they are boys, we girls discover our clit. And boys so from a very young age we learn that we are pursued. yes, Not so much that we are different but we are desired simply because we are women, females, girls. So things sensual are suddenly "there" in front of us". How do we deal with this? Especially when we get older and have to confront our desires and the desires of others?
This isn't an article on what one should do because every situation is different and everyone has their own rules about conduct despite how we are informed otherwise. The mind is what it is and cant' be controlled even if the church with it's "sins of thought" attempts to do so. We can learn to go thru the motions when it comes to what to say in this or that situation but how we really feel and what we desire, our lusts, etc, are all within us and can't be. As a follower of the Dark Lord I refuse to let xianity and others say I can't think this or that or jill if I wish when I want or even engage in casual sex with whoever I want be they whoever they are in the privacy of the bedroom so who the hell knows. Catch my drift?
Embracing our upbringing is one thing. Embracing our "real me" as our sender here has embraced her upbringing, is another and governs how we are now. Ginny doesn't feel "oppressed" by what has happened in her life. THAT is what it means to follow the Dark Lord.
Yes, this article can be compared to a shotgun blast-all over the place when it comes to certain points. All of this brings back memories, very private, very secret and very "grown up". However, what stands out in this moment is that our sender has a very close, some would say extremely close, positive relationship with her mom.
I can go on but will stop here. Forgive the flaws. Certainly this is
'edgy". Real life not only can be but is.
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