JUST A LOSER

Deep in her heart, she wasn’t sure she deserved to be happy, nor did she believe that she was worthy of someone who seemed… normal.

“Aries:Fighting isn’t always the solution. There is nothing wrong with deciding you need to turn around and run. There is nothing wrong with deciding to hide from this war. It doesn’t feel right but sometimes the right choices we have to make feel like shit. But it’s better than the alternative. Taurus: Forgive yourself. Let what you use to do and who you use to be part of your past. I know the memories haunt you in scars on your skin, but you are more than your tragic backstory or the people who tried to wreck you. Gemini: Put down the knives, the fists, the guns. Put down your weapons. You have been fighting for so long you can’t even see who the real targets are anymore, can you? Give yourself a break to straighten it all out. Cancer: It’s okay to slip up. It’s okay to be sick sometimes. You do not always have to be this perfect person. You are allowed to have flaws and to be damaged. If they don’t like it then fuck them and move on. Leo: You’re taking the hits meant for them. If no one else is saying thank you, I am. You are being a bigger person then the one throwing punches or the cowards hiding in the corner. You’re putting a target on your own back to keep others safe. Thank you. Virgo: If the people in your life can’t handle you when the storms come, then they don’t belong there. If they can’t pick you up at 4 AM off the floor even though you’ve told them a thousand times they might have to, then they are not brave enough to belong with you. Libra: No matter how much you love them, you can’t bring them back. You can’t make them be part of your life just because you are so in love and miss them so much. I wish it worked that way, I’m sorry. Scorpio: There are better days and more sunsets ahead. You just have to hold on for them. I know it’s scary and overwhelming. But there are so much more on the horizon and it is coming, just please hang on. Sagittarius: It’s okay that the sadness comes back some nights. That it gets bad some days. But the way you got the scars the first time was being very quiet and letting yourself get hurt over and over again. If the monsters come back please don’t be silent this time. Capricorn: You are worth more then the bullshit they tell you to keep you around. I hope you open your eyes and see what their doing isnt just selfish it’s almost fucking abusive. Wake up, and run. Run as far and as fast as you can. Aquarius: Put the bottles down. They won’t help you. Hiding behind a vice isn’t going to do any good it’s just going to mask the problems with the marijuana smoke. Time to come out of the shadows and see what we really need to fix. Pisces: Never be scared to tell the truth. As scary as the attacks that may come for you, but it’s better than staying silent and waiting for the next person to get hurt. You know better.”

“My anxiety is silent. You wouldn’t even notice a change on the outside but I’m honestly so stressed I can’t even manage simple tasks. People call me lazy when in reality I’m just overwhelmed.”

“Sometimes you are so emotionally drained that even sleep doesn’t do anything anymore. You wake up still tired. And it just doesn’t go away.”