🌸 han 🌸

I actually made an instagram because I got so bored during ECQ period. 😏

I left church this year because of all the issues arising in my life and I felt like I don't want to feel the pressure given by people who don't really know my struggles and shrugs me off with their toxic religious positivity, I don't have enough time to contain that in me. Regardless of what's continuously happening, I know that He is loving and wise. I may feel empty most of the time but I know He is watching over me and keeps on holding me together. I'm happy I was able to listen to this song again after so long. This is such a good remembrance.

I have to admit that even before quarantine and this whole pandemic situation and with the ever-so-stressful Philippine government making everything worse, there’s a lot of things over my head - making me anxious and basically, life is wearing me out. Gladly, I am still able to do work and earn in the midst of these trying times, though I have to tell that it’s not really the same thing. I feel a lot more lazy here in the house than in the office to do the work and stuff that I’m starting to hate working every single day and just can’t wait for everything to be over. Well, to be fair, I also felt the same way when I was working in the office before the lockdown, but at the time I was really glad that I was with my boyfriend and he gets to accompany me going to work and back to my home and of course, going to dates and doing relationship stuff that eases my mind. These whole stuff just really makes me more anxious, stressful, and is very heavy for me to carry. I just wish for all of these to be stopped immediately because no one’s having fun over all these happenings, it just brings out the worse in people and is breaking everyone’s hearts. It sucks to be experiencing this. Not a single person here on earth wanted this, even introverts. Quarantine life is never gonna make me well even though in all honesty, I always wanted to isolate myself from a lot of people. 

missin' this vibe

You are my best friend, my first love, my worst enemy, my food buddy, my travel pal, and most of all, you are my most favorite human. Know that I am the happiest whenever I am with you and I wouldn’t dare ask for anything else. What we have is special, I wouldn’t want our love in any other way. My heart is grateful for all that you do and for all the love you freely keep on giving me. I love you, always and forever. 💖

I stand with my beliefs and principles. I hate to see people cheating and their friends enabling such acts, specially ruining relationships. I would rather lose them than keep lying and cheating enablers that would eventually bother me for the rest of my life. I don't mind not speaking with anyone of these kind of people the entire time I'm inside of that floor, I can't even imagine eating with them anymore. I can't and will never tolerate such acts.

You'll eventually be the person you said you will never be.