Hannah Lee inst@lillywillowvintage

 Ego is of our construction, our own ideation of who we think we are, who we think society thinks we are and hides behind “I” -therefore an entirely false identity. How do we relieve ourselves from the demands of the ego? the ones that crave pleasure and satisfaction at the means of another being and at the means of people we care about? Our mental construct of “self” is so artificial we spend years trying to find ourselves in this overflowing and suffocating dramatic cesspool just pulling us down deeper in the vines. I have hurt the people who mean the most to me because of this reinforced thought that I am a bad person, I am a terrible person and I do not deserve. I am entangled in visions of the past that grasp me at both my heart and mind-infused with memories of helplessly screaming while he watched and listened. There are no more bruises, but the scene is a relentless fight swarming and clawing at my heart-emptying me of compassion.