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hwo i feel while picking out the littllr bug egg lookinh thigns from my ksinn 🤤🤤mmm buug

my biggest regret is inteoducing an ex friend of mine to warhammer. hes larping it like crazy and i will never forgive myself for it. he’s also just a creepy bitch dudewhats his issue 😂😂 the things he’s said to me and about me before 😂😂😂i fuckign hate him so much him andn his stupid dimwit brother im so glsd theyre gonr they shuold jsut die 😂😂😂 theyre so inbred it hurts😂😂kill thenm nwo pleasseeehdh i hate thenm so much they wnnana be me ssooo fuckign baad 😂😂😂 but thehy cant cuz im literally perfct in everyr way😂😂

this is so sweet im tearing up tysm

today was a good day. took a bubble bath, freshened up, laid down in my cold bed, while listening to compilations of heinrix’s voicelines while i build in minecraft.

i dont know why, but ever since i started yumeshipping with heinrix, i’ve been weirdly happy. i dont wanna die anymore, and i dont wanna do horrible things to others

as stupid as it sounds, he saved my life. and i am eternally grateful. i love him so much.

am i even a real artist? i barely know what to draw, i have no motivation, and my mental issues make it so hard for me to draw. especially digitally.

it kind of hurts because ive always wanted a collection of art of my ocs or ships, and i have all these ideas but lack the energy or skill to execute them. sometimes, when i realize drawing isnt as simple as just putting lines on surface, i break down and cry.

artistry has always been a curse to me. yet it is a curse that i hold dear to me. it like like a drug, once i start, i cannot stop.

and i really, really want to be happy and proud, i really do! but it’s just so hard because i cant help but remember that I’m essentially a fraud. i look at works that i used to consider my magnum opus and feel nothing. my art doesnt make me feel anything. i don’t appreciate my art. i can’t.

it hurts to draw, too. It hurts my hand, my mind, my eyes. i don’t like drawing but i cant stop drawing. I wish i was a good artist. i wish i wasnt so mentally weak for this

i am forever kept up at night by the fact that i once said in a dnd campaign “i am a princess. i have ridden—carousels…” which is funny enough on its own but TEN times funnier with context.

dear tumblr…when i block someone that means i dont wanna see any of their posts because i am trIGGERED by them. i do not care who reblogged it and what they thought about it. i did not want to see the original posts at all point blank. sincerely, dante.