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Dollface S01E04: Fun Friend ( 2019 - )

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minerva !
minerva mcgonagall always tried to be conservative when it came to picking her favorite students of all the children she had seen grown up . she had always held a soft spot for the exceptional students that passed through the castle ; the students who exceeded in her class and were well behaved . those were the students that she would sing praises for . she loved all her students to her core , but she would never deny that warmth that would spread through her when her exceptional kids became more exceptional .
however , and minerva would take it to her grave , the soft spot she held for the smart kids — the arrogant class clowns held that same soft spot .
so when the informal ❛ min ❜ hit her ears at light speed , the witch was vulnerable to the molten lava that flowed straight through her veins . ❛ gideon prewett ? when did you get back from america ? ❜ she quizzed , getting back up from her desk to stare down at the boy—- well man now that sat on her sofa . laughter flooding through her lips when she watched him transform from fabian to gideon . ❛ my goodness it’s almost terrifying how much you & fabian look alike , ❜ the professor spoke under her breathe , taking a seat on the edge of her desk .
❛ well , i cannot disagree with you about the clothing but you could also press your shirts , ❜ the witch started , the grin on her face starting to make her cheeks hurt , ❛ furthermore , there are zero exceptions to my rules and you should know that , mr . prewett . how many additional essays did you have to do for me , hmmm ? ❜ she teased , raising her eyebrow slightly .
❛ so what can i do for you , my dear ? ❜
gideon !
his chest swelled with pride , his smile only growing more apparent as a look of shock crossed her features . gideon loved to surprise people . he had a flare for the dramatic memories of his mom screaming her head off whenever he did anything remotely dangerous . gideon , i swear to merlin ! she would shout . you’re gonna be the death of me ! he wasn’t sure what it was , but something , call it an inkling , told him his mother wouldn’t be quite as pleased with his surprise as dear minnie was . the bastard would be grounded at twenty-two , confined to his childhood bedroom so he could THINK about what he’d DONE .
the rule was to keep his secret from anyone and everything , but gideon couldn’t very well keep up the charade without a little help . dumbledore understood and provided a few exceptions to the rule . while he always wanted to succeed in academia , he never quite measured up . it was a sore spot . his pride was injured , dangerously so , and minerva was the only person who ever remotely helped him heal it . gideon trusted her , and apparently so did dumbledore . “ i hear that happens with twins , ” he mused with a mischievous smirk . “ and technically , i’m NOT back ... not really . ”
“ i’ve been told mum is a word you’re familiar with ? ”
“ oh , minnie ! what’s that phrase ? i know that i know nothing ? which , actually , is my reason for being here even though ... again , ” he pointed in her direction , “ i’m not really here . ”
the red head leaned forward , elbows resting on his knees as he studied the woman before him . she hadn’t aged a day ( a fact he would have mentioned had he thought flattery would help him in any way ) . “ remember that speech you used to give ? y’know , ” he coughed , continuing to talk in a higher , more feminine voice , “ you can be anything if you just put your mind to it . ” gideon coughed again , as if the higher octave screwed with his throat . “ well , i’d really like to be my brother . academically speaking , of course . ”
dorcas !
dorcas could not stop that small laugh that came through her lips when she locked eyes with fabian , letting a genuine grin fall on her face when she took in the redhead . throughout the years at the college , dorcas was not used to seeing the man in the library this late and this early into term . taking a few steps to get closer to the boy , dorcas placed her hands on her hips . " are you following me ? " dorcas teased , grabbing another book from the shelves , " i accept your apology but only because i scared you as much as you scared me ! “ the young witch continued to tease , taking the boy in and letting her eyes roam him up and down .
” i do have to ask however , " dorcas started , smiling up at him as she opened the book in her hands and bringing her eyes down to the pages , " what are you doing in the library so late , fabian ? "
gideon fabian !
“ well look at you , ” gideon teased , an impish grin crossing his features as he mimicked her posture , “ standing all akimbo , checking me out like i’m a book on one of these shelves . ” he was wearing a look that one might find odd , yet fascinating . it was one that he frequently adorned as of late , the wizard adopting a smile that couldn’t seem to pass the precipice . as if he was inherently amused and disappointed at the same time . and unbeknownst to dorcas , he was . he was amused by her . amused and content and anxious and infatuated : a series of emotions that had no business mixing . and the disappointment ? that came from his inability to do anything about it .
rules dictated gideon stopped flirting . they dictated gideon kept his hands to himself . rules dictated honestly fuck the rules . gideon hated them . but unfortunately , he was supposed to be fabian , and that fucker LOVED himself a clusterfuck of rules . so the man paused in uncertainty . “ i didn’t want to be in my apartment . ” he answered after a moment of silence , honestly slipping from his lips . “ it’s a ... different kind of quiet . not as inviting as a library . ”

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dorcas !
who: open — dorcas meadowes
where: hogwarts college library at midnight
dorcas couldn’t help but find a soft comfort in the library late at night . it was desolate at this time of night and she found that in the darkened aisles of the books , she could finally breathe comfortably . it was the only time during the twenty four hours of existence where dorcas felt like she did not have to watch what she said or how her body language was perceived . taking a deep sigh into her lungs , dorcas flipped through the aged parchment of a potions textbook — letting her fingertips trace the fading ink as she tried to find the one thing she was looking for . a specific ingredient , but she found herself having zero luck to find what she needed .
her musings interrupted by the sound of footsteps . dorcas knew that she was not the only student who found solace in the candle lit room at night , but she had yet to see another late night soul any time that she stepped foot into the four walls . rolling her eyes , dorcas went back to the book . huffing loudly as she continued to struggle , snapping the book shut dorcas all but threw the book back into place . turning over her shoulder , dorcas locked eyes with a person . a gasp escaping her throat as she placed her hand over her heart .
❛ merlin ! fuck ! you scared the shit out of me ! ❜
gideon fabian !
he hadn’t sought out to find dorcas . in fact , after spotting the beautiful witch , he thought very seriously about rushing off and forgetting all about his randomly acquired motivation to study . gideon was often shameless when it came to other people . he would joke , flirt , and stare without a care in the world . but for whatever reason , he really didn’t want to come across as a stalker to the witch before him . frozen in place , he wondered if he could manifest some dormant powers of invisibility . unfortunately , he wasn’t fast enough , and her gasp caused him to gasp too .
“ fuck , same ! ” he said as his heart raced , only realizing a second too late how un-fabian-like his reaction sounded . “ which is strange , ” the wizard tried to backtrack , rubbing his hand against his chest , “ seeing as i knew you were there . anyway , eh ... i apologize . i didn’t mean to scare you . ” don’t get me wrong , that shit was hilarious , he wanted to add . but he refrained , choosing instead to remain gentlemanly . ugh .
minerva !
who: open — minerva mcgonagall
where: temporary office of minerva mcgonagall at hogwarts college
minerva mcgonagall thrived in her work, stretching herself working at both hogwarts and the college . call it ambition or call it her want to see her students all the way through their education . . . she would say it was ambition . ❛ now phyllida , ❜ she spoke to her secretary as she walked into her office , ❛ i need you to send these owls off before four this afternoon , ❜ minnie spoke , stuffing the woman’s hands full . ❛ furthermore , i need cop—- oh ! hello , ❜ minerva stopped, taking the familiar face that was in her office. smiling , she gestured for them to take a seat before taking one herself. ❛ i’ll get back to you later , phyllida ! if you will excuse us . . . ❜ she added, flicking the door closed with her wand.
❛ i don’t normally accept visitors without appointments . . . , ❜ minerva said underneath her breathe , ruffling through the parchments on her desk. giving her visitor an eyebrow raise , allowing them to continue.
gideon !
he waited impatiently , the picture perfect image of patience . confusing , right ? to simplify it , gideon stood with a smile on his face , playing a game of pleasant head-nod tag with phyllida , all while shouting a myriad of curse words in his head . it was as if the secretary kept forgetting he was there ! her smile widening every time she looked up , nodding a greeting to the man who had already said hello five times .
yes , woman ! i’m still here . and no , i don’t wanna hear your thoughts on muggle stamps !
when minnie showed up , gideon practically fell to his knees and thanked whatever god was listening . given phyllida had probably already added fabian to her christmas card list , gideon would have to practice his stealth . avoiding her was key . been there , done that , not buying the bloody t-shirt .
“ but i’m the exception to your rule ? ” he asked rhetorically , lazily lounging in the nearest seat before pulling out his previously tucked-in shirt . you’d think the fabric was burning his skin with the sigh of relief that slipped free . “ i swear , min . this is why those uppities at the ministry are so miserable all the time . s’not the workload ! it’s the damn clothes . put me in a position of power and i’m causin’ a war . all because my shirt rumples every time i sit down . ”
Sure, and after you’ve finished with it, keep on picking until they’re all done.
carys !
Carys, not one to ever hold her tongue, was dumbfounded. Her stunned silence was short lived however, tonight was not for anger, annoyance, nor any other emotion tied to the mouthful she had had to listen to earlier in the day. She turned to him, “I suppose you’re also one of those blokes who likes to look on the bright side, see the silver lining of it all?” Her arm extended as vocal flourish caught in the end of what she had just said. She meant it all in jest, all a tease, hoping he would catch that as she raised an eyebrow playfully.
gideon fabian !
“ it’s why my eyesight has gone to shit . always looking directly at the sun , ” he laughed , raising his glass in a silent cheers before taking a drink . “ now what about you ? glass half-empty type of gal ? ” the blonde had a lovely smile , but gideon would be the first to recognize that a lovely smile didn’t always mean a happy person . it was really hard to gauge nowadays . everyone had at least a little darkness in them it was just a question of how much .
amelia !
everything seemed to move at a slow pace before her. the words were never supposed to leave her mouth, not here and not directed to him. the blonde loathed when people pitied her and she knew he wouldn’t. though there was something about having said the words aloud that made her shoulders go slack and nausea rise from her stomach. the witch had never spoken of those weeks to ANYONE , not even when the order tried to set her up with a healer after they rescued her. those memories made her remember why she had started all of this. to share them with someone, seemed almost impossible. emerald hues watch as he pays for their tab, every inch of her body feeling like stone. it’s almost as if the young woman is out of her body, watching everything happen in front of her. then the paranoia quicks in. narrowed eyes search their space, everyone is immersed in their conversations. though she tried to take in the details around her, knowing better to underestimate her peers.
what had she expected? for him to just let it go? to let her go? her feelings were mixed. she wanted to hope for something positive, but her heart knew better now. people afflicted pain, they left you to bleed out. his voice pushed her reverie out of her mind. c’mon. he still wanted to spend time with her? he could endanger himself, fear flushed her cheeks. amelia knew she was poison to the people around her. before she could flee, her feet followed him. maybe she was SELFISH, the need to be near him winning over anything else. why was it so difficult to deny him of anything? the witch knew how to stick up for herself, merlin! she had fought death eaters by herself. but one auburn haired man with soft eyes and a warmth she could not deny, melted her from the inside. how could she look at him while knowing that?
voices seem to pass by her, her mind elsewhere. a breeze pulled hair off shoulder when she realized they were outside. curious eyes shot to his face. where would they go now? would anywhere truly be safe? to speak, to call him by his name, not his brothers? the blonde squared her shoulders, weakness would not win. she would not let it. “ where do you expect we go now? ” heat makes it’s way once again to her cheeks, her tone was not helping her case.
gideon fabian !
there was something soft about his expression . comforting . gideon had a gift when it came to appearing empathetic mainly because he was , but it was always something more . something that let the people around him spew truths and secrets . they trusted him and trusted he would be there when he was needed . it was why a majority of his friends felt betrayed . why it was worse than a person simply moving away . he was a lifeline for many , a method of feeling better despite all the shit and piss . gideon prewett was the living embodiment of something he could never give himself : peace of mind . so the expression he wore was something amelia probably recognized . it said , ‘ your words are safe with me ; your feelings are safe with me ; you are safe with me ' .
“ we could go wherever you’d like , ” he replied in kind , his eyes studying every feature to see if anything had changed . four years apart and she still looked the same , albeit a little more wise . a certain spark was missing though , and without the flame , the young man found himself feeling a bit cold . “ wait , ” he paused , a gentle smile beginning to form as he nodded to the left , “ c’mon . ” it was a place he used to drag her to during their trips to hogsmeade . a cute little corner that was forgotten by the world . during the fall , the single cherry blossom stood out amongst the rest . pink surrounded by reds , oranges , and browns .
‘ fun fact : this tree reminds me of you . ’ he once told her . ‘ yeah , yeah . quite laughing ! i’m havin’ a real moment of sincerity here . look at my face . stone cold serious . but really , mia , s’like ... a rare source of color within all the bland bullshit . but no matter how hard they try to hide you , ya always stand out . so don’t let those bastards steal your color . yeah ? i’d be very put out . ’
“ remember this place ? ” he asked as they turned the corner , his hands in his pockets to protect them from the slight chill . no matter the weather , the poor bastard always had cold hands . his gaze wandered over their surroundings , the sight tugging on his heart strings as he suddenly wished he was still at Hogwarts . things were much simpler then . more beautiful . amelia was safer then , kept distant from whatever monsters had hold of her now . but sadly , life didn’t work that way , and gideon prewett was left with nothing but his memories .

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dorcas !
feigning a fake scoff, dorcas let her gaze sweep the boy up and down. wrapping her hand around her necklace, she sent a wink in fabian’s direction. ❛ you know the proper thing to do after a lady gives you her praise is to give some back, ❜ dorcas joked, letting her body relax into the playful banter that was being thrown around the table. through all the years that she had known fabian, she’s never felt so comfortable around him until this year, the last three years of her college experience has only been small conversations with fabian but now her heart ached a little remembering that this was his last year and he would be off to be with the rest of the aurors next year. biting down on her lip, dorcas could only hope that this prewett wasn’t going to run off to america the moment after he graduated.
❛ no you can’t say no to gideon , " she reminisced with a laugh, her heart wandering to the man she said goodbye to so many years ago. her body fizzling with the melancholy and heart break. without a chance to fight the memory back, dorcas felt her vocal chords ramp up. ❛ i swear the amount of trouble he would get us in ! i’m almost certain that at one point he convinced me that we should ❛ borrow ❜ a broom from one of my fellow slytherins and take a ride around the black lake at midnight ! ❜ dorcas continued on, her words busting apart at the seams from all the laughter that was leaving her lips, ❛ or maybe i just dreamt that, however we both know how gideon is , ❜ she finished, taking a deep breathe to get back all the oxygen she had just expelled.
dorcas let her heart swell for just a moment before a clean cut of shame and embarrassment filled her body from the little show she had just put on for fabian, she was sure that all he saw in that moment was a twelve year old girl with a school yard crush. her cheeks bright red that her skin shone like it was illuminated by a red porch light.
tearing her gaze away from fabian and the memories that were playing a loop in her head, dorcas picked at the skin around her pinky. ❛ well , i’m sure i don’t have to tell you that your brother used t— is like that. arrogant and reckless. even in my subconscious , he is a menace , ❜ dorcas said, biting down on her tongue. it wasn’t that she wanted to talk badly about gideon to fabian, but in a weird way it was almost cathartic to tell fabian that , his identical twin , gideon was a piece of shit. it was as close as she figured she would be able to get to closure— in a backwards sort of way.
leaning back against the booth, dorcas let every thought dissipate in favor of mouthing the word ❛ manky ❜ back at the man. letting her grin widened again watching fabian put on his little irish accent. letting out a honk of loud laughter, she slapped her hand over her mouth to cover the sound but it was no use, she had already caught the eye of some of the other lunch patrons. she could have sworn that she saw a couple sneers on their faces. ❛ manky ! ? manky . . . ❜ she teased, trying the word on for size, ❛ how eloquent g— fabian, however i do have to tell mrs. prewett about this ranch fiasco. only to save her poor, sweet heart from further embarrassment from the two of you ! ❜
snatching a single menu from their wall, dorcas leaned over the counter almost completely. her entire torso laid out of the table just so she could use the menu as a wall to block their faces. ❛ i guess, you’ll just have to introduce me to this ranch and tell me all about the time you spent in america . . . but only in private, because i can’t have anyone doubting my english pride ! ❜ she whispered to the boy, gracing him with a small smirk.
gideon fabian !
“ i like your shoes . ” his response was quick , comedic , and also very true . but if gideon was to truly sing praises in the witch’s name , it would be a bit more telling . he would reach deep into his figurative pockets to pull out the list he’d created over the years , feet and feet of fictitious paper discussing her courage , strength , and intellect . discussing the ridiculous way her smile and voice remained engraved in his mind despite the distance that poisoned them . truth of the matter was , he had memorized every nook and cranny of dorcas meadowes . gideon prewett knew her blueprints inside and out . he wasn’t sure he would , or could , ever forget .
and it seemed like she remembered him too . the way he wanted to be remembered . gideon looked hard for any signs of anger , but her laughter melted away his concern . she was laughing ! like music to his ears , reminiscing about their years of unadulterated teenage bullshit . back when they were free . “ we do . we really do ... especially since that definitely happened . he told me about it . wouldn’t shut up about it , actually . ” the wizard wore a gentle smile , lifted by the happiness nostalgia brought , but worn down by the heaviness of pretending he wasn’t involved . not to mention the not-so-subtle way his features shifted when her demeanor switched up . and there it was . the sign of anger he had been looking for .
the worst part was that gideon couldn’t be bitter . he couldn’t sit there and stew and swear he didn’t deserve it . he knew he did . he deserved all the biting comments and scoffs . too many people were hurt by his selfish actions and he bloody well knew it . “ he could be all those things , yes . i like to think he’s grown . ” the wizard paused , all too aware he was treading dangerous waters . “ but you should know dorcas , he talked about you a lot . it really ... it feels like i know you . and i know it’s not my place to say , but , despite what happened , despite him leaving ... gideon adored you . ”
he was thankful for the reprieve from his depressing thoughts , his smile returning as he shrugged . gideon , like his father , often fell victim to an extremely irish lilt . it got him a lot of attention in america and fabian was sure to warn him that he would have to work on it to sell the lie . they were twins , but fabian always spoke like an aristocrat . it was a cliche that the stupid twin should speak with a thick accent while the brilliant one spoke beautifully , but apparently , cliches were cliches for a reason . “ oi ! you’re going to tell my mum ? ” he made an ‘ oof ’ sound , as if having the wind knocked out of him . “ y’know , you really had me fooled ! that pretty face of yours . i had no idea you were a rat . she’s going to ground me . do you know how embarrassing it is to be grounded at twenty-two ? i don’t even live at home , but it’ll stick ! ”
his smile widened , white teeth being showcased as he nodded . gideon forgot he told dorcas that he had never been to america . it was a fleeting comment and he wasn’t sure why he made it , but he was thankful she’d forgotten . “ alright , ” he whispered with a playful wink . “ you should be careful though . eating ranch is a gateway drug to wearing red , white , and blue , and singing twangy music . ”
carys !
As the sun dipped further towards the land, Carys’s patience slipped further and further away from her mind’s eye. The boatneck collar of her jumper rubbed against her collarbone and though the luxe cashmere was hardly an abrasive fabric, the sensation coupled with the kind of afternoon she had had was leading her directly towards the nearest pub– she needed a drink, a smoke, and to forget about the Howler she had opened unknowingly in front of a group of damn near strangers. The voice of her grandmother rang through her ears, speaking French although in a tone that was universal. Carys had fucked up and only one thing could save her from a litany of sub-sequential owls calling her a disappointment, while she was hardly above grovelling she knew better than to play all her cards right away. While the weekend would be for sending flowers and gratuitous notes of half hearted apologies, the night ahead of her was for drinking and lots of it.
She walked into the pub, her heels softly clicked against the aged oak floors and some god awful tune pumped through the hall. Some upbeat ditty about how it would all turn out all right in the end, her eyes rolled involuntarily as she slid into a seat at the bar and ordered a drink. “You’d think this kind of song would be illegal outside a primary school,” she joked to nobody in particular.
gideon fabian !
“ excuse you , ” gideon replied , keeping any curse words at bay as he tried his best to appear professional . stately . fabian-like . what he REALLY wanted to say was ‘ excuse the fuck outta you ’ , his irish lilt much stronger than his brother’s but he refrained . “ i happen to like this song . ” he lifted the glass to his lips and allowed the amber liquid to burn his throat . it was a medication , surprisingly not prescribed by a doctor . he did have a prescription though ! written by himself on a random sheet of paper with crayon . totally legit . “ although arguments could be made that i only possess a primary school education , so ... there’s that . ”
amelia !
the young witch could feel his gaze on her. taking this opportunity she started to occlude, to retrieve. she didn’t really want to do it, the simple thought of telling him everything overwhelmed her. the blonde had learned over the years, that people always left, not matter how hard you fought for them to stay. that view of life was not his doing, her family had painted that picture in her brain way before him. her walls needed to stay up, no matter how badly she wanted to reach over and loose herself in the auburn haired man. her memories of them tucked deep inside her, it was easier to actually look at him. maybe she could pretend he had never broken her, maybe she could tuck all her memories off him away. would that fix anything? maybe; maybe not. maybe she was weak, not wanting to face her heart when it came to him.
at times, over the years after he left, the blonde would close her eyes and relive her memories of him. she tried not to indulge too often, sometimes it scared her how vividly she still remembered him. the slop of his nose, the sound of his voice when provoked or determined. very much the same she noticed when he leaned in to whisper. wide emerald hues took him in, his lips, his soft expression. the very juxtaposition to his words, very much ready to actually do some damage. amelia did not answer at first, taken aback. her heart started to beat just a fraction faster. his pleading whisper and the intensity in his eyes, made her walls crumple. occlumency did not help her this time, the memories spilled before her. her parents, his promises, their stolen moments. the next words that left her mouth surprised her. “ i was tortured.” why oh why would she tell him the truth? this was not going to go well for either of them. the blonde jumped to her feet, she had said too much. the need to escape running through her. “ I-I should go.”
gideon fabian !
whenever someone described the young wizard , they often include warmth as an identifier . not just because of the red in his hair , but because of the fire in his irises and the heat of his stare . but at that moment ? his eyes were glacial in their appraisal of the blonde witch before him . tortured . perhaps it was wrong , but gideon always likened amelia to something precious . fragile . she was a strong woman , he damn well knew it , but he constantly feared breaking her . if he were to touch her , hug her , it would be gentle . while he was rowdy with others , he was soft with her . to imagine someone purposely hurting her ? it made no sense . it churned his stomach . “ okay , ” he nodded in understanding , fishing in his pockets for change to pay for their tab .
when she said she should go , he knew she meant alone . she said too much , there were too many people whatever the reason , gideon wasn’t invited . but he couldn’t let her leave after that . not alone . not without him . he stood from his stool and nodded toward the door . “ let’s go . c’mon . ” he didn’t touch her . not only was he aware of how LITTLE a right he had to do so , the wizard had no idea what type of pain she endured . if it was physical , he could only make it worse by making contact . “ ‘scuse me , mate . ” he mumbled apologies as he walked through the crowd , shooting back glances to make sure amelia was following him . if she had a problem with it , they could discuss it outside . it was much too loud in the pub anyway . too many people .

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dorcas !
dorcas would be lying to herself if she didn’t say that her breathing had stopped as she watched fabian get closer and closer to her. she felt every little pulse of energy in the tiny space between them, her eyes jumping back and forth between his lips and his eyes. a smirk taking over her face at his ❛ you’re being mean . . . ❜, she knew she was. the tingles in her fingertips and the butterflies in her stomach told her exactly what she was doing. dorcas could feel the words she wanted to say just waiting at the edge of her mouth, but they got stuck when he moved once more.
dorcas waited and waited for what felt like a lifetime for fabian to move just those last few centimeters. her heart hammering in her chest, her entire thoughts silenced for even just a moment as she waited for him to make the move. no matter how hard she wanted to be the one to do it, she couldn’t.
but in just as quick as the moment had come between the two of them, it broke. watching him retreat back to his half of the table, dorcas shook out her shoulders. her cheeks nearly the color of the boys hair and she could feel the heat radiating off of them when she placed her fingers against them and grinned. however, she couldn’t stop the thought of gideon pass through her head. a fleeting butterfly of guilty mixing with the ones of desire.
❛ i think you’re doing just fine for yourself, fabian prewett , ❜ she said with a grin, ❛ you’re too… you’re just… you— you are fabian prewett. you’re going to be the best one to come out of this college and we are all just going to living in your shadow , ❜ dorcas finished, letting her hand wander back over to rest just beside his hand, not touching— just resting by.
watching him way down their server, dorcas sighed. keeping her face as straight as possible during their conversation. in reality, dorcas was just in the dark as he was about the whole event but a tiny piece of her wanted to believe that it was just a couple first years being awful but she knew, deep down, that fabian had a point. despite all of the tensions and thoughts blazing through her head, her mind was brought back down to the ground by the sound of his voice.
listening to the boy order, a small laugh left her lips as she looked up at the older woman who matched her confusion at the odd order. smiling at their server, dorcas spoke with a soft smile, ❛ oh that sounds lovely, i’ll have the same as him but with vinegar on the side ! "
their waitress giving her a nod of approval before teetering off to send their order through to the kitchen. ❛ i’m sorry did i hallucinate or did you just try to order ranch ? " dorcas teased, scrunching her nose at the man, " that soundly awfully american of you, " she continued to tease, leaning back behind their wall and into the man’s space again.
❛ i think you need to prove your still english, fabian, i’m having doubts now , " she whispered, smirking at the man.
gideon fabian !
dorcas wasn’t aware , but her words cut gideon deep . a serrated blade straight to the jugular . he adored fabian of course he bloody did but the last thing he wanted to hear was how brilliant he was . gid grew up with it . those sentiments bled into his skin like an unwanted tattoo , staining him for life . and to hear dorcas meadowes be the one to say them ? it was a right slap to the face . he looked down at the hand she placed beside his and a certain sadness flittered across his features . it was a fleeting moment , almost impossible to see unless someone was really looking . “ by all means , keep talking , ” he joked , swallowing back the black bile that formed at the base of his throat .
drowning in his own bitterness , gideon pulled away , moving his hand away from hers as he leaned back against the booth . he looked at the waitress with feigned interest , as if the way she wrote down orders was the most fascinating thing he had ever seen . he knew he was being childish , and he inwardly scolded himself as the waitress walked away . “ okay , listen , ” he forced a laugh , gaze falling back on dorcas as he shook his head from side to side . “ you know you can’t say no to gid . the bastard wanted to me to try it and he wouldn’t let up ‘til i did , ” he paused , knocking his hand against the table , “ and , let me tell you , i hate that he was right . you’ve got to try it . ” now that he thought about it , gideon wasn’t sure fabian ever took his advice . he’d have to follow up on that . surprise fucker , you eat ranch now .
eyeing her with amusement in his gaze , his clicked his tongue against the roof of his mouth . always the jokester , easily soothing his disappointment without really trying . she was constantly reminding him of why he was always stuck in her orbit . despite the anger he felt , the confusion and harsh bitterness , he always felt better when she smiled . “ oi ! don’t let my mum hear you say that . i’m an irishmen ! i’m already insulting our ancestors by ordering water instead of beer . but if it will make you feel better feck off , lass ! i’m knackered and feelin’ a wee manky . ”
dorcas !
dorcas could not help but giggle at the man’s ineptitude to say mignon, a simple word that she knew he was purposefully saying incorrectly but she felt her stomach wishing when she watched his lips stumble over the word. dorcas didn’t know fabian prewett as much or as well as she knew gideon prewett, but what she had always painted about fabian was a hard shelled perfect son. however, she could feel that paint start to crack as dorcas start to saw this other side to the man. she had always seen gideon and fabian as two totally different people, but now she was seeing them as being two sides of the same coin.
staying behind their make shift curtain, dorcas smiled at the man. for even a quick and fleeting moment, dorcas imagined that the person before was gideon. her palms itched to reach out and touch his cheek, to trace the length of his jawline before she reached his li—
a shiver ran down her down her spine that shook her knees, breaking her out of the fantasy that was brewing in her head like a cauldron of love potion.
❛ mignon. watch my lips, fabian , ❜ she teased, placing her pointer finger against her lips. ❛ mignon. think min and yawn , ❜ dorcas finished, wetting her lips before pointing at the man before her. ❛ your turn , ❜ she said, with a laugh coming from her throat at the absurdity that was a prewett.
❛ however, i don’t think we should underestimate the first years. they’re like eighteen. they known what they’re doing , ❜ she said, examining the face of the redhead. searching for something that she was not sure about. ❛ it was definitely in bad taste. however if, and i mean if, it was someone other than a stupid first year then i don’t think you’re a worrywart for taking it seriously. a threat is a threat , ❜ dorcas said, placing her hand on top of fabian’s for a soft pat before recoiling it. even their hands felt the same.
fiddling with her necklace, dorcas pressed her fingers against her skin. leaning in closer to the man, ❛ and hypothetically speaking even if it was someone else, why would they just leave the message and not do anything else.. if you know what i mean , ❜ she whispered, her eyes wandering around the diner and watching for anyone privy to what they could be discussing.
clearing her throat, dorcas leaned back ever so slightly, biting down on her bottom lip. ❛ now where is our server, i’m famished , ❜ she said, looking over the wall of menus.
gideon fabian !
where fabian was controlled and calculated , gideon was chaotic and free . he fell victim to his impulses , the wizard a walking embodiment of the word ‘ reckless ’ . had he been himself at that moment in time , he’d be on his third drink , and he sure as shit wouldn’t be attempting to keep to himself . but he remained steady ( or at least he tried to ) .
like the good little boy he was , gideon did what he was told and watched her lips with ease . his pupils were dilated to an ungodly degree , a humming noise reverberating in his brain as a playful smile began to slowly form . “ you’re being mean , ” he responded instead . the message was that he found her teasing rude , but his lingering gaze implied something else . it wasn’t the teasing that he disliked .
his breathing was labored , chest rising and falling without any discernible rhythm as he leaned forward even further . it wasn’t a game and it needed to stop , but gideon remained transfixed , rooted to his seat with his lips only a few inches from her own . he could be mean too . leaning closer , and closer , and closer , the heat of his breath was the only thing keeping them apart . had it not been for the wall , he could only imagine the looks they would get .
when he finally broke away , he had to plant his hand on the cushion beside him . it was the only thing that helped him steady himself . his cheeks were a vibrant pink as he took her words into consideration , desperate to move the conversation along . he had an extreme moment of weakness and it needed to be forgotten . that wasn’t very fabian-like behavior . “ do they ? i’m jealous . twenty-two and i still don’t know what i’m doing . ” he paused , taking a few calming breaths before lifting his gaze . “ feel free to disagree . ”
he nodded in agreement , all too happy to wave the waitress down with a bright smile . “ a warning perhaps ? ” gideon whispered to dorcas , eyes conveying a message as the older blonde finally approached their table . the woman’s grin faltered slightly as she noticed the wall dorcas created . “ we like privacy , ” he commented before tilting his head to read the contents of the sideways menu . “ turkey sandwich with chips , please ! oh , and a side of ranch if you don’t mind . ”
the woman paused her writing , eyes whipping up to gideon as he took down and folded his menu . he hadn’t even noticed his slip up . “ i’m sorry ? ” she asked in confusion , causing the wizard to furrow his brow . fuck .
“ garlic . ”
“ oh ! ” her features brightened as she scribbled down the rest of his order . she turned to dorcas and gideon caught a glimpse of the note she wrote : american sauce . yuck . okay ... rude .