thoughts. despite ellen being a #womaninstem she is not by any means a feminist i think she leans masculine because it gives her a feeling of being grounded and in control and she can't take herself seriously unless she performs her image of serious which is a man. i think she goes from moderately unfeminine to actively antifeminine as the situation with the ghost gets worse. trying to counterbalance how vulnerable and violated the ghost can make her feel. and how she's being trapped into her house and behaving like a human pet. she's not really aware she's doing any of this but also if you ask her whether she thinks femininity can be as powerful and serious as masculinity she'll definitely say no #myoldwoman

also she has a funny relationship to women because she is one but she's also a repressed lesbian raised in misogyny. so the femininity she distances herself from is not only weak but also dirty and infuriating because it's something she wants but can't have or she would lose all her dignity. this referring both to being feminine (and all the kinds of weakness that it represents to her) and to desiring other women

she conceptualizes femininity in such a ... phallic way her making dummy feminine is completely a part of this. she's an object. she's hers to work on and direct and own and conquer and she's the recipient of her desires and longing. she's beautiful but useless and she NEEDS her to be this way because she wants complete control over something when her life is spiraling totally out of her control. she is not gonna think about why she chose to make her ultimate object in the image of a woman or much less why it's the image of a woman that she's totally definitely not harbored intense and unhealthy and unprocessed feelings for while said woman was alive and that she's definitely not always wanted for herself . which definitely did not get even worse since her death .

the ghost obviously loves to use this whole thing for psychological warfare also. she loves making ellen feel emasculated if such a thing can happen to a woman. she loooves playing pretty girl bimbo while she has her in The Torture Labyrinth and rubbing her extremely obvious desire in her face innuendo not intended. you can only play unrapeable action hero for so long. you can only play chaste incorruptible ruler for so long. the ghost is not only an absolute bitch but also a massive whore ❤️ because ellen knows she is as well ❤️

thoughts. despite ellen being a #womaninstem she is not by any means a feminist i think she leans masculine because it gives her a feeling of being grounded and in control and she can't take herself seriously unless she performs her image of serious which is a man. i think she goes from moderately unfeminine to actively antifeminine as the situation with the ghost gets worse. trying to counterbalance how vulnerable and violated the ghost can make her feel. and how she's being trapped into her house and behaving like a human pet. she's not really aware she's doing any of this but also if you ask her whether she thinks femininity can be as powerful and serious as masculinity she'll definitely say no #myoldwoman

also she has a funny relationship to women because she is one but she's also a repressed lesbian raised in misogyny. so the femininity she distances herself from is not only weak but also dirty and infuriating because it's something she wants but can't have or she would lose all her dignity. this referring both to being feminine (and all the kinds of weakness that it represents to her) and to desiring other women

she conceptualizes femininity in such a ... phallic way her making dummy feminine is completely a part of this. she's an object. she's hers to work on and direct and own and conquer and she's the recipient of her desires and longing. she's beautiful but useless and she NEEDS her to be this way because she wants complete control over something when her life is spiraling totally out of her control. she is not gonna think about why she chose to make her ultimate object in the image of a woman or much less why it's the image of a woman that she's totally definitely not harbored intense and unhealthy and unprocessed feelings for while said woman was alive and that she's definitely not always wanted for herself . which definitely did not get even worse since her death .

thoughts. despite ellen being a #womaninstem she is not by any means a feminist i think she leans masculine because it gives her a feeling of being grounded and in control and she can't take herself seriously unless she performs her image of serious which is a man. i think she goes from moderately unfeminine to actively antifeminine as the situation with the ghost gets worse. trying to counterbalance how vulnerable and violated the ghost can make her feel. and how she's being trapped into her house and behaving like a human pet. she's not really aware she's doing any of this but also if you ask her whether she thinks femininity can be as powerful and serious as masculinity she'll definitely say no #myoldwoman

also she has a funny relationship to women because she is one but she's also a repressed lesbian raised in misogyny. so the femininity she distances herself from is not only weak but also dirty and infuriating because it's something she wants but can't have or she would lose all her dignity. this referring both to being feminine (and all the kinds of weakness that it represents to her) and to desiring other women