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I was putting a transaction in my bank ledger this morning when it hit me, oh it’s my sobriety date. Some would say if you forget such an important date that you might fall back into the grip of King Alcohol. I’m not one of those people that allows fear to rule my life.  

What I have learned in the past 8,401 days is that my relationship with God keeps me sober. I had to do the work, that so many fail to do in the program, in order to gain the relationship with God that has given me a life worth living. 

My life is far from perfect, my health is not what I would hope for at this age, my left knee is giving me pain daily, and my financial well-being is well let’s just say not where I would like to be. I’m a spiritual being having a human experience. My lessons of life do not define me nor rule me. My relationship with God, which took me eight times through the twelve steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, puts me in a position of safety. God is the Father, the Employer and the Director of my life. I follow His lead! Everything is as it should be! Who am I to judge what is happening in and around my life. I am but a grain of sand on a beautiful sunlit beach with the ocean’s waves crashing all around me. 

The twelve steps when broken down to their core are very simple. Clear away the wreckage of my past, make amends to those I have harmed, and the channel will be opened for God’s love and light to shine on my spirit. I feel the presence of God in every second of my life and that keeps fear at bay.