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₀₀₁. carrd ₀₀₂. guidelines ₀₀₃. prompts ₀₀₄. headcanons canon-divergent & hc heavy 𝙕𝙀𝙄𝙏𝙂𝙀𝙄𝙎𝙏 from x-men comics.

ᴀ ꜱᴛᴜᴅʏ ɪɴ:

being "gifted" with a body that does not ask, only takes. growing up a ꜰʀᴇᴀᴋ ⅋ mastering conformity through nonconformity. learning to make yourself smaller ʀᴇᴘᴜʟꜱɪᴠᴇ around something that cannot be contained. the shame of being too much in all the wrong ways. humour coiled as a pre-emptive strike. the loneliness of being difficult to hold. accepting the difference between being touched ⅋ being handled. ☣︎ ☢ ⚠︎

𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐬 𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐜𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐬 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐯𝐢𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧, left sclera stained red with pooling blood. The fight hadn't been fair — if you could call it a fight. There's nothing honourable about dogpiling an lone guy in an alley, but then, Axel had learned a million times over that there's nothing honourable about this fuckass city. It simply eats and eats, just like him. Flashes of his last conscious moments swim around his aching head as he leaned over himself on the metal chair. Elbows to knees, head in hands ... groaning. They had gone straight for the head — they had known not to give him time to simply disintegrate them — and he'd gone down like a felled tree. His back and chest were a mess of scratches and gashes, skin split from the impact of boots. It was, however, the shame that stung more, to be caught so off-guard; he hadn't felt like a target in a long while. The pounding in his head dulled the burning of whatever alcohol was being dragged over his skin by the same woman who seemed to always be in the right place at the right (or wrong?) time. Talking felt like a risky move around her, but he had awoken to her help, and even a little gratitude was in order. ❛ ........ Thanks. Didn't plan on ending tonight in a body bag ... or a dumpster. ❜

𝐀 𝐜𝐨𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐝 𝐯𝐢𝐩𝐞𝐫 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐞𝐝; the hiss was loud and drawn out. Brows furrowed into deep elevens where they met between his eyes, which were squeezed shut. Axel's body tensed at the gentle touch of a wet cloth to his upper back, dabbed gently by hands who knew steadiness like second skin. The wound oozed, a gash splitting the skin and allowing fascia to peek through. Stung like a bitch, he thought, but he'd be fine. He'd had worse in his life ... didn't mean he had to uphold some idea of masculinity correlating with pain tolerance. Shit fucking hurt. ❛ For what it's worth, you're making this way more tolerable. So, uh, thanks. ❜ He peered over his shoulder, watching Saoirse clean him up with a focus he honestly found pretty cute. ❛ I'd probably trust you stitch me up, too, if you want. ❜

soundtrack,  a  muse  playlist  study  !  list  5  songs  that  you  associate  with  your  muse  .  …  (  bonus:  include  lyrics  if  you'd  like  .  )

Happy Song ; Bring Me The Horizon

The world has coalesced Into one giant mess of hate and unrest So let's all sing along a little goddamn louder To a happy song and pretend it's all okay (Let's go!)

GOOD GRIEF ; cleopatrick

Man, I shoulda cut But I couldn't keep my mouth shut Lowlife phonies so corrupt I was speaking my disgust And lost my lips, fought fibs, went buck She love it when I trust my guts Say my peace, give a fuck

Crowbar ; Frank Carter & The Rattlesnakes

It’s a trap and there's no comfort fitting in A fake safety that no one believes in And if it goes against who you think you are It's the death of happiness Go and get the crowbar

Itch ; Nothing But Thieves

There's a hunger in my heart It's full of promise, promise There's an itch under my skin It's under my skin, under my skin, yeah 'Cause, ooᵒᵒooᵒᵒᵒh, I— I just wanna feel something real

Hello Heaven, Hello ; YUNGBLUD

Since I was a little boy, I devised a windmill getaway They'd kick me in the mud and they told me, "That's the price you pay" So tell me, are you gonna die with the lies that they force inside your head Or are you gonna live by the thorns in what you said?

thank you for the tag @deliriumang3l <33 (we're gonna pretend it wasn't from last july RIP)

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