Stave Off Impending Aphasia

this is a poem about hypersexuality

a salacious need for validity

(every moment)

found in your ecstasy

there is reclamation

in your release

so submit to me

and in all the potency of

our intimacy

let’s together

forget the world

its incompetency

its society

and remember musicality

when I caught you in that lie

so irritated to be held

accountable for once

for your devilish actions

and careless wounds

when you reached for me again

I saw this same face

it is how I now know you

it blinds me

it protects me

from which my soul was hung

into my mind retreated my heart

a version different, with lessons few

it caused me grief to feel the words

of a twisted mind and a truth unheard

in silence there is nothing untold

blackened colors of new and old

one thought refills an endless gap

an immensity still, no will, no map

unguided on into the unknown

Every word I write to you is inadequate.

I don’t want to see you go,

I feel you here as I always have

Teaching me a way of constant renewal.

You aged backwards as I grew.

It was a joke we all loved,

therein lies an octagonal prison in which no growth can occur—

development delayed, wounds were caused by unaimed spikes

hurled through the heat into infinite moments in which

the entire spectrum of connection was perceived and lost

hope is fostered engagement, a witness and an address

by self or other to inspire perpetual strength

an engine sustained to remain true

so easily disrupted, so fragile,

encased in porcelain

blue and white

a classic case

of fragility and rejection

all the narratives

with their twisting

narrow tales

are told to project, into air,

a sense that the past

has truly passed

to moments where time stands still

each like a synthetic pulse

looped, set in reverberations

which ripple across my skin

inside mind and soul

beyond also, feeling

the collective unconscious

filled with archetypes

formed by magicked truths

half-understood visions

esoteric and immortal

dominate my sense

of place, of connection

purple buried by…