Gunmetal

Im sorry for spazzing on you guys. I will be inactive for a while, mainly because I need deal with me and my personal issues instead of bottling them up and freaking out at whoever gets close to me. I will be back in a while, and I appreciate your patience and understanding.

Im sorry lacey for putting all of my problems on you Im gonna try and figure out how to better cope with them You didnt deserve my panic attacks Im sorry Ill never put you through any of that again You have my number, and I will be in florida for gyms next week. If you want to talk, im here. I promise I wont stress you out anymore. I wont put my problems on you. I need to learn to deal with them more appropriately. So yeah, ill be around doing my thing. Im sorry. And I immensely appreciate all the things you have already done for me. But im getting off this topic now and looking at my traveling plans.

I need to learn self control instead of immediately freaking out and lashing out at everyone around me, because it just ends up alienating them. They have their own problems too. In the end I am my own worst enemy, and I have to take accountability for my actions and not use my shitty life as a crutch to go around and treat everyone like shit.

Im so sorry

Im so sorry

Someone please fucking help me I cant do this anymore I cant

I dont have shit Anything I do have I take for granted I feel so panicked and hopeless right now I should be medicated god what the fuck is wrong with me

Cant delete tumblr on mobile Well then peace I guess Inactive accounts are deleted after thirty days anyways

Well im done. Im deleting this fucking tumblr and I am going to procede to throw myself in front of a fucking freight train. I cant do this I cant do any of this I am sick and tired of seeing all of this shit I just cant anymore I dont even care how much of a neurotic jackass this post makes me seem Im fucking done Im going to fucking kill myself This is never going to get better This world is never going to be any easier to understand And nobody is ever going to do anything but pity or judge me Nobody will ever fucking understand I am tired of the nightmares I am tired of the cold I am tired of everything I am just so tired And this exhaustion This physical and psychological wear and tear I cant fucking bear it anymore This is my way of saying thank you followers while it lasted But this blog is going to be gone and so will I Fuck life