The Solstice Queen.

anyways good night i’m gonna go indulge in my unrealistic romantic fantasies until i fall asleep

It's always "I love you" and never "Okay, I don't care that we're different. What I care about is you. I care about you. Okay? And I didn't say it. I should've said it. But I didn't. Because... well, 'cause I am an emotionally insecure source of your discomfot who is not good at expressing his feelings. Probably because I've been on my own my whole life. And it's not an excuse, it's just- it's why instead of telling you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me, I make jokes about your ears and I tell you that you try too hard. When, you know, the truth is, I just don't want you to get hurt because... because no one else in the world matters more to me than you do."

"You interest me." "Like a toy?" "No," I murmured. "Like a fire I want to hold in my hands. Even if it burns me."

im really just in the mood to rot into a forest floor somewhere

no i don’t hold onto resentment ever. Hope they die though however