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♡ eleven

Jungkook blames his finger for what happened, but also thanked them because it got him close to you. Though you wouldn't want him closer, no. You can only keep guys as friends (personal reasons) and then that's it. However, that's the thing about Jungkook if he can't walk through the door, he'll climb the window.

♡ Pairing : ITMajor!Jungkook x BusinessMajor!Reader(YN)

♡ Genre : college au, fluff, slight angst, elite reader?

♡ Warnings: cursing, mention of autism, kissing (should this be in here idk)

♡ Status: on going

♡ WC: 2k more or less

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Jungkook face first pops in your door with a flat smile on his face. You were sitting on your sofa giggling at his antics, he already has keys to your place. Just like all your close friend has, you like it that way. It's less lonely. He finally walked in with a paper bag on hand.

This is the fourth or fifth, you can't remember anymore, Jungkook been in your apartment, but only whenever you allow him. You didn't let him spend the night anymore and he's very understanding about it. He's also patient with your decision about that second date.

However, Jimin pointed out that you guys already hangout almost every single night. You're basically dating at this point, but you're not. You tell yourself.

"Remember when you told me that greasy burger on East Avenue that you've always wanted?" He shakes the bag and wiggle his brows.

Your mouth gape and stood up. "No! You remembered?" He handed you the bag and you stick your face inside. The smell of grease and unhealthy amount of meat burst. "I told you about this almost two weeks ago, our first meeting! I can't believe you remember."

He just shrugs like it's nothing, maybe to him it's nothing. But to you? It means the world. Who would drive for a greasiest burger for 30 minutes and waits in line for 2 hours? Jungkook would... for you. So, it does means the world to you that he'll do something like this just to see you smile. You pull him to the sofa so you can devour the burger with him.

"Oh, my God!" Your eyes rolls to the back of your head when you took the first bite. "This is so good!"

While your mouth is full, Jungkook's heart is too. He couldn't stop admiring you and how simple you are, that things like this impresses you when you have people to do it for you. Also, it gives him pride that he knows how to make you happy. He played with his lip ring as he gazes.

You wipe the side of your lip and with mouthful you said, "Sorry."

"Have I ever told you how beautiful you look?" He didn't remove his eyes from your face, he witness how your blood runs to your cheeks. "Because you are."

You chewed slowly and look down thinking how he could say that when your face is smothered with meat juice and oil. How could he sounded sincere saying you're beautiful when you look like you've seen better days in your favorite Lilo and Stitch PJ's? You swallows before looking up, his eyes are still on you.

"Thank you again for the burger-"

Jungkook's lips was soft, almost as if they were made from rose petals and cottons. They were also warm, just like he's always is. Warm and soft Jungkook. Lips gentle with the way he pressed on yours, but his body is stiff because his heart is pounding on his chest. He's shooting his shot again, he doesn't know how you'll react. You pushed him lightly.

"Sorry, I wasn-"

"No, it's just... I have food in my mouth." It took him 3 beats before he brust out laughing, his pitch laugh made you join him. He shakes his head befofe handing you water and watches as you fix yourself. "Thank you."

"Good?"

You nod and he presses his lips again on yours. This time deeper with his hand on your waist. He pushes you down on the sofa. Your heart starts pounding in your chest, it's possible that he's feeling it against his. You open your mouth for him making Jungkook moan and groan.

He can taste the burger in your mouth and that burger can't be this delicious and sweet. That is all you.

He brushes his hand up carressing on your side, he holds you as if you'll crack if he presses more. You love how gentle he's being on your lips and skin, he's always been soft with you. Always patient.

The kiss didn't went farther, but it was amazing. How he sent electricity in every fibre of your being making you moan with content. You were panting when he pulled away, forehead pressed against yours with a smile on his face. No one talks for moment, both of you processing what just happened because this brings the-whatever-relationship-this-is to another level. It wasn't your first kiss, but it definitely your first incredible and dizzying one. Jungkook closes his eyes with his forehead stills on top of yours.

How dare he tells you your beautiful when he looks like this? An angel, perfect eyes, nose and lips. If he spread his wings right now you wouldn't even be surprise. You bit your lip when he opens them, almost as if he's staring into your soul.

"I'm going to miss you." He mutters.

"It's just one day, Kook."

He sighs and rest his head on your chest, body weight relaxing om top of you. "Okay." He whispers.

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Silence. It fills the limosuine that your parents sent, even though you weren't alone. Two men and your father's secretary accompanies you. You requested that no one should talk to you, unless they were spoken too. Sure, it sounded like your a brat, but when the topic is all about this day and your father you'd rather cut your ears off.

You received a phone call this morning from your mother, says you can't be late, like your life isn't revolving about time and schedule already. She also informs you that your father didn't approve Mira joining dinner which put you in such mood.

"Approve? He says he didn't approve?! Like Mira is some kind of business that he didn't like. She's his daughter for the love of God!" You remembered screaming. "I'm spending tomorrow morning with her. I don't care what any of you says!"

Your mother just sighs and says she'll do something about it. Told you to take care and she loves you, it made you sick to your stomach because you know she doesn't says those words to your sister.

"Ms. YN, we've arrived." Soo-young, you father's secretary, handed you tissues. You touched your face and felt a wet patch on your cheeks.

It's still the same, a beautiful modern house that you grew up hating. Behind those magnificent walls and thick glass lies a beyond repair of a family, an empty shells of people who will never call it home. All because of him, your father. Because he wants perfect and power, which is a dangerous combination when you came from money.

Employees lined up for you, they bow their heads when you step out of the vehicle. You hated every part of this day and it's just getting worse and worse. When you reached the inside of the cold house your immediate thought is your sister.

"Where's Mira? I need to see her." You kept walking in direction of her room.

"She's in therapy right now, Ms. YN."

You stopped your tracks, "What? She's supposed to be here."

"Yes, but her therapsist came from France just for her. Mr. Y/L/N orders to get you ready as soon as we can." She wasn't even looking up from her tablet. "This way, please."

Your whole body heats up as your parent's promise is broken again. They knew that Mira is their only leverage and they're using her to get you do whatever they want. Even if it means making the both of you miserable.

"Soo-young?" She look up from the device and smile timidly, you did too. "Do me a favor?"

"Anything, Ms. YN."

"Tell my father that he can fuck himself."

Her mouth gape, but before she could say anything you were steps away from her. She called your name over and over, but you just walk faster, when they open the door for you your father's standing on the other side. His white thinning hair with eyes cold as you remember them to be and his lips in a thin line appears on a gloomy day, of course. He's never home in daylight and definitely not when your around. He's as tired fighting with you as you were, but none of you are going to back down because both of you are fighting for what you love. Him is his money and you is your sister and freedom.

"Where do you think you're going?"

"Soo-young has a message for you." You smirked and look back at pale faced secretary. "Go ahead."

Your Dad sigh and head inside, "Follow me."

"No, I'm leaving. You promised me Mira."

"YN, if this day didn't go as I planned I will send Mira to US, there's a facility there that takes care of... her kind."

Your fingers turns into a fist on every word that came out from his mouth. He has no right to utter your sister name, no right to send her anywhere away from you, no right into ordering you what you should and shouldn't do. It makes you angry that he's your father or that he's an asshole, but you have to obey.

For Mira.

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They put you in a lavender floral dress. It hugs your torso perfectly while the skirt flows mid-thigh. At least you like the color and the design, the first and probably the only thing that you will like today.

Your Mom, Dad and you, enters a VIP room of the main Hotel of the Y/L/N family. It only caters for the high-society, you despise this place because it is filled with pretentious and thight ass people. People you would never like.

"Mr. Kim and his family is running a little late, they sent they're apologies." Soo-young said as they seated you.

"Tell him we're not waiting for more than 5 minutes."

Your Mom turn to you, "Sit up straight, Darling."

"What is this about? Tell me already." You asked for the fifth time today, but ignored everytime.

Your parents shared a look, your Mom started talking when your Dad gave her permission. "We will strengthen out partnership with The Kims, this will make our business grow on their territory. We will invest in them in return."

"What do I have to do with that?"

"You have to marry Mr. Kim's son."

A knock cut you off and two elderly couple walked in followed by another man, who's probably three or four years older than you and finally Taehyung. Suddenly his texts made sense, he knew that this was going to happen, he knew about this and he didn't had the heart to tell you.

His parents apologized for being late and sat down across from your parents, while his brother sat acroos from you and next to him is Taehyung with his scowl face. His brother has the same sour mood as you are and non of the adults seems to sense the tension.

"Marry? I have to marry Mr. Kim's son?"

"YN not now." Your Mom smiled at the Kim's and gave an apologetic look.

You scoff, "Oh, I'm sorry. Please tell me when can I react about this absurd idea."

"YN, that's enough." Your father finally talked.

It enrages you that this is what they plan, to offer you as a bind to their business.

"Mr. Y/L/N, thank you so much for this." Taehyung's father smiled brightly. "My son already considered doing this and he couldn't be happier."

Yeah, happiness filled the room, if it was possible three of you rolled your eyes almost at the same time. They talked as if you weren't there, as if they're talking about a building or a land that they're going to trade to each other and not their children.

"We should order before we start?" Mrs. Kim cheered ignoring the atmosphere on half of the table.

You eyed Taehyung, his eyes are apologetic for what is happening. He was informed about what's going to happened weeks ago, but he didn't know that it was you until couple days. He was told not to mention anything to you because you were a flight/fight risk, and now he hated himself that he made you sit through this. He should've said something.

All those things that Jimin said about your life made it even worst for him. You just had a chance of being happy with his best friend, Jungkook. Now, you're about to marry his brother, Taemin. Who were also weren't fond of the idea of marrying some stranger. But his parents assure them that this will benefit them most.

When his parents mentioned the wedding date you were about to protest, but Taemin stood up and slam his hand on the table. "I'm not going through with this." he look up to you, "I'm sure you're lovely, but I can't marry someone I don't know." His jaw clenched.

"Sit down, Taemin." Mr. Kim orders which earns a glare from him. "We've alrrady talked about this– I am sorry, Mr. Y/L/N. He'll do it, after all the contract had been signed."

"What? What contract?" You sat up straight.

Taemin relaxes his shoulders, "What do you mean? You don't know anything about this?" You shake your head and he turns to the elders of the room. "I cannot believe people like you exists. Using your children as pawns to your fucking business, I hope you choke on your every single pennies you own!"

"Taemin!" His father's boomed.

They've already signed everything? So, what, all you have to do is marry Taemin to seal the deal and make sure none of the family will back down? What kind of bullshiterry is this?

"Is there going to be a problem about this? Because we didn't waste our daughter's time for this." Your Dad utters.

You scoff, then it turns into a laugh. An obnoxious loud laugh, they all turn to you. No matter how many times your Mom calls your name you kept on laughing, clutching your stomach.

"Thank you, Dad." You calmed down and wiped tears on your eyes. "Thank you so much for thinking about me. Oh, God, that is so nice of you! Waste my time, right? The Kim's should be embarrass about their son's protest to marry a stranger because it is the noble and right thing to do. They should be ashamed of themselves for not controlling their son! What kind of parents are they?" The air in the room tilted, your father's knuckles are turning white while his ears are burning red, The Kims and your Mom is holding their breaths as you and your Dad seems to have each other by the neck. "No? All of you-"

"YN, that is enough! One more word out of you and you will deal with the consequences!"

"–fuck yourselves. I am leaving." You push your chair and stood up. Taemin declares he's leaving too, he was the first out the door and slam it shut. You were about to do the same when your Dad speaks.

"Mira will suffer from this. Take my word for it." Your heart sank as much as you want to run away from them you can't they have you by the neck using your sister's name. "If you leave right now, your sister will be sent away and you will never hear from her again."

It took you moments to drop your hand from the doorknob and face them with streaming tears. Taehyung wanted to reach for you, he wanted to tell them to fuck off as well, but he figured it's no use. He can't so anything about this to help you out, he wishes there's something he can do.

"Sit down, YN." Your mother coos, you obey her and sat back down. You flinch when she tried to touch your arms. "I'm sorry about that. Now, that everything is back on track, we need to talk about the date of the wedding."

Mrs. Kim looks at everyone back and forth, "I don't think Taemin will come back or show himself again. He has this temper that made him an unbearable person that's what happens when you give them everthing they want."

Taehyung's eyes rolls and scoffs. His brother is nothing like that, he's the nicest out of the two of them. Graduated top of the class and volunteers at every shelter he can. How can they frame their own son as some kind of spoiled brat, if him they were talking about Taehyung would agree, no doubt.

"Well, you have to convince him. Our industry would like to merge with you as soon as we can. The deal is 6 months." You Dad spoke as if you weren't crying your eyes out.

"We'll do something about it-"

Taehyung who's been sitting silently ever since they walked in spoke something he should regret. Said something that made everyone finally notice his presence and sends shivers down your spine. He didn't even look up when he said it, he's just tapping his fingers on the table as he clenches his jaw.

"I'll do it."

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Mira smiled as you brings out the snacks you bought for her. She gathers everything using her arms and set it on her pink bed. You look up to her nurse and told her to give you a moment with her.

"You're not going to eat it all at once, do you?" Her bed bounces when you jump in. "You have to give me some."

She hides the snack behind her. "But you gave them to me."

"Yes, to share."

She sigh and slowly handed you one.

You spent all day with Mira, playing and doing whatever she wants. So you sneaked her out and went to a lake, she loves outdoors and nature specially with flowers You remembered how much you begged your parents to build a gazebo in the garden for her. You were 15 and she was 19. The look on her face when she first saw it is always going to be a core memory for you.

She sulks when both of you have to leave, but them you promised her ice cream. Mira catch you up about her life, more like ramble about what she does or what they do to her.

Mira says something that broke your heart to millions. "I'm going to be fixed sooner, so I can come to your school my doctor said."

Like she needed fixing, you hate on what kind of doctors or people she's around with. How they can say something to her like she's less than human. When you vowed to hate your parents forever for what they did to her and you, you meant it. Making Mira feel like this.

You were thirteen when you found out that you have an older sister. You found photos and document on your Mother's desk when you were trying to find her seal to sign a school paper yourself. At first you were confused as to why she has a photo of a girl, who looks exactly like you, but older with short hair. You took a copy of her birth certificate and everything else.

By the time you were 14, your Mom finally let you meet her. She's in a seperate home, away from all of you. "She doesn't belong with us, it's better this way. People won't talk about our family." Your father said, that right there that day is when you started hating him. How disgusting and vile his mindset when you used to adore him as a smart business man.

After that, years of fighting with your father about Mira. They were wrong about her, she's not "useless" as they put her to be. She's much more than that, she's sweet and kind and funny. Sure she has fits and all but that's not her fault, she has triggers, but with right care and patience it can be easily deal with.

Autism isn’t this negative thing, it’s just a different way of thinking and experiencing the world. She just find herself more or less compatible with living than others, she'll have different needs and it may vary everyday. Why can't they understand that? Why do they keep trying on "fixing" her, when all she needs is love and to be seen as what she is and that's okay? Why do we have the same parents, when she could have others who will love her with their whole heart?

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Your phone buzzed in your night stand, you carefully roll out of the covers so Mira won't stir and wake herself up.