And all that I had loved

calorie goal: 300 had 2 celery sticks, 2 medium carrots and 1 medium iced coffee with milk calorie intake: 216

Hey so i guess technically this is day two because i restricted yesterday and I wanted to write my food logs in my bullet journal but then i realized how my friends love to look through that shit so i guess imma do it here :)) Calorie Goal: <400 1 medium apple, 1 large celery stick, 1/2 grilled chicken breast marinated in this peanut sauce and one grilled head/stalk of broccoli, black tea w milk and honey (uGHHH) water intake: 128 oz Calorie intake: 316 it was sunday night so i haD to eat dinner with the family but tomorrow is senior skip day and a big group of us is going to the beach (lol hopefully no one pours buckets of water on me thinking im a beach whale).. I cant wait until the day i can comfortably wear anything. 

so first mom takes me out shopping for an after prom club dress and i try on this one i like and shes like “yeah but you ripple too much for that dress” thanks so i’ve already been fasting for 2 days but whatvr year ik im a whale thanks. OH AND THEN after dinner (which they made me join- assholes broke my fast) they sit me down and suggested PLASTIC SURGERY (a boob reduction and lift) yes, i have boobs, yes they are saggy and a really big insecurity of mine. Shit costs THOUSANDS meanwhile likee we dont have that money?????? like at all?? dont think we are rich my mom was a teacher who just got fired and my dad does some like analyitics thing I WAS NERVOUS ABOUT ASKING THEM TO CONTRIBUTE JUST 100$ to prom and they CONSTANTLY make me feel like a financial burden but i guess they hate my body enough where thheyll fucking spend all this money we dont have to change it :))) i cant even cry because i hate my body just as much as them