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select fics: smooth operator, eterna, unusual haunts, room 202, and scenic our house.

check out extras & art for these fics under the tags smooth operator, eterna, scenic our house, and unusual haunts.

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reblogs are greatly appreciated, but please do not repost my work without my permission. thanks 👍

I just love Emmet and how you write for him so much LMAO

yooo thanks for the ask anon, and no need to apologize, it’s not annoying at all! i’m super appreciative of any asks about my writing and i appreciate your words here too 🫶 thanks so much for your compliments on how i write emmet, i’m super super touched 🥹🧡 honestly OYT is a very old work (i published it about two years after i initially wrote it without editing it much at all) and i’ve been meaning to revamp the whole thing for a while lol 😅😅

i really wish i could give you a clear idea of when i’ll pick it up again, but since fic writing is a hobby more than anything, i try not to force myself to work on something if i don’t have time atm. as you’ve said, i’m definitely not someone who rushes stuff, so thanks so much for your support regardless.

i always make a post on my tumblr if i’ve updated something—& i’ll be sure to do so for OYT when i’ve got the creative energy for it again.

thanks anon, take care of yourself!

hello anon, thank you so much for this kind message, you’ve made my day 🥹 i’m honored that my fics felt that way for you, and i hope your week gets better soon, you deserve it! 🫂 i’m also so grateful that you’ve shared these words with me, and for your support. thank you truly. i’ll keep doing my best! 🧡

take care of yourself!

This fic was truly an inspiration. Ntgl, I definitely teared up a few times while reading the final chapter. I am going to miss Snowy so, so much, but I really enjoyed the open ending. Thank you for the wonderful world you’ve created, and I can’t WAIT to see what you come up with next! You have not seen the last of me, that’s for sure.

All my love,

Matches

i woke up and saw this and immediately started sobbing (positive). thank you so much for this matches, i have been absolutely BLESSED by your beautiful artwork once again! 🥹😭🥹💕🤯✨😭🥹

ok i’m going to yap. firstly, your human snowy design looks SO COOL!!!! i adore how you’ve visualized their personality. the streak of white hair, the black-tipped hands and the hooked nose are all great touches—you have a wonderful attention to detail. and all the interactions with the other characters the you’ve drawn are absolutely fantastic, haha. i can’t pick a favorite! also, that spooky snowy drawing is PERFECT, it definitely matches Snowy’s eldritch horror vibes in some parts of the story 👻 and to touch briefly on your art style: your pen work feels smooth, precise, and satisfying. This page has an excellent composition & balance as well. to summarize…i love love love it! 🥹

then second drawing: oh jeeze oh holy moly. i have so much to say. that brilliant blue gradient, the eerie way the blizzard cuts through snowy’s form, it’s all just INCREDIBLE. you’ve captured that scene exactly the way i’d imagined it!! the glance at the hands, the palpable feeling of unease in the way you’ve laid out the paneling…snowy’s figure looks perfectly lost and lonely, too, reflecting how aimless they felt in their old world. i love the way they’re holding onto themself like they’re desperate to hold onto anything in the empty storm around them. idk how to properly express how i feel right now except for a ridiculous emoji spam lol. 😭💥🤯❤️🥹💕😭😭🤯🤯🥹😭‼️‼️

i’m infinitely grateful for your words and for this art, which feel full of kindness. so, same to you, matches—i can’t wait to see what you come up with next. thank you for sharing these with me, i’ll keep doing my best!

all my love 🧡

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30. share a wip?

something is definitely happening here. kris deltarune save me. save me kris deltarune 😭

20. what inspires your art?

radiohead /hj

but yeah basically music in general. i love music across all genres and i’m real passionate about it. usually when i’m drawing i’ll put on a playlist to match the 🌌Vibes🌌

i do this sometimes for writing, too!

27. how would you describe your process while drawing?

ok i’ll lock in to answer this one 🫡 my drawing process consists of about three stages—a gestural sketch, a cleaned-up sketch, and then coloring. i’d say that the drawing develops the most during that last stage, and ultimately the finished product will have a mix of line-less and lined art. i also posted a speed-paint & explanation answering an ask on my drawing process here, if you’d like more detail. 🙂‍↕️

thanks for this kind ask, anonymous friend! 🧡

on a completely unrelated note i finished writing my fic scenic our house yesterday and i’m happy but also really sad about it. i already miss my babies 😭😭😭😭

https://archiveofourown.org/works/56271124/chapters/194376001

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hello daisypetal, thank you so much for the compliment 🧡🥹 and you have enabled me, fashion is one of the things that i’m very passionate about!! i got a bit carried away and doodled a few of my outfits this week, including what i wore today 😆✌️

44. what’s last outfit you wore? how do you typically dress?

i’m a big believer in wearing what makes me feel most comfortable. i also have a lot of fun expressing myself through fashion, so many of my outfits are a mixture of what i love and what feels comfortable on me! i most enjoy loose, modest clothing, layers, and accessories. my wardrobe contains both thrifted pieces as well as the occasional investment piece, like a nice purse or leather jacket that will last. i’m not ashamed to admit that i like trendy things, too! 🎀 🥰 tho i’m also the type to wear clothes until they’re completely destroyed, lol. 😆

to answer your second question, my hair is about waist length! sometimes i exaggerate the length a bit in my chibi doodles haha. my irl hair is almost exact to how i draw it, it’s wavy and thick, so i love to style it 🙂‍↕️ if you have any go-to ways of styling your hair, i would love to hear about them ✨ here are some of my favorite ways of styling mine!

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haha, unfortunately i just answered this in the previous ask, but here’s a little happy dance for you ✨🎶🎵 thanks for the ask, anon! 🧡

23. Favorite piece(s)?

24. Artists that inspire you.

25. What compliment about your art has stuck with you the most?

Sincerely, -✉️✉️✉️

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letter, hello! ✉️ it is always a treat to see an ask from you in my inbox! thank you!! also dw i’ve had to double check the numbers & corresponding questions a million times already lol. ✌️😆

23. oh man. this is a tough question. though i’m a big fan of this surreal portrait series i made in 2024. these pieces have a very unique style, colorful and experimental. 🙂‍↕️

24. KOTTERI, Henri Matisse, Vincent van Gogh, Hayao Miyazaki, Utagawa Hiroshige…among others! honestly, seeing any artwork inspires me, as everyone has such a unique way of viewing and expressing things. so, i love a good trip to an art museum!

25. once an irl said to me about my painting: ‘this piece looks like you colored in a whole universe’ and i was like woah. 😳 seriously? 🥹 ‘cause the whole time i was making it i couldn’t stop thinking about how much i wanted a burger

thanks for the ask…and for the opportunity for me to remind you that i will absolutely GET YOU next art fight 🫵😈 /silly

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i’m so happy you like it, anon! i’m overjoyed & amazed by how many asks i’ve gotten, thank you, everyone! 🧡🥹

also, if you’d like to send in another ask with another set of questions please don’t hold back! i’ve just limited it to three per ask so i’m not overwhelming you all with text walls, lol 😆

2. a fic you didn’t expect to write?

unusual haunts. the characters in this fic had minds of their own, and the story ended up developing and blooming before my eyes. this is a fic that i basically i lived in for about a day, forgetting to eat or drink, which i definitely don’t recommend haha. 😮‍💨 it’s one of my favorites pieces that i’ve written, though. it’s heart-wrenching and comforting and it really speaks to me, personally.

3. last sentence you wrote?

here’s a recent excerpt from a pkmn za wip that i’m unsure i’ll ever post:

And thus the game continues, Harmony’s every halting, sluggish throw more desperate than the last. Absol chirps, leaping out into the night with trilling cries, until Harmony swears she almost tastes the sun coming close on the horizon, slinking up in her throat like a spicy, slick sludge.

Absol leaps for the catch. Harmony flings the toy with such force her arm whips forth and slams against the counter. She hears the cart of drinks rattle beside her but ignores it.

The fury’s still stuck there—all stuck and trapped inside of her. It’s unfair. It was all over before she could say what she wanted to say. It was all over before she’d even begun.

17. what compliment about your writing has always stuck with you?

so many comments have touched my heart, if not all of them. i’m very grateful for everyone’s words, and i can’t express that enough. 🥹 recently, there was a particular comment on scenic our house that said something along the lines of:

there is a quiet feeling of hope laced in each line, each chapter, and it makes me ache and hope so, so badly that despite everything, it will be okay.

and wow, that really touched my heart.

thank you for this ask, anon. take care of yourself!

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quack hello!!! 🦆 than you so much for you congratulations, and for this ask! i’m so grateful 🧡

8. what made you start writing?

this is an excellent question—i love escaping into a fantasy world, learning new things, or experiencing a perspective i’d never thought of before. writing does that for me and more. it allows me to explore, create new worlds, and venture into the unknown. what i love most about it is the sheer possibility of writing—there’s so much that it can develop into, even if i know nothing about the road ahead. many times, the simple act of writing itself has both a thrill and a certain comfort. so i believe that i began writing out of my love to create. it’s always been so much fun!

18. favorite things to draw?

i love drawing the human figure, particularly portraits. line, human form, and composition are my favorite things to work with. on occasion i enjoy sketch studies, pen drawings, and gestural work. i also love creating pieces that are utterly surreal.

29. if you had one piece of advice to give your younger artist self, what would it be?

to not be so hard on myself! as a young artist, i always had very high standards, as well as a plethora of perfectionistic tendencies that began to suck the joy out of my work. soon, i felt worried more than excited when i was starting a new piece of artwork. this is easier said than done, but letting myself be free of my own expectations has helped me produce some of my best work, and it’s completely removed that anxiety that wouldn’t allow me to start.

thank you for your kindness as always, quack. take care of yourself and stay warm this season!

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13. writer’s block is tough, and i’ve experienced it often! this is a bit silly, but i enjoy romanticizing the act of writing on the days that i struggle to start my work. i make a cup of coffee, have some cute snacks on hand, play some gentle jazz music, wrap myself in a cozy blanket, and light a nice-smelling candle. since the space and mood around me are perfect for writing, i soon adapt to that mood and begin my storytelling. i often use this same strategy for work or studying, so this method can be pretty versatile!

another method that works for me is just writing a scene that’s as self-indulgent as possible. i’ve written a bit on this before when answering an ask on general writing advice, which i encourage you to check out as well. 🙂‍↕️

if i’m having trouble continuing or starting to write, i find a scene i really, really want to write. it can be anything—even something i don’t think i’ll ever incorporate into a published work. i find that scene, that blurb, or that strand of dialogue, and write it. the more self-indulgent the better! starting something can be the hardest part, so just getting a few words down is a cause for celebration :D

if none of these methods work for you, your mind’s running in circles or you simply can’t stay focused, that may be a sign to take a brain break! go for a walk, stretch, take a shower, lay down and shut your eyes, or make yourself a yummy snack…any of these things can help me get back on track. sometimes, when i’m very into my writing, i forget eat or drink. so make sure to take care of yourself first and foremost—if needed, set some alarm reminders!! giving your body the nutrients it needs may be what helps get your mind working again. the brain uses so much energy, after all!

i hope this helps! thanks for the ask, cael-salad 🧡

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45. great picks!! thank you very much for your curiosity, anon! for this question…i’m very interested in existentialist psychology(logotherapy), philosophy, the psychology of disability, and the intrinsic tie between the body and the mind. learning about these topics compels me, as i feel they help me better understand myself as well as cope with the realities of my own mortality. i still have much to learn! though, here are a few classic books on these topics that i’ve loved:

Illness, Hari Carel; When the Body Keeps the Score, Bessel van der Kolk; Man’s Search for Meaning, Viktor Frankl

..among others. i could very well ramble about this for hours. if you’re interested at all in philosophy, psychology, or psychology of disability, i very much recommend these! 🙂‍↕️

47. haha i love speech habits too!! especially when i’m writing characters—speech habits, accents, and choice of filler words tell a lot about a character’s life experiences and personality. it’s absolutely fascinating!

to answer your question, i have a habit of using the slang i grew up with when i’m around friends or family, while i tend to speak professionally with strangers, at work, or when i’m doing any sort of public speaking. i’ll also write these blog posts in a more professional voice i think, though i often do get causal.

so here’s the same paragraph i wrote about existentialist psychology written in my most casual speech.

i find existentialist psychology real interestin,’ ‘cause it helps me cope with my mortal body. and that intrinsic tie between the body and the mind really fascinates me, you know? like how if you feel anxiety in your mind your body feels it, too. or the way you can store trauma in your body itself. i love learnin’ about it—i guess it helps me better understand myself.

i don’t exactly have a specific accent, but i have the tendency to subtly cut off the end of my gerunds. i also say phrases like ‘you know’ ‘goes crazy’ or ‘i guess,’ ‘i dunno,’ etc. i try not to use the filler word ‘like’ often, but i often say things such as ‘slay’ and ‘lowkey,’ so i think it lowkey cancels out. lol.

41. describe yourself in four words!

50. something you’re proud of yourself for?

Then, I made up a question…is there any big events in your life that have impacted or changed you as a person? I hope this isn’t too personal so you don’t have to answer that one if you don’t want to.

Keep up the amazing work!!!

-Friendly anon

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41. i really had to think about this one haha. i’d like to say: creative, chill, determined, and thoughtful. i put a lot of deliberation, creativity, and passion into the things i do—but i’ve often been described as having a very relaxed disposition, which i appreciate. i’m the type to love the simple things, like good food and good company, but i also love to challenge myself and thoroughly pursue my passions with a full and open heart.

50. i’m proud of learning to being gentle with myself. i live with a disability, so i’m often limited in my day to day life. i also have a very perfectionistic mindset, and those two things obviously conflict 😮‍💨 i always want to get everything done within a specific timeframe, and if it’s not done perfectly, i often take emotional responsibility for it. that can weigh heavy on my mind. lately that’s begun to change, with no small effort. i’ve been learning how to be gentle with myself, how to have a kind inner dialogue, and how to accept my limitations. it’s really about realizing that i can’t do it all and trying to be okay with that. i often say to myself that the things i missed out on weren’t meant for me anyway. this is an ongoing process, but i’m so, infinitely proud of myself for taking the first step.

for your last question, i do appreciate your consideration anon, thank you. and i appreciate your curiosity about me as well. this is a great question! i really believe my art reflects me and my experiences, which is fun to explore & talk about.

so here’s my answer:

along the lines of what i spoke on in question 50, i’ve had a few health crises in the past decade or so. as hard and scary as those have been, they’ve taught me so much about myself, and given me a newfound gratefulness for my life and for my loved ones around me. as a human being, i have a unique and finite time on this earth, and each day i try to live in the moment, even though sometimes that can be a very brutal and painful thing. so basically—experiencing those low moments taught me how to treasure my small and precious life.

thank you for this ask, friendly anon. i’ll keep doing my best! 🧡

4. if you wrote a sequel to a fic, which fic would you write one for?

11. favorite line you’ve written in a fic?

12. favorite fic(s) that you’ve written?

Your pokefics are some of my all time favourites, hope you're having a good day!

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4. likely my most recent pokefic, room 202. i honestly love the pokemon za world and would really enjoy exploring it more—in fact, i constantly toy with the idea of writing a fic on the events of the dlc, which i feel have some good hidden story potential.

11. man this is a tough question haha. sometimes i write something and i’m like ‘oh this fucks.’ but i also say that when i bake a really good sweet potato, so. maybe my standards are pretty silly.

this line was the first line i thought of, from my fic eterna. i developed a very descriptive and innocent, yet visceral voice for hikari, so there are many lines in her inner dialogues that i love. this line is post-banishment from jubilife village, where hikari realizes that she has been truly abandoned.

Hikari thinks of nothing as she wanders, no destination in mind. She knows what will become of the people she asks for help. They will be swallowed. So she will not ask anyone for help. Togekiss are lonely creatures, so she will stay lonely. Her wings flutter, and they mark her. Cloud-being. Sky-faller.

this is from chapter three, the glass basin. it’s one of my favorite chapters that i’ve written—there’s so much raw emotion. i hope to pick this fic up again at some point ‘cause i love writing hikari. 🙂‍↕️

12. probably smooth operator. it definitely isn’t my best work technically, but the characters and story have a special place in my heart.

thank you so much for the compliment and for this ask fuddler, i really appreciate it! you have a wonderful day as well, and take care!! 🧡

what a journey it has been…i can’t thank you all enough for your asks, your interactions, and your comments that i read again and again. i am so grateful to have had the opportunity to connect with you all over our shared love of art & stories. thank you! i’m super-duper grateful!

🧡 grub’s 500 follower 50-question ask game 🧡

i’ve put together an ask game for this occasion. some of the questions are about me personally, some are about my writing, and some are about my art. you can include up to three of these per ask if you’d like, and if you don’t see a question that appeals to you, you’re free to come up with your own :)

1. something you’ve learned through writing?

2. a fic you didn’t expect to write?

3. last sentence you wrote?

4. if you wrote a sequel to a fic, which fic would you write one for?

5. preferred writing fonts?

6. favorite place to write?

7. how long have you been writing?

8. what made you start writing?

9. favorite part of the writing process?

10. least favorite part of the writing process?

11. favorite line you’ve written in a fic?

12. favorite fic(s) that you’ve written?

13. any advice for burnout or writer’s block?

14. what inspires you or your writing?

15. writers you’re inspired by?

16. how would you describe your process while writing?

17. what compliment about your writing has always stuck with you?

18. favorite things to draw?

19. easiest part of the body to draw?

20. what inspires your art?

21. advice for artist’s block?

22. favorite modes of drawing besides digital?

23. favorite piece(s)?

24. artists you’re inspired by?

25. what compliment about your art has always stuck with you?

26. favorite place to draw?

27. how would you describe your process while drawing?

28. what would your art taste like?

29. if you had one piece of advice to give your younger artist self, what would it be?

30. share a wip?

31. something you’ve learned through drawing?

32. besides writing and drawing, what are your other hobbies?

33. do you want to write something outside of fanfiction? if so, what about?

34. favorite video game(s)?

35. favorite film(s)?

36. favorite book(s)?

37. early bird or night owl?

38. is your desk space clean or organized chaos?

39. favorite drink?

40. favorite food?

41. describe yourself in four words!

42. childhood favorite music artist?

43. current favorite music artist(s)?

44. what’s last outfit you wore? how do you typically dress?

45. what’s an uncommon/obscure topic that you’re interested in?

46. do you collect anything?

47. speech habits?

48. do you still sleep with stuffed animals?

49. what’s the last thing you ate?

50. something you’re proud of yourself for?

i’ll draw a doodle alongside most of my responses if i can swing it. thank you again for all your support, everyone. i mean it from the bottom of my heart.