Will you love me when I walk barefoot through sidewalks and rocks garmented in barnacles just the same?
When, every time we speak, my nails and the creases of my knuckles are stained with soil and ash?
When I'm as likely to smell of lavender and sage, as compost and manure and freshly turned earth? Wearing flowery blouses that accentuate my hips, as wearing basketball shorts and a tank top?
Will you love me if all I have to give is fresh herbs, flowers; soup made over days with affection and well wishes?
Will you love me if I can't work a 40 hour week or show up to every commitment? If even I can't tell when my body will give out, fail from under me?
With boots and jeans stained with mud, with sea water, with weeds and clay and shit? With hair gone grey, tangled with leaves and twigs? With weak wrists or ankles that retreat from under me.
I am not the storybound mistress who is graceful and perfect, always kempt and kept and ordained by only the most beautiful smells and visages.
I am not the musclebound hero who has a sharp chin and suave words, wit to match a king, handsome suits torn asunder with drama.
I have holey clothes that are hand me downs of hand me downs, I have nails uneven and blunted by the clay of the earth. I am calluses and old denim and waves of hair that curl or tangle with just a touch. I am country music and roads and the choice to veer away from the generational curse.
I am the daughter of cigarette smoke and the son of ashes and closed fists. I am a product of the smoky mountains and the flat glades and the relentless ocean. Late nights and the whistle of trains and quiet conversations, and the howling wind demanding reciprocation in a language it can weave through.
An agate washed downstream, obsidian desperate to blunt its edges. Pulse in the waves and tides and the receding of the shoreline. Composed of estuaries and places where the waters mix and the strange meet. Curious flowers in the mirror and tucked into your bangs.
Bleached in the holy water then stained again and again and again in clay and mud and char and blood and blood and blood. A temper that is glacial but intense enough to burn down forests when life is at risk. A quiet beat that can echo through the mountains when added upon others.
Will you love me if I'm not neat and shiny and perfect? If I'm flawed and loud and muddy and rough? Will you love me if I'm not what you pictured, who you thought youd bring home to your parents?
If I'm the rush of the river pulling against your limbs, and the howl of the wind through the valley, and a mirror of you? Will you love me if I'm imperfect and broken, as much as if I'm a rushing torrent pulling you towards beauty and grace?
Will you be with me no matter what shape I take? Will you join me? Can you See me in the river? Can you hear me in the wind?





















