growingpena

Jika dahulu aku berani berbicara

Jika dahulu aku berani menyampaikan

Jika dahulu aku berani meminta maaf

Kita akan seperti apa di masa sekarang?

Akankah KITA tetap ada?

Bukan aku dan kamu yang berjalan di jalur yang berbeda

Tapi kita yang berjalan bersama

Saling menguatkan dan berbagi cerita

Saling mendukung mengejar mimpi

Saling bercanda berbagi canda tawa

Tatapan mata yang menenangkan

Senyum hangat yang buatku nyaman

Hai, aku rindu!!

Pagi tadi melihat seorang pedagang wanita yang begitu tangkas, gesit, dan tetap ramah meskipun dikelilingi banyak pelanggan dengan banyak permintaan. Dalam bahasa industri mungkin kita bisa bilang bahwa dia memiliki kompetensi Customer Orientation yang baik. Melihatnya memberikan inspirasi, bagaimana di tengah 'tekanan' masih memberikan senyum, pelayanan, dan kinerja yang sangat baik. Keramahan, senyum, dan semangatnya memberikan pelayanan yang terbaik menebarkan energi positif. Tak heran jika pelanggannya semakin siang semakin bertambah 😊

It gives me a thought that at this place, traditional market shows us a lot of thing. But what really obvious is that everyone fight for their life, in their own way, maybe feel worry about the result or maybe not, but there isn't any jealousy even if they sell the same stuff, every seller has their own customer. It always remind me that everyone already has their own sustenance, Allah just ask us to make efforts with the right way and don't worry about the result. Also, don't forget to be grateful and celebrate every moment in our life!

Just imagine how if there is a market which full of people who show their gratitude with smile on their face. I think it will make our day, everytime we are there. Smiley Market? Not a bad idea thought :)

Karena di setiap fasenya Allah selalu kasih partner yang tepat

Ada waktu-waktu kata Allah memang harus sendiri dulu saja

Dan juga ada waktu-waktu yang kata Allah memang harus ada temannya

Dan Allah Yang Maha Tahu selalu memberikan takdir yang tepat

Dari semua itu merasa sangat bersyukur karena sama Allah selalu diberikan support melalui orang-orang di sekeliling yang baik-baik

Yang entah gimana kadang bisa jadi sereceh itu, kadang bisa tiba2 secerita hal2 yg sebelumnya gak pernah diceritain ke siapa2 diluar keluarga, dan pada akhirnya juga setelah cerita dapet insight yang bikin punya perspektif lebih baik dari apa yang lagi dihadapin

Let's put the memories here

If we are fated to know each other better maybe we will meet again

If not, let it be a good and unexpected memory

Because what had happened makes me feel like i don't have time for those emotion

I have to focus on something else

But then there's some sign, my heart, my self craving for my own attention

It's also been a long time since I reflecting on what i feel and write what i feel or even what's on my mind

I barely expressing what i really feel

There's some uncomfortable feeling, fear and worry to open 'that book' and to write or even acknowledge what i feel

So, a few days ago i try to express my feeling on writing but failed

And today i try again, well let's just count this as a progress, a small step to help myself writing again, even not in 'that book' yet

Because I feel something is missing and incomplete when I decide to stop writing (express myself by writing) anymore or avoid it

I would try again to keep writing step by step, because ya i can't deny that i feel like lost the touch to romanticize a moment, a person, or even a feeling

Pada momen yang tidak terduga

Dan orang yang tidak terduga

Tidak hanya satu kali

Memang mungkin semua itu telah berlalu dan menjadi masa lalu

Tapi kehidupan sekarang tak lepas dari yang telah berlalu

Ternyata ya harus begitu :)

Ku tertawakan saja

Tapi aku pun tak bisa berdusta

And even it happened a couple years ago, it still made me smile when remembered about that beautiful moment :)

Every little thing you do for me, is always made my day!

Your genuine support and care always give me a goosebumps

Thank you for showing your support and care in the right moment even when i'm not asking for it

I feel so happy and grateful

Had such a fun & interesting conversation more than 3 hours without feeling awkward or confuse about what to say next is also a gift.

For me, who value a comfortable, deep, and 'safe' conversation, to have chances experience that kind moment makes me feel good and happy and recharged.

I always remember his advice, at one night :

"Don't lowered the standard but manage the expectation"

And just like what other friends also told me, "don't be afraid for too long" :)

Want to write it here, so i remember that i had this moment.

Bukan bicara suasana, tapi isi kepala

Always full of laugh

And makes me wonder

Hujan dan secangkir kopi

Ya malam ini seperti malam itu

Hujan deras dan secangkir kopi manis kesukaanku

Hanya saja malam ini kamu hanya ada di pikiranku

Tak ada kamu dan kopi hitam favoritmu

Tak ada kamu dan humor sederhanamu

Hadirmu hanya dipikiran dan ingatan indahku

I'm thinking a lot about you these day

I miss you

Aku rindu tatapan hangat dan candamu itu

Hope you fine there

Hope i can hear from you soon

See you when i see you

I hope i can give you a good news that you always ask

As usual, i want to wrap up this writing by saying thanks to you

Always feel grateful to ever have great memories with you

Me who didn't like a phone call

Now "can i give you a call?" become one of my favorite word

That awkward greeting and end feels really fun makes our phone call start and end with laugh

I know this is such "teenagers things" but ya it makes me happy so i write this to express my feeling and save it as a good memory

Because like what i write at the start we don't know where life will bring us in the future

So its best to enjoy dan validate every single moment and feeling :)

As an introvert i don't like to make or take a phone call

Especially for someone who not that close

But yah there is this man. I just know him a couple days ago

But after his first call then second call i don't mind to take another call from him

I even waited him to call

I don't like a sudden call and usually i don't take it

But, again, i don't mind when it's him

So i don't know what's the trigger and the reason of that behavioral change 🤷‍♀️

But it just feels weird ? 😅

Basically as an introvert i don't feel comfortable talking to 'new people' besides professional thing and usually want to escape as fast as possible

But yesterday it feels weird, i met a person that the more he talk to me the more i feel 'wow this man is attractive and fun', the more i want to spend more time with him while watching 'Emily in Paris' :))

When he said 'guess what would i watch?' i never thought it would be this series, all i can say is 'seriously?'

Then we're end up watch and laugh together watching it for a moment, yap just for a moment because i have another appointment that afternoon (i kinda regret this 😂)

So, i think after a very long long time, i can feel excited 'again' meeting this 'someone new' and hoping we can spend and have that 'fun' time again.

It's blue but it's bright

Its been around 2 year not coming here..

Happy to be here again :)