Can anybody hear me? I just want to be me.

I live in a studio apartment off someone’s house and I can hear the owner through the wall sometimes and every time I think for sure she’s talking about how much I suck

How the fuck have I made it this far

I’m really fucking selfish. I literally just be thinking about me all day long and it annoys my sponsor because I’m supposed to be thinking of others all day but my job is to help others and I can think about myself while doing that so fuck

Fun fact: I hate me and how emotional I am

My life is good actually my perception is just fucked up and I hate myself. How do I stop hating myself and being concerned with shallow things instead of working on the internal stuff and be a better sober person

Might fuck around and finally admit to everyone that I’m non binary tomorrow